Isabel Maree

Isabel Maree Dec 2020

my heart hangs heavier than gravity
pulling the tides higher
and taking me with
drifting farther from you
or closer
i cant tell sometimes

i remember sitting on that beach with you
that night,
i remember the calm
"its okay now,
i got you babygirl,
i know that sun was beating down on you all day"
you said
into the ebb and the flow
flying straight into my heart
and warming my every cell

i cant ever lose you...
i thought
and then i whispered it to the moon

would he be my moon now?
could he calm my restless seas?
or is this the calm before the storm?

that night
now a memory
as im casted out to sea
lost
your light
once shining my way through the darkness
now fading behind the clouds
where did you go
i whisper
but only i can hear it

im alone
im tired

in the dark, i wonder
will I ever see you again
will this storm ever settle
how do i get back onto solid ground?

i close my eyes
and let myself rest
the waves caressing me..
reminding me of your hands..
of your eyes,
diving into them
into you

i remember the calm
i remember your warmth
i remember your light

i open my eyes..
the clouds are gone

and there you are,
my moon

somewhere in this ocean,
in the deep wide blue
here i am,
Staring up at you.. my moon,

and suddenly im home.

Isabel Maree Sep 2019

Emanate

I was a simple flower, swaying in the breeze..
‘til you you came buzzing by..

I hear you coming near & my nectar sweetens...
As if it had been waiting for you all along..

the buzz becomes a hum as you come closer...
turning into a reverberation..ringing in my ears...

It grows stronger, into this..
all-consuming vibration...

Invading my every thought,
making its way into my blood, veins,
my mind, heart, my bones.....cells...

And then I remember, that...
I have felt this before...

In a time before time..
When we were only cells, ourselves.
Buzzing, humming, vibrating
with trillions of others..
all waiting for the moment,
our moment to expand, to grow,
To stretch our energy out as far into the darkness as we can reach..

It’s the same moment that we are in now..
the dawn of creation, the dawn of love
The moment before diving into the deep of each other..

Before we jump I ask, ”Are you ready? Ready to face the unknown? Face what might be lurking in the depths?”

You land on my petals and
the vibration travels through me, and I know..
we’ve always been ready.

We just had to find our way back.

Isabel Maree Sep 2019

What I Think About

I think about you.

I think about you throughout the day,
whenever my mind isn’t preoccupied..

I think about your hands on my skin,
And your lips and what they might feel like on mine..
I think about your breath on my neck and your voice whispering in my ear..

But do you know what I mostly think about?

My head on your chest, lost in your heartbeat..
Your arms around me, pulling me in closer..
Your fingers interlaced in mine..

I think about making memories with you.

I think about my fingers tracing your skin and running through your hair lit by moonlight while we talk about our innermost thoughts, secrets, and desires with only the stars to witness..

I think about us falling in love,
I think about us planning a future together.

I think about us having the deepest forms of intimacy with each other..

I think about how I want..
I desire..

You. All of you.

...What do you think about?

Sep 2014

Muggle Ginger

Celestial Reflections

If you are uncomfortable when you look in the mirror,
keep in mind:
We spent thousands of years
trying to convince the earth
she was flat.

We wrote her maps as evidence of the things we saw;
and she believed them.
She cried tsunamis, and had earthquake breakdowns.

Keep in mind: the Sun never gave up hope.
The earth will keep spinning and breathing
the star-dusty space void of encouragement.

Next time you look in the mirror
and second-guess your potential divinity,
remember you will keep shining and living.

Because the Sun is out there
believing in you,
compensating for lack of the human capacity
to treat each other empathically.

You don’t need proof or approval
to be exactly what you are;
Eventually everyone will see
your infinite beauty.

Isabel Maree Sep 2014

Up all night

Confusion and uncertainty has clogged my ability to comprehend or react appropriately.
I'm lost.

Where do I go when either path is going to bring me sorrow?
I'm trying.

Whatever is meant to be will be, in the meantime I'm just along for the ride.
I'm accepting.

Isabel Maree Jul 2012

How

Falling, climbing, flying towards you.
drifting farther from you..
hanging on to your breathing,
my dreaming.

How did we get here?

Love lost, love found,
Love is all around...
'round and 'round and 'round we go.
Love is all we know.

But not all we show.
How much longer can we go?

Fighting and lying and crying

Still...

Vying for you
Trying for you
Dying for you.

Promises of tomorrow
Mask the nightmares of today
I can no longer play
these games

There is no change.

Still..

I'd rather stay
Amongst the disarray
Just to hear you say

I love you.

— The End —