Memories, that kills.

I can only say that there are no regrets,
I can only say that there are spoken words,
I can’t say they were lies,
I can’t say it’s true,
I know I’m a woman,
I know I should be given respect,
I do what I feel,
Why should I care what others do and say?
Are they’re actions the right choice?
Or is it wrong?
I know I’m unlike others,
I maybe straight forward,
I may not be beautiful,
I may not be fun,
But I’ll try,
It’s better late than never.

My Journey to the summer
On the last day of school my journey of finding him begins …
He’s someone special to me very close to me also my one and only love…
Soon we’ll be one with each other even if it takes me forever to find my way to him…
I just can’t stand to be so far away from him .I’ll be waiting until that day comes the day .I’ll be happy again once and for all.



























But that ended up not being true…

Why do you confuse me with your countless lie!
I ask WHY!
you touch me in such a way I use to love so much?
Calling me with our own names we’ve created with laughter that filled the room?
Stare at me as if I was the only one in your world with such unstable glazes that eyes across could see we had something!
My own angriness is filling up with confusion that my vision is fading so fast?
My health has decreased because of my own fault and yours because of the endless hours of sitting                        alone without your presents near me?
It’s already hard enough being near you why do you have to make it harder and painful when you try to think I’m not hurting inside?
I ask WHY!
You should know how that feels, you’ve been in my shoes before
So WHY do you think it’s ok if it’s me ?

That just shows you really never cared a single bit for me, ever since we first saw each other.
You really are one of a kind. Hope you enjoy your smart little friend there, ****!

We ,
The memories and hours,
Of joy,
Can only be,
Gone within a minute,
And  day,
I've given up,
On your unpleasent situtions,
Of love,
And,
Pain,
I don't desreve to suffer with you,
I don't need you to say so yourself,
Thou shall ,
not speak,
Look,
Or say another word,
Just go away.

I'm aware that I'm not the first,
I'll never be the first,
I consider all the possible consumption,
I've implied that you were the first,
But you never stated I was..
First.
The only one,
That came to mind,
Gradually never became problematic for me,
Until once in a white moon,
Frustration hits like rapid lighting,
Your the epitome of both love and hate,
Simply there's no telling if it's good or bad,
Am I the lucky one?
Or is it,
You.