Vibrant melodies
Reaching the depths of my heart
Oh, sweet moonlight kiss.

I took the goblet
I shut the door
Towards reality
Innocence adjourned
Poured the spirit
Of shame and wonder
Beneath the silk
Of black and gold
Sparks then glimmer
Secrets unfold
Witty chatter
Stupid folks
Left the kingdom
Of fake kings
Of fake queens
And true foes
Here’s the lioness
Tamed by such oil
Growls in roses
Screams in thorns
But joy awakened
The lioness’ soul
When all of a sudden
She does herself along
In playful rhythm
She dances the song
Of tedious melody
Of a’s and o’s
Who’d love to see
A crown of gold
When heaven’s a place
Nowhere near
The cape or shawl
Plunge into
Feel the highness
True royalty
Peak of happiness.

Is it still freedom?
When my lips can still
Speak words but can't feel
How these words make sense
'Cause my soul is trapped
Under the grasp of
An insomniac.

Is it still freedom?
When I let go of
the hand cuffs that bind
All my sanity
But curses dig deep
Till my final sleep
Unless I defy.

Is it still freedom?
To love the unloved
And appreciate more
Of the worst to come
They all do agree
But go try the flame
No one will remain.

Is it still freedom?
To smile all anew
After the worst strain
For there is nothing
To cry about in
A world full of shame
And false compromise.

Is it freedom?
To live while you're dead
To hear when you're deaf
To speak when all mute
And walk with fine shoes
Gems and ropes and all
Go hide, velvet soul!

I am a dreamer, a silent dreamer
Wishing that might be mine,
Exaltation, my ultimate passion
A sweet revenge in style.

Joshed, provoked, condemned, riled
A series of mad disaster,
Incited anger had driven me wild
An atrocious quill's my defender.

Keep the wicked flame enkindled for me
Never let it suddenly die,
'Cause by the time you eye on it directly
You'll be the one to poorly say bye!

I'm born to delude through my own hostile ways
But not to my own defeat,
Here's comes the night to stealthily replace
Would you like to let go and retreat?

I know you can't bear my insolence
'Cause you don't understand my fears,
And if for you it makes no sense
Well, sorry but you bring me no tears.

I've learned all these from my miserable past
But these ain't worth my commemoration,
For all those things will not ever last
So just look out for my sly deception.

Beneath the nimbus, a rainy day
I've gathered all my sunny days,
For pleasure's a thousand miles away
And the troubles ahead, now I must face.

The lilacs, the lilies, the jack-in-the-pulpits
The green fields, so calm, so serene, so placid,
I'm leaving everything, oh I must've lost my wits
'Cause my fortune's to take my miserable lead.

As I journeyed along the roads and thorns
There on my sides are foxes that scorn,
Leaping across and behind my soul
But I hold on tight to my dreams and goal.

Now I have travelled long enough to die
But until where would this misery of mine lie?
If I'll take the apple from the mad serpent by his lies
Will I ever come to my Father's paradise?

It's easy to think of what and where you want to be
But the hardest part's when you still never see,
The reason, and where would all of these lead you
And in your struggle, still you never find a clue.

Oh I don't know if in this voyage I could still stand
For now, all I want to do is rest on the bottomland,
And see the azure sky fall upon my face
And dream way long of a fairytale-like place.

You came to me unexpectedly
During the times of my ennui,
Hope was so impossible to see
Until you showed up and stayed by me.

Problems come and go so bad
Seems like they’re going to stay in fad,
I tried to hide all my golden tears
But you were there to cast away my fears.

Whenever I’m happy we always share
Moments of fun and we never care,
You always give me what is due
To me you showed the real you.

It was long ago when our eyes met
In-depth talks were never set,
But when I got to look deeper into you
It was then that I see what is true.

We were both happy whenever together
Never thinking of any better,
Friendly bond has been made
Genuine smiles never do fade.

I just don’t know what is behind
I guess it’s not for me to find,
If searching the truth will make me cry
Then I won’t take even a single try.

And then I realized that it’s this whole thing
All I’ve been wishing for and everything,
From that single star with the special glimmer
Gazed upon by a faithful dreamer.

For so long I’ve waited and hoped no less
To reach for that star and feel its caress,
But I guess destiny plays no part
In a self-made love story of a broken heart.

And so when you came I closed my eyes
And thought of the dream that never dies,
And told myself I wish it was you
Who had made my pathetic love story true.

Beauty lies behind what we can’t see
Hope hides above those heavy mass of clouds,
Sometimes we forget that love is still free
And fear is just all that enshrouds.

