find the right path to get out of the labyrinth of the world
cuz your desires will make you stay as it will only show the brighter world.
but what if the world gets even more darker at the brighter part...

this void is killing me
and i wanna join the crowd too
but i don't know why
i find peace in this emptiness...

December 28th,2023
21:53 pm
The year is about to end in just a few days and I am getting flashbacks of everything that happened this year. This year was more like a reality check for me that where do I actually stand among everyone. I do know that I'm not even 1 percent close to have a decent life ahead but I'll try to make a change in my life in every possible way. This year literally made me feel so worst about myself but that was necessary. After feeling so many emotions throughout the year I'm at peace in the end of this rollercoaster year. Life is so much more than what I thought.  Felt guilty for making people disappointed and thus I regretted each and every day for existing. I wanted to quit everything and just had no hope . What's the point in living is the only thought that came across my mind...
I wasted so many days, months just doing things that did no change in my life and my thoughts. I just don't wanna recall those 4-5 months because I'm moving forward with no memories of this year . Yea I def learnt a ton of things but  I wannsa learn more from the coming year...
I hope 2024 will be different from 2023 . I'll do more stufff and continue to be actually happy by my own.
Rishita~

A word that we want to happen in our lives.
Desire for perfection to feel the pride.

But the way you are makes who you are,
cuz with perfection one's true self is far.

scrolling through my phone
watching their lives
regretting
thinking I'll do something better
overthinking
again scrolling through my phone
                                     -Rishita

I wanna go back in the past over and over again.
all those memories of childhood, I wanna feel again.
all my family members together in one frame ,
chilling at home and nothing to attain.
only if I could go back in the past again...
once again living with my family ,
once again relying on them ,
once again celebrating together  ,
physically, mentally I want to be with them again .
all those memories of childhood I wanna feel again.
only if I could go back in the past again...
once again going to school,
once again sharing the same roof,
once again sitting on same bench,
with all my friends I wanna live again.
all those memories of childhood I wanna feel again.
only if I could go back in the past again...