a layer of cold air
sweeps in from the north
and im finally able to sleep
after many weeks of restless sleep
broken bits of a dream
one i had more times than id care to remember
years go by
but the dreams remain the same
about a day in my life
that changed me in many ways

i dream
im standing in the
first moments of a breaking dawn
the sky is just beginning to change colour
and the air is full of possibility's
lay down my burdens
and turn to companions of a long road
and share a brief thought of joy at the wonders
of the world

the time slips by me
and i find myself
sitting at the marble benches
down by the river
where i saw her last
and here she was
walking slow barefoot and carefree
just i remember her best
a hippy child filled with hopes and loves
without a single jealousy or lie

we sat and talked
our conversation dancing to all
manner of things
our hands entwined like loves and hopes
our eyes seeing nothing but eachother
and so it seemed to go on forever
at least in the dream

there was no parting
there was no goodbye
didnt get to say how much i would miss
everything about her
didnt get to say one more time how much i loved her
she was simply
suddenly
gone

twenty years
she waits for me

why did
you have
to be so
            stupid
why couldn't
i,                why couldn't I
wasn't I                             wasn't I
wasnt I                          good
wasn't I

good         enough