All my life has been is a constant flow of anger and anxiety and its ******* killing me.
It's stopped me functioning normally.
Whenever it got too bad I would just drink myself into a stupor in an attempt to drown my sorrows.
The feelings of anger and anxiety rise to the surface and leave me making even more regrettable decisions.
I'm anxious about being so angry and I'm angry at myself about being so anxious.
Both of those feelings have ****** up too many things for me and I don't want to let it ruin anything else.
I would end it all but I'm too anxious to finally get rid of the anxiety

I am standing there in the street
Screaming at you through the phone
Not putting up with your abuse.

You are right.
I'm a heartless *****.
I am stubborn.
I don't give you a chance to talk.
I am hiding you from my parents.
I do have issues.
But those aren't your problems to point out.

I wont put up with you trying to change me.
I don't claim to be a good girlfriend
In fact I warned you I wasn't
But you thought you could handle it.
That is what you were wrong about.
And I was wrong about you
Thinking you were as lovely as you seemed on the surface
Because it was too good to be true.
This break-up we have just endured
Is for the best.

He can't handle me
But he doesn't realise it
Because he doesn't know me
Well enough to grasp
The fact that I'm not worth
The pain I'll put him through
With the instability I express.

He thinks he can kiss it better
And his mere presence in my life
Will get rid of all the pain,
But he doesn't understand
That my life doesn't revolve around him
And sooner or later
He wont be in it at all.

Anti- depressants didn't work
They took me off
I was doing well without it
But look who got another prescription today
For anti- psychotics
Which scare the **** out of me
And may not even do the trick.

After you have decided
That you are bored
It is not OK to expect me
To be at your beck and call
Reminding me of my questionable morals
And what kind of ideas you have about me.

After you have decided
That you are a part of my life
It is not OK to walk away
Like I never meant anything to you
Knowing full well that I cared
And that I will never forget.

After you have decided
To remove me from your life
It is not OK to come back
Every now and then
To remind me that you are still around
And you are doing just fine without me.

And he looked at her as if to say
"I don't care how crazy you are,
You are perfect in my eyes.
Even when you scream and shout and swear
Throwing everything fragile across the room,
You're perfect
Even when you are sobbing at 3 am
Scribbling things in your notebook
Accompanied by a tub of Ben & Jerry's ice cream,
You're perfect.
When I see you dancing in public on a summers day
Like nothing else matters except moving around
And you talk to strangers like they were your oldest friend
Because you want to see them smile,
You're perfect.
No matter what you're doing when I look at you
You'll be perfect
Because you'll be passionate when you're doing it."
And she knew he was always going to be there.