you broke me
isn't that what you wanted
congratulations
now please,
just leave me alone
and stop ruining my life

you make me brave/stupid
when we met i was brave
when we jumped i was stupid
what about every time we touch
when we kiss
am i brave, or stupid

edit

the answer is stupid

it's been months
and i still dream about you
i still see your pictures on my phone
and who could forget the texts i used to read over obsessively
i still think about you
but not the same
it doesn't leave me angry or upset
it makes me confused
confused as to why i cared so much about you
when you never cared at all

i listen to you
all day
all night
bouncing that ball
and shooting it
sometimes it bangs off the rim
and sometime it goes right in
i dont know you
and you dont know me
but everyday i sit
seing you
hearing you
play that game
and getting better everyday

i threw it as hard as i could
at the wall
i trusted it not to break
it had not broken before
i heard the sound of the impact
"i will be okay if it is okay," i thought
it broke
and with it
my trust in you
shattered

my life would be so much simpler
if i let it
instead i choose
to make it interesting

the things i say and do
i say and do them
to see reactions
to make an impact

i dont want to be just
another person
another face
another girl

i want to be different

I introduced you to each other
You both traded me for another
I see you together, without me
Why is this the way it has to be
Why is it that I'm always replaced
And why do I always feel so disgraced
It's nothing
It doesn't mean a thing
At least that's what I say
Watching you be together all day
Who cares that I wasn't invited
Or that you both are rather delighted
Without me there
In order to share
In the friendship that I, myself, ignited

it's funny
you were once my motivation
because i wanted to be good enough
to be the best i could
for you
now,
you are still my motivation
but not in the same way
you motivate me to be a better person
to be the best i can be
not for you
but for myself
because i realized
when you left me
broke me
that i don't need your love
i need my own