We cannot stay in such a bitter state
Happiness is anywhere to be found,
Truly we cannot predict one’s fate
But we cannot bar what is bound.

Let the light search purposely for your soul
Let the stars enkindle your eyes,
Let the gentle dove carry you whole
Let love pull you as it flies.

We deserve the best and nothing less
If we let it in our hearts,
Listen to what it faithfully confesses
This is where new life starts.

Broken hearts and stained trust
Seem to cover what is there beyond,
Yet we have to believe that life’s still just
Learn to accept a brand new bond.

If it is to stay, it will without doubt
But if not, it is not to be despaired of,
Just cherish the moment and try to make out
It’s something we all need enough.

Why should we hide behind our fears?
If it will only bring us regretful tears
Why do we have to end this vain romance?
Can’t we just hold on to our own stance?

Maybe we just need a little prompting
If we are afraid to go through losing,
It is not the world that could break us apart
But our senseless fears that will end the start.

Are you not strong enough to keep it real?
‘Cause I just don’t have anything to feel,
You were getting close to what has to be found
But now I think you’re going the other way around.

How long shall I wait for you to come along?
Do I still have to ask you what is wrong?
If you don’t have anything much to say
Tell me if you’ll stay or else, go on your own way.

This is not rudeness that I am trying to show
But it is for our own hearts and souls to grow,
And realize in the end if it’s still worth it
Try to regain everything and see if we perfectly fit.

Since the day I said it’s over
Some things went wrong in me,
Thoughts broke down from nothingness
I guess I will never be free.

Shall I do something about it?
When I don’t have the right to,
Indeed, our fate’s not in my hands
How will I be able to carry through?

My heart still can’t find itself
From the time I lost all control,
It’d been a rebel, ‘twas out of hand
Been cut and scarred and all.

I don’t know who I am now
I think I lost the real me,
When I was left all broken
I was drowned in toxicity.

My brain, it seems so drained
My vision’s blurred with emptiness,
Now I’m stuck in my own vanity
Failed to taste life’s happiness.

I see, it can never seem so real
Just as how it was carefully planned,
Life and fate succeeded in their deal
And now I don’t know where to stand.

Look in my eyes and see what’s flowing
Drops of fresh blood produced by pain,
It cannot stop, it just can’t bear
Taste of regret, a love in vain.

This is how my system works now
This world is my prison, my hands enchained,
No one would worry about such woebegone
I haven’t seen my tears; I wasn’t even pained.

Tell me, oh love, are you happy now?
Have you had enough of disdain?
Share it with me, I envy you so
‘Cause you only drive me insane.

My body freezes in bitter sweat
My heart finally grew icebound,
But my soul embarks an odd journey
Seems like it fails to touch my ground.

What has done to me I do not weep
Maybe I only deserve such,
But what I don’t understand very clearly
Guess I only loved too much.

Yes, I was stabbed in greatest delight
It was the best of the stories I can share,
And living in this cold, **** body
I guess I can no longer bear…

Hey, hear my heart
It’s beating loud
That crazy pound
Please hear it out.

Now, it’s all I have
It is all I am
Do you hear my cry?
Do I have to try hard?

I know there is something beyond
Looking at your eyes
I can feel it in your touch
And now I see the spark.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

Hey, don’t try to hide
What’s on your side
It’s all I see
When you’re with me

Can you just be
What you’ve always been
‘Cause it burns my soul
And it freezes my skin

We know we’ll never have enough
If you’re not ever gonna stop
But if you’re madly insisting
Please do give me the real thing

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Please don’t let me fall.

If you never plan to catch me
Please just let me go
For when hearts are hurt so badly
They tend to curse a stupid show.

If you just don’t feel it
Please walk away
But if you badly miss me
Then I’ll have to stay.

I don’t wanna play your silly game
I don’t want to lose it all
I don’t wanna be the one to blame
When I make the final call

I don’t wanna ruin what we have
I just cannot take the pain
I don’t wanna play your silly game
Catch me, I’m about to fall.

It’s Friday evening and I can’t sleep
Waiting for the night to finally grow deep,
All I’ve been up to is just some crazy stuff
I’ve never been this down and all in enough.

Creepy thoughts had been ranting in my head
Though cracked and wild, it kept its cool instead,
I can’t take another step on a pathetic, bitter course
An outcast state in a world where everyone abhors.

This I confidently said to myself once more
There’s no looking back, so I tried to close that door,
But as I gripped to push the golden door ****
In silence, my ears can’t help but hear my throb.

