it comes and goes
like breath from my lungs
been holding my fists at my sides
holding onto this anger so tight

there's nothing there,
your eyes are playing tricks
nothing is haunting you
but the memory of this
what you heard is not
what you think you heard
it's just the wind blowing
I never slammed that door

it comes and goes
like a fever from my skull
been trying to sweat it out
but it just won't break

there's nothing there,
your eyes are playing tricks
nothing is haunting you
but the memory of this
what you heard is not
what you think you heard
it's just the wind blowing
I never slammed that door

I'm not a tree
for you to mark
you're not gonna
cut me down
and burn me
for warmth
you don't have
to push me
I've already fallen
you want to
cut off my limbs
and leave me
defenseless
I could've been
a breath of
fresh air
you held your breath
and now you're
unconscious
I'm not shading
you from the light
and the storms
anymore
you have to see---
and if you burn
get struck by lightning
just let it be.

I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost

These nights that we
haven't spent together
Nights I spent in the crowd
Trying not to feel alone
Haven't we already exchanged
these words many times before?
Maybe this time we can put
the puzzle back together?
Are we missing pieces
Or are they just lost?

I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost

These fights that had
So many casualties
Fights that brought us
together and tore us apart
Haven't we already exchanged
these words many times before?
Maybe this time we'll finally
call the time of death?
Do we have a fighting chance
Or is this love terminal?

I know that you remember
that song we used to sing together
Though everytime you hear it
Now you turn it off
I know that you know what
I know, that real love
is forever even if its lost

Oh I've been lyin
Not to you
But to myself
All those nights
I spend cryin
Not over anyone else
But for myself
You're always the one
That pays for everything
But I'm the one that
Ends up in debt
Oh I've been tryin
Not for us
But for my health
I've been biding
Time not for us
But for myself
You're always the one
That apologizes
But I'm always sorry

when you come home
will I recognize you?
all of these things that
I know you're missing
ripped the clocks off the wall
I can't take the ticking

I know every word
I know this dance
I know this story
by heart

you didn't get
the best of me
but you could of,
if you didn't give
the worst of you

when you come home
will it be boarded up?
because I feel so vacant
and I want to fall apart
I closed the curtain cause
I can't play this part

I know every word
I know this dance
I know this story
by heart

you didn't get
the best of me
but you could of,
if you didn't give
the worst of you

I've been smoking like I'm on fire
I've been balancing like I'm on a wire
I've been sleeping like the dead
I've been tripping over what's left unsaid

Your love is like a slap in the face
I can't stop it from turning into hate
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I've been drinking like I'm dying of thirst
I've been laughing like it doesn't hurt
I've been wearing the night like a veil
I've been trying like it's not going to fail

This love is a gun to my head
hands in the air, waiting for the end
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I can't swallow this
It's too big
I can't spit it out
I like the taste of it

My love is like a backhanded serenade
don't want to lie in the bed we've made
It's the difference between medicine and poison
And I won't take it again

I crawled into a hole
deep, dark and warm
I waited for the perfect moment
she pranced by like she was immortal

until she fell into my hole.

you want space?
i'll give you the universe
just you and your darkness
if I'm the black hole
******* you in
than go and find life
beyond this system
soon you'll see
your world revolves around me
i am your center of gravity
your world is dark
and cold without me
you want time?
i'll give you my whole life
just you and your precious hours
if I'm the bomb
ticking away in your hands
than drop me and run
soon you'll see
your world revolves around me
i am your center of gravity
your world is dark
and cold without me
if I'm that star
off in the distance, pulsating
make your way to me, quickly
I am waiting
I am fading

You crossed the line
No surprise,
You never could resist a line.

I'll sing this song
for you
I'll give you my all
but I don't want to
everybody says
I'm still in love
but thats not it
I'm just so addicted
that I can't quit

strike the bell
call the match
it's all gone to hell
this can't be fixed

I'll bear this cross
you for sinns
I'll fall on my knees
that I don't believe
in any of this
everybody thinks
that I'm a martyr
but I don't have anything
worth dying for

blast the sirens
call the time of death
you can keep trying
to save me but
I've already ascended

when you're caught in my stare
that's when I know I could
get the best of you
but you twist it around like a knife
and of me, you make the stupiest
woman in the world
I used to be the reward
I used to be the tug
at the beginning of the war
but no one wants
what someone else has broken
if you let me go
I hope you know
you will still see me
not like a ghost
not in a dream
I'm not really there
when I feel you looking at me
and I always wonder what
you're trying to see
but you look at me,
like you're so angry at
just the memory of me
I used to be the laughter
I used to be the happily ever after
now I'm the stick in your wheel
no one wants what's
already been used

I took a late night drive
Turn it up
Let the music say what
I don't want to feel
I know these streets
Like the back of your hand
I've been down every road
Why am I still here?

I don't need to hear
What you have to say
But you'll tell me anyway

It's gonna be a long night
Light it up
I wanna hurt myself with
things that I don't need
I know this feeling
Like you know what you're doing
Do you think that I could
Be that girl ever again?

I don't need to hear
What you have to say
But you'll tell me anyway

I don't need to know
That you feel the same
But you'll tell me anyway

this time
when you call
I won't answer
this time
when you cry
I won't come
this time
when you fall
I won't be there
this time
when you lie
I won't listen
you had
your chance
if you want me back
well, thats's too bad
you had
no sympathy
if you want it from me
well, I'm not sorry
this time
when you beg
I won't cave
this time
when you bleed
I won't remedy
this time
when you freak out
I won't compose
this time
when you reach out
I won't extend
you had
your chance
if you want me back
well, thats's too bad
you had
no sympathy
if you want it from me
well, I'm not sorry

you're not a ghost
for that you would
have to be visible sometimes
you're like a demon
you possess me
to commit these crimes
I just wanna be your drug
Do all of me
As fast as you can,
Never get enough.

this is the last
drunk phone call
I'll make
I won't waste
my breathe
ever again

your voice
comes through
the phone
and claims a
stake right
through me

And I know
that I am
yours again

this is the last
drunk phone call
I'll answer
I can't let you
keep pulling me
back in

your name
shows up
on my phone
and I feel
like my heart
is about to
stop

And I know
that I will never
be yours again