Wind rushes through the trees sounding like a train
piles of leaves fall off the tree like a rainbow colored rain.
Red, yellow and orange colors capture my eye
it's time again for Autumn's last celebration in the sky.
I watch them dance and sway to their own beat
as one by one they gently land to my feet.
A colorful array like a circus coming into town
waving their tiny stems like hands as they fall down.
I stand there mesmerized, hypnotized by the sway
I stare for what seems like hours, I cannot look away.
The golden sun has now turned the sky to and orange and pink hue
separating the clouds to make way for the moonlight's debut.
A chill has taken over the air, the heat has ran away to places unknown
as I inhale the scents of October's crisp and clean cologne.
As I turn to go in I say goodnight to the world outside
walking into the house I feel somber as if someone has died.
Summer has passed, I hang my head and I mourn
but, the magical thing about the Season's is they will again be reborn.

Tired of shaking I am losing control
too much anxiety has taken its toll
adrenaline pumping all through my veins
standing here naked body wrapped up in chains
I''m a prisoner help me let me out of this cage
theres nothing more deadly then a heart full of rage
I scream through the cell hoping someone will hear
a voice dark and low says "you have nothing to fear"
"GOD is that you?" I reply in the dark
"You know the answer" its says "look deep in your heart"
"GOD I cant see, are you really here now?"
"All in due time but first you must say this vow"
"GOD I''ll do anything just free me from this hell"
"I have you my child there''s no need to yell"
" What must I do GOD just tell me I''m in"
" First you must bow and let me wipe you from sin"
"Oh GOD I am sorry I was wrong please forgive me"
"Your prayer has been answered now just open your eyes and you''ll see"
So I opened my eyes and got such a surprise
standing before me was not GOD but SATAN with snake eyes
"Lucifer it is you i thought u were GOD
how could you do this why the facade?"
"Child not everyone who hears you is GOD dont you know
take my hand and I''ll show you the right way to go."
"I cannot do that I wont go with you
I''d rather be dead then sell my soul like a fool."
"Child you are mistaken it''s too late you''re all mine
for it wasnt you who made your life contract it was your parents who signed!"

My heart has stopped beating  my happiness is fleeting.  
I need you in my life right now I hang my head I begin to bow.
You are not here but yet you are, so close yet so far.
My tears run down my face all day I can see you run I see you play.
Your scent is all around me you are more then a memory.
Feels like someone has cut my heart out of my chest I try and sleep my mind never at rest.
  I watched you slowly die my eyes stung I began to cry.
I held your body against my chest I wondered if I gave my best.
I thought that it was time to let you go in peace only God could make your suffering cease.
I held your head to me so close while the needle injected its lethal dose.
In that moment i felt you leave my body consumed by unbearable grief.
Your body lie there your soul has flown  the room is full yet I am all alone.
Life goes on or so they say but most of me is with you and gone away.
Life is not about what you do it is about those you love and whom love you.
I know this pain I feel today will never end just slowly fade.
My body shakes my tears they flow I know you are with me everywhere that I go.
I'm sorry my friend for it ending like this but know it is you that I will forever miss.

Oh heart why have you forsaken me, what did I do to you
I thought I gave you everything I guess that wasn't true
You sprang ahead with so much energy of which I've never known
brought a light inside of my life something I've never been shown
You teased me with the thoughts of love and happiness galore
Let me feel the good in life and left me wanting more
Now you have become so cold beating out of tune
You let me down again, this time way too soon
I tried to tell you keep your armor on and resist
You didn't listen to me tho my words you just dismissed
Now here we sit me and my foolish heart
The moral here is don't give up and always finish what you start

A black shadow covers me so dark and so cold
I'm searching for a reason, an answer to be told.
How did it find me, how long has it looked?
what did it taste that has it so hooked?
My smile has begun to fade, it is nearly all gone.
How did I get here, what is it I did wrong?
My heart is beating erratically to a beat I do not know
I feel my happiness fade as my anger begins to flow.
To my knees I fall, I am looking for an assist
I am screaming to God as I'm clenching my fist.
God, can you hear me, is there anyone there?
I have needed you so long, do you even hear my prayer?
I am looking for guidance, some hope, a small little sign
I sob in desperation, waiting for you love within me to shine.
I await the answer, I cry and I plead
Please won't you help me, it is you that I need.

Everyday I wake up a lil more crazy then the day before
having a hard time dealing I'm about to walk out the door.
Can't deny myself no longer this pain I keep inside
put in so many years, can't say I haven't tried.
No longer feel the joys I once had when I was young
my anger flows so freely now, my weapon is my tongue.
Wake up with so much pain, I cannot feel a thing
looking for an out something only death can bring.
Been sittin on the devil's lap while he whispers n my ear,
tellin me "It's ok now, just do it, there is nothing left to fear."
In a world of all these people and alone I carry it all
I use to walk so self- assured now I stumble and I fall.
Can't go back to where I was no matter how I try
reaching out to emptiness and all the while I cry.
I never meant to hurt noone and most of all myself
but life is such a lonely place when you cannot be yourself.
Oh my god I hope you forgive me for what I'm about to do
nevermind, forget all that, for you weren't there when I needed you.

Something only you do keeps me coming back
something only you give me that in my life I lack.
Something I cannot put into words
something that doesn't go away but recurs.
Something I needed but couldn't find elsewhere
something out of the blue I couldn't prepare.
Something in the air that I must have breathed
something once hidden that only you freed.
Something so precious too rare to have a name
something from nothing to something it became.
Something keeps me thinking til I can't think no more
something I thought about but never asked for.
Something makes me laugh when I would have rather cried
something has me living when I would have rather died.
Something touched me deeper then I have ever felt before
something brightens my day so much right into my core.
Something can't be fake when it is obviously true
something isn't a thing at all, that something is just you.