Labels hit my psyche harder than my own self image

I am here for you, choose me, I'm yours

You before me

Your heart a mystery my soul seeks to unpack

Your soul a prize at the end of this rabbit race

I'm going to find you and in turn be found

Except... Chasing you means leaving me

Irony so empty it was embarrassing to unravel

The embarrassment of my ignorance is no longer my weakness

I have found strength in my dinners for one

I have found peace in my solitude, and love where the emptiness once lingered

I once found my worth hidden inside anyone who looked my way and wasn't frightened

Now my eyes stay locked on what's reality

Each moment greeting me with love

Acceptance of every high and every low

All perfectly humming along with the tune of the universe

I wish I could have kept every promise I made to you

Forever really meant the world to me.

The ground split right from under me
I couldn't jump on the other side

It was too late

The future was something I met in the present moment

We didn't make it through