Ian J Caldwell

Ian J Caldwell Dec 2015

insy.

Hey, I just dropped in to say you look nice today.
I want to say I'm sorry, it's been so long since we spoke last, I wasn't myself so I broke away fast.
Remember what happened the last time we spoke?
I was the fool, the **** of the joke
I lied about lying,
I can't get you off my mind but I keep on trying.
I almost don't want you gone but I keep trying.
I just keep on trying, I'm not sure why.
I just keep on trying.

Ian J Caldwell Dec 2015

...just go

I spent my long day so weary, then found my bed early to see my heart more clearly
My mind was raging for most of the day, I've been full of thoughts that wouldn't go or stay
To put this down on paper seemed so impossible because there was much to be done but I needed this to keep my brain from a complete topple
My eyes grew heavy, my thoughts still bursting through like water that had broken the levee
Then all at once it started, the dream of dreams of a love departed
I could feel the smile during my sleep but these thoughts and dreams I just couldn't keep
We danced and twirled under a starlit sky, another dream of love from my mind as I lie
I laid there sleeping softly, resting sweetly, my heart was panting so ever deeply
Then like a tidal, one quick swift turn of emotion, the dream turned cold and raged like the hurricane ocean
My heart, my heart.....what has happened to you?
You brought this bright red love and shattered it to deep blue...

...and then I woke up one morning and thanked god it was a dream
...it was crazy because wow did it feel so serene
...the heart
.....the brain
...keep fighting
.....and fighting
....I just need the clear mind
...the one with bright lighting
...I was full of these thoughts yesterday
...they still won't go
...they still won't stay

On some days the dreams are worse than they were before...

#dream

Ian J Caldwell Aug 2014

Good Morning

Pitter patter of the rainy view from my porch
Cars wiz by, some with urgency like there is really somewhere to be
The rain splashes a cool mist upon my feet that's oh so refreshing
The sun fighting hard to burst through the line of clouds,
Maybe hoping to help turn this gloominess around,
Pitter patter

Pitter Patter of the rain falling hard
The aroma of fresh coffee steaming from my cup
Flowers lie in wait to gain what they need to bloom again
Clouds zoom by as the rain tries to slow
Pitter patter

Pitter patter of the rain as it slides down the smooth surface of fresh growing tomatoes,
A pink yard flamingo hiding behind the vines
The newspaper sits in a plastic bag as it waits to be put inside
It feels like the world is barely awake or maybe it's just me,
There are so many feelings to feel and sights to see
But good morning rain!
You are welcome
You are welcome from the place that you fell from
The sound of rain dissipates as the sun shines near

Pitter patter
Pitter patt
Pitter pa
Pitter
Pitt
Pi

A view from my porch one morning.

Ian J Caldwell Aug 2014

Time to Sleep

I often think about you and some words to say
I pick a few out almost everyday
Like "hey, how are you?" or "how was your day?"
I wish I could just hold it back and stay away,
Cause it's not like these words will ever sway

I open my mouth and stutter to you,
It's like my tongue is stuck to the roof with super glue
I won't let me speak, I want to let it go
I want the peace of mind like I used to know
So I lie up in bed with every intention to sleep.
My mind just wonders on and let's the thoughts seep

But maybe things are not that meant to be,
Maybe this is what we have to do to set thee free
We fly through life with flashes of special people,
The one we think will stay we always meet at the steeple
The happiness ensues, did I just imagine all this?
Whatever happened to these thoughts that brought perpetual bliss?

Maybe it's the mind, the thoughts that seep through,
The words that cause my tongue to stick like glue
I'm not really sure my eyes are even open anymore,
Maybe they have shut and I have stepped through the door
Am I in the land of sleep?
Did my mind let go and finally let me count sheep?
Where am I, hello? Can anybody hear me?
Please wake me up so I can see things clearly

Then I woke up like all the times dripping wet,
Do I always have to wake up in this cold sweat,
Not knowing if it's the right time to come home yet
The dreams are what **** me most,
I reach out to save you and you just turn to a ghost
I never thought that it would be this way,
So these are just some words that I want to say,
Hey, how are you?
How was your day?

I wrote this while just laying down to go to sleep one night. I was reflecting on several things and just wrote what it all was down.

Ian J Caldwell Apr 2014

Slow me down

Slow me down, I have to keep my feet on the ground.
Slow me down, how many times does this have to go down.
So much speed with too much sound. Somebody please just slow me down.

Flying high in pale blue skies do nothing but help me realize, that life moves fast, so fast it flies right past these eyes.
Somebody please just slow me down.

Slow me down, I need to see, I need to see what life's been given to me. I need to feel, I need to breathe, I need to slow down to set me free.
Somebody please just slow me down.

I move to fast for things to last, slow me down.
I feel too less my minds a mess.
Somebody please just slow me down.

— The End —