Sitting across from the most beautiful light I've ever seen

We can't communicate but your eyes search to be understood

How can life be this fragile and weak

Disconnecting her light
Misunderstood and so lonely

Yet she stand on her two feet
On her own facing the harsh reality of existence

And I...

I get to watch her unravel in every sense of the word

I get to watch her find strength and growth in every cell of her body

Just beautiful.

You above all

Finally,
My spirit is free to roam

I've built space from strength I've fostered on my own

No longer leaning on anyone's shoulder

I'm home

my heart shifts
the familiar pain makes my breath tremble

do not close your heart

I am learning what to do when I hurt
when the world hurts

how beautiful
the ability to be happy
in spite of so much pain

I built a solid room from scratch
every inch gaurded with heavy metal

Years pass and I think to myself

I am going to die in this dark lit room

I had to leave

I had to leave pieces of me

I still don't know if I miss them yet