December 28th,2023
21:53 pm
The year is about to end in just a few days and I am getting flashbacks of everything that happened this year. This year was more like a reality check for me that where do I actually stand among everyone. I do know that I'm not even 1 percent close to have a decent life ahead but I'll try to make a change in my life in every possible way. This year literally made me feel so worst about myself but that was necessary. After feeling so many emotions throughout the year I'm at peace in the end of this rollercoaster year. Life is so much more than what I thought. Felt guilty for making people disappointed and thus I regretted each and every day for existing. I wanted to quit everything and just had no hope . What's the point in living is the only thought that came across my mind...
I wasted so many days, months just doing things that did no change in my life and my thoughts. I just don't wanna recall those 4-5 months because I'm moving forward with no memories of this year . Yea I def learnt a ton of things but I wannsa learn more from the coming year...
I hope 2024 will be different from 2023 . I'll do more stufff and continue to be actually happy by my own.
Rishita~
a diary entry (prolly 2023 last diary entry)