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Isabel Espinoza Apr 2018
My desire to stay in one place
and to feel one thing is bypassed by my
Restlessness.
I fall deep into thought only to fall out of it in a
Instant.
Nothing is forever
Everything is limitless in this
Void.
Isabel Espinoza Apr 2018
I felt myself plunge
Into tones of deep purple, blue and greys
Inconspicuously falling into rapid currents,
I knew nothing but months and years that passed me by, sinking in old yearnings.
if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the
way. this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.

go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or
4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the
worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the
gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.

do it, do it, do it.
do it.

all the way
all the way.
you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter,
it’s the only good fight
there is.
  Jan 2016 Isabel Espinoza
Jack Kerouac
-lights out-
fall, hands a-clasped, into instantaneous
ecstasy like a shot of ****** or morphine,
the gland inside of my brain discharging
the good glad fluid (Holy Fluid) as
i hap-down and hold all my body parts
down to a deadstop trance-Healing
all my sicknesses-erasing all-not
even the shred of a 'I-hope-you' or a
Loony Balloon left in it, but the mind
blank, serene, thoughtless. When a thought
comes a-springing from afar with its held-
forth figure of image, you spoof it out,
you spuff it off, you fake it, and
it fades, and thought never comes-and
with joy you realize for the first time
'thinking's just like not thinking-
So I don't have to think
any
more'
Isabel Espinoza Jan 2016
Bernal height nights were the best nights, i would glimpse into a sea of lights
and feel my body sink with every sip of wine.
I glided above the city's skyline, contemplating thoughts.
Thoughts of void, thoughts of freedom.
And in every sigh i knew i would slowly fall from this moment, and it would leave me bare
with nostalgia.

— The End —