Playing the protagonist daily,
Motionless days,
Sitting up with spurned hands,
playing around the with a ring that holds
happiness and bitter pain,
looking out the shaded gray window,
An overcast,
hearing drops of sorrows on the window pane,
Reminds me of the day I found,
and lost you,
The joy of staring into your eyes,
The pain of letting go of your hand,
The love that I felt of your embrace,
The passion of your lips against mine,
The hate of our disagreements,
The guilty I felt when I tried to forget,
The sadness when you took everything ,
when you left without a trace,
Without another word,
Without you in this world,
Trying became an unknown option ,
They lingered,
They unravel,
They stay,
The memories,
Standing on darkness and grief,
Looking out,
Waiting,
Passing with days gone by,
It's not the same,
Nothing has changed,
It'll only change,
Only death do us part.

How can you be so childish?
How can you be so hateful?
How can you be so annoying?
How can you be so shameful?
How can you be so embarrassing?
How can you be so carefree?
How can you be so Juvenal?
How can you be so ignorant?
How can you be so stupid?

I know,
You really don't know me at all,
And yet you say all these's things to me,
I hope one day I can forgot ever thing about,
Those's that have been around me,
Because I don't like the way I am now
Or who I've become,
I regret being a part of these's people,
They'll never be on the same level as I am.

Stupid.

Why do you confuse me with your countless lie!
I ask WHY!
you touch me in such a way I use to love so much?
Calling me with our own names we’ve created with laughter that filled the room?
Stare at me as if I was the only one in your world with such unstable glazes that eyes across could see we had something!
My own angriness is filling up with confusion that my vision is fading so fast?
My health has decreased because of my own fault and yours because of the endless hours of sitting                        alone without your presents near me?
It’s already hard enough being near you why do you have to make it harder and painful when you try to think I’m not hurting inside?
I ask WHY!
You should know how that feels, you’ve been in my shoes before
So WHY do you think it’s ok if it’s me ?

That just shows you really never cared a single bit for me, ever since we first saw each other.
You really are one of a kind. Hope you enjoy your smart little friend there, ****!

Liar,
Lies,
The face of a Liar,
Is it alarming that I'm this kind of person?
Scanning through the impacts you've put me through,
The impatiences, the tension, the attention,
All that one can do is lie,
Countless lying, the repetition  of the cycle in play
Over and over again,
The central idea of reasons,
Why you ask?
That brings me to tears,
speechless,
You never had intention of becoming my completed whole,
My other half,
The commitments,
The oath,
The vows,
The promises,
They were nothing but a facade of lies,
Every word that spoke underneath your breathe were nothing,
Trying has become a disease,
Reappearing scars

To know you never realized ,
But lies.

Across,
up and down,
Swirling,
Circles and forms,
I write,
Your name,
On my chest,
On your's,
A dilemma,
Up hold,
I want you all to myself,
Just mine,
Keep & stored away,
Buried treasure,  
hidden away,
My own,
personal paradise,
Only I can discover it,
I shall be selfish and greedy,
To those you are called,
taunting predators,  and dare to touch,
My prized possession,
Love is familiar,
with me and you,
Love will remember,
Everything,
Love can only grow,
Ever more,
Escaping nor leaving is not allowed,
Only preserve,
Hold,
keep,
cherish,
All that I ever knew
&
Need to know.

Your endless rays of perfection,
Wishing for a unwritten flaw,
A mistake for endurance's,
Holding up a shirty front,
Agitated companion,
Restless with covetousness,
Built walls of four,
Cornered shut tight,
Dense from attention,
Convey lies and truths,
What will cause your downfall?
Love?
Hate?
Or,
all of the above?
Remorseful of finding,
Regretful of up bring,
Unreformed of accepting,
What else must come down?