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Monique Jul 2015
So distant lately,feel alone like I have no one.
But thats the thing, no matter the desolation or despair
Feel like no bone in my body actually care.
Intertwining lonesome and alone,
The people i always contact i've shone.
Just the voice in my head keeping my company,
I don't need noone I'm funny.
Not dependat on someone to make me smile or happy,
Not focusing on the **** that goes through my head that makes me feel ******.
I'm freespirted and deserve the best,
I'm just tired hearing people say they're not like the rest.
I'm tired giving chances, tired relying on love.
It may be the best gift of all but I need the one above.
I can't think straight probally because I feel empty,
thinking positive but i need serenity.
I don't even know what I feel.
I want to break glass,  throw plates, punch the wall
But i can't bare the thought of seeing me fall.
I am strong but sometimes being strong is so hard,
I just want to breakdown but i can't stand to frown.
Not your typical poem highlighting metaphors and similes to create a fancy picture,
This is real, direct words are much richer.
I'm lost, i'm bent.
I'm heaven sent.
Lost for words because i'm so clueless,
I just feel useless.



-dpk
Monique Jul 2015
People lose hope to the fact of being let down or failure
But you can't expect to progress without failure.
See failure is something we need to experience
We need to fall to pick ourself back up.
We need to struggle to motivate us to do better.
Though we may not like hitting rock bottom or fighting the battle to strive everyday but it's our thrive.
We crave success and reaching to the top.
Most of us crave power.
But when we reach to the top we sometime lose ourself, change the person we are, become a monstor.
So is that what it's like?
After going through all the rough steps, from the speed bumps to the mountains to reach the top just to become someone we're not for money, fame or publicity?
Having all this power and dragging down everyone to your liking, being disgusting all because of this power you have.
After having people stick by your side encouraging you and you promising those that you'll make it better for them and change the world but instead change yourself.
How can we progress and trust when we can't even trust ourselves?

-dpk
Monique Jul 2015
Why? Why is it so hard to walk away from you?
All you  had given me was pain
Yet theres this force that exerts me towards you
What does this mean?
I cant stay mad at you, i always seem to forgive
I always show you love, you know i would never hurt you the way you did.
This can't be love, we weren't even in a relationship but Lord knows I care for you like a fool
I saw potential in you, i had us all planned out
But i guess thats what happen when you expect too much
You made me feel so crushed.
The way you chose someone else over me
How can this be
It was so ease for you to leave me.
I guess seeing your true colours was the right thing for me.

-dpk
Monique Jul 2015
I want to run away you know,
Like see the world, see the beauty of nature.
See the excitement of alcohol and partying.
See the beautiful smiles & laughter
I know, i know there's consequences but theres so much more to life.
And i'm so tired, tired living in a dream,
Tired living in a prison.
Yes i crave for success but i crave for happiness and memories.
I want to run away ,
Not only to be free
But to find myself, to live the life, see all the beauty & mystery, find success & Christianity.
I'm so determined to be different, to be a successful christian outlaw.
I wanna find love, the type of love that makes me don't wanna sleep because finally reality is my fantasy.
Theres just so much things i want to achieve,
But for right now
I gotta settle in depression & dreams.

-dpk
Monique Jun 2015
I can't seem to think straight.
So much mixed emotions and countless thoughts,
Aching my mind with the pain it brought.
Trying to stay positive and strong,
Wanting to hold on to something that lost its bond.
Eyes watering hope aint worth it no more,
Fixing something that can't be restore.
Yielding, pleading, talking can't change reality,
Wrecking an unstable mentality.
Keep your head up and believe in brighter days,
Just as a rose symbizes love, it rotts away.
Life compared to nature compare to something that's out of reach.
Something that can define what's teached.
It's okay, your stronger than you think.
Just one blink to realize what is Destiny.

-dpk
Monique Jun 2015
You must forgive, understand how much better you would feel when the pressure has been lifted
Not how many times you have drifted,
by people that hurt you and did you wrong.
Remember the pain wont last long.
That anger and hate you have built up for someone feels like a monstor chewing at your soul,
Don't become who hurt you, don't let it tear down your world.
It's okay to cry and get upset,
You always seem to say "I'm fine" I bet.
But you're strong, whatever you are going through wont last long.
Forgive those not because they need to be but do it for you,
Don't let people have that advantage over you making you feel blue.
Forgive to reassure yourself that you're better than this.
The blessing you will receive can't compare to that karma list.
Keep your head up, you can conquer any battle that comes your way.
You just gotta take it step by step each day.

-dpk
Monique Jun 2015
Drive my heart into the night,
Don't come back til its beautiful in sight
You crushed it with all your might,
And all the pieces lyes in your hand.
Silly of me to allow you to trick me with mental emotions,
Overdosing of pills as you hypnotize your potions.
My heart was all I had,
You left it wounded, cold and sad.
I don't want to leave without your love,
It tortured me as a wrecking ball.
As i carried the burden of your manipulative feelings,
Contemplating if it was real or just dealings.
you turned me into someone else as I adorn you.
It's out of my character but what if I did all the things you do.
Trying to remove all the pain and hurt you put me through.
Was it easy leaving me?
because it was so hard getting over of what I thought was meant to be.

-dpk
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