The pain, the angst, and all those tears I cried
For the first time, I realized that I had long died,
Wounds, still fresh though memories, all rotten
Treasured gleeful moments seemed to be forgotten.

I let it out, I screamed inside my gloomy soul
Precious shimmering gems were destined to roll,
Sure enough that no one would be able to hear
The world shall never know, tried to hide my very fear.

The terrible sensation was slowly killing me inside
Seems like those thoughts had come to deride,
Sadly, my fate was to be excruciatingly pained
Not a bit of love’s mirth was ever treasured nor gained.

I tried to ran from those unending miserable scenes
Uncomfortable to hear that this ruthless life wins,
Finally vowed to walk away from sorrow and shame
I strongly held a promise that I’ll never be the same.

I don’t need love’s wings to take me up so high
And show me a sham world across the treacherous sky,
The beauty of the rose is not what we should only detect
How its thorns can hurt you is what we must also reflect.

Else, if love won’t allow me to wear a genuine smile
I guess I won’t be deceived again to take an extra mile,
Sad to say, in whatever ways, I’ve had it memorized
So I won’t be left stunned again and strangely mesmerized.

Life will really take you to a battle you never expected
But it’s in your hands if you will let your heart be dissected,
No blame shall ever be put on me ‘cause I remain steadfast
It’s just a bitter principle, made strong enough to last.

With the way you smile when you see me near,
the way you stare when I am here,
the way you feel my greatest fears,
the way you see my invisible tears.

The way you make me feel I'm wanted,
the way you understand my deep hatred,
the way you carry that smile of content,
the way you plan out your very intent.

The way you accept me at my own flaws,
the way you notice me on a sudden pause,
the way you laugh out when I go crazy,
the way you don't care if I am lazy.

The way you keep your silence at times,
the way you hide and present your lies,
the way you accept all hurt from me,
the way you let me just be me.

The way you comfort me in distress,
the way you care when I'm drowned in loneliness,
the way you caution me when I'm not alright,
the way you support me in my every fight.

The way you just know what I am feeling,
the way you speak for me when I'm not speaking,
the way you show that someone's behind me,
the way you come just when I needed somebody.

The way you light your own hopes up,
the way you continue and never stop,
the way you feel the pain alone,
the way you've waited, now it has grown.

Every moment has never been this significant
I never expected a feeling so instant,
You started it all, now I'm feeling alright
A dull, empty world, now a paradise so bright.

But love won't allow an overload in my heart
I'm clearing it up to make another start,
And I can't be so swift in diverting my emotions
I've known all these before, I know the cautions.

Time, that's all I have to be enough with
To offer a better and more enlightened lead,
If I am to push through or just be fair
Preserve the friendship or make a new affair?

I can't stand to witness myself wither
Frustrations caused by hearts so bitter,
Trust breaks so easily when badly stained
Hearts wound so deeply when unexpectedly pained.

In this new course, I see no certainty
I may be happy, or be hurt so unluckily,
But one thing I know, we cannot both feel
What our eyes speak if it's never real.

Chances are presented, though not that right
Waiting for the moment when I already need to fight,
For now, I can't give it a straighter view
But all I know now is it's just about me and you.

As much as I want to rejoice
And savor that old feeling again
I’ve got no other choice
But to keep it all hidden.

No one shall know that for so long
I’ve patiently waited so much
And that kept me collected all along
But still, it never broke the latch.

It’s nothing that would bring me
Into the same wonderful memories
‘Cause now it seems a vanity
To ignore presented realities.

I liked the way it all happened
It’s as if it was the first time
But I shall soon be awakened
‘Cause somehow, it is a crime.

I cannot simply fix the messy crack
Things that have been deranged
‘Cause I cannot bring it all back
Indeed, I know things have changed.

Nights had grown so lonely and dark
The days gone by with not a little spark,
From the day you were gone for another start
I knew that I’d be having a forever broken heart.

I cried like somebody so dear to me has died
But it was really the love that you set aside,
You were happy and I just had to fake a smile
At times I can’t help but weep for a while.

I then grew strong and tried to accept it all
I learned to stand again from a miserable fall,
You never knew how hard I try to be happy once more
From that awful moment I had to savor before.

But now that fate is trying to lead you back to me
I don’t know if I still have to believe what I see,
It hurt like hell; haven’t you realized such things?
Indeed, it’s easy for you to make new beginnings.

How insensitive of you to take things for granted
Refused to see the wounds you caused me when we parted,
I’m just so stupid that I can’t feel a bit of angst anymore
I can’t bring another fight just like what happened before.

I can’t deny, I still have the love I kept inside
I just can’t let it go no matter how I tried,
But I’m afraid I can’t bear to shed another tear
But please, if it’s real, help me with this fear.

I have loved you, and I still do; that’s the stupid reality
But I don’t know if your words are true or just a lie to me,
Nevertheless, whatever it may take, I can’t still say “No.”
To a love that I never intended, I never expected to grow.

I tried to hide from all the lies
From the emptiness I feel inside,
Smiles and laughter filled my days
But nothing can ever make it right.

You taught me how it is to be tough
When things don’t seem to find its light,
But not the kind when one has to fight
With joy and faith, and love and might.

I fought a hopeless battle all alone
Faced the tears until they’re gone,
You never knew how it hurt me so much
To tread this road alone, so rough and vast.

You’ve gone to find what you think you needed
You’ve left me along the journey we’ve started,
But now that I knew quite well how to live it
Please don’t let me make the same mistake again.

I knew how hard it is to hold back something
This love can never be just so wrong on us,
But if destiny would allow us to feel it again
Can we still bring it back and just forget the pain?

The road is rough when it comes to love
But it’s even tougher when you’re not around,
It’s you whom I need to be with here tonight
To feel a love that’s so true, so right…

I always want to find that someone
Who would care enough
To help me find
The long-lost
Me.

I never expected that as I was searching
I found you looking through my
Messy eyes with so much
Interest to know
How much
I’ve been
Hurt.

Things have changed since you came
And from then on, I’d love to
Be with you again despite
The loneliness I have
To feel every day
I look forward
To meet you
If there’d
Be any
Way.

But as I realized that fate won’t allow
Me to feel this happy feeling with
You for I still have something
To fix—that one thing I’ve
Left behind and so I felt
So bad as I told you
I’d no longer be
With you for
Very, very
Long.

Though it was my decision to leave the
Group I was once in, I never really
Liked the way it all happened,
When I needed to tell you
About it and you’re just
Like, yeah, and I’d be
Left thinking that
I chose to be
far from
You.

And now I miss you more than anyone else
Around me cause these people I am with
Makes me sick with their nonsense but
With you, it seems like every second
Will always make sense because
It’s you who still makes me
Feel this way despite the
Pain this feeling had
Given me by a
Person who
Did not
Care.

How I wish I had the chance to tell you
How much you meant to me while
We’re having our time together
But because we are worlds
Apart, I know I will no
Longer be able to
Tell you about
My feelings
So here,
Read.

Since the first day I met you
I never realized how it is
like to befriend a guy
but you’re different
cause you made
my each day
very, very
special.

In my gloominess, I met
You and now it’s you
That only matters.
How I wish you
Also Feel the
Same way
For me
Too.

Thanks for taking that
Special part in my
Life and I swear
I’ll never, ever
Forget you,
- - - -

When I see you smile
It makes everything worthwhile
Just as the stars all shine aglow
And cast a light as the rivers flow.

You looked at me, a joy was felt
In your stare, I would like to melt
Your fair countenance gave me hope
That life still has an upward *****.

The bells ring, the flowers bloom
Your presence swept away my gloom
Those butterflies, they’re supposed to fly
But here in me is where they lie.

I need to know if I should still
Give importance to what I feel
If this is more than what I think it is
Then let it give me an infinite bliss.

When the days grow old
And the nights grow cold
I’d be just fine in a while
If only I’d see your beautiful smile.

I cannot deny
The tears that I’ve shed
On that very night
I stayed up instead.

Seems like a rewind
Thoughts came to linger
How can I hide?
From memories so bitter.

Stained by blood
I reached out my hand
Dropped my weary heart
Against the lonely land.

I let the wind take over
My soul has to be freed
When clouds seem to cover
I cannot help but bleed.

Mighty is the night
But I have to find myself
Way back when I’ve gotten
Locked up in the darkest shelf.

I am a wise believer
But not the wisest yet
But when I say I’ll do it
I rarely spell regret.

This I say unto those souls
Resenting to leave such state
You are never strong enough
Unless you face your fate.

I wish I could be the one
Who could take your sadness away,
The one who could light up your way
Just like every star in the sky.

I wish I could be the one
To wrap you with my deep love’s warmth,
To comfort you like every home’s hearth
And burn all your sorrow away.

I wish I could be the one
The one who could color your life again,
Who could make you happy every now and then
Like a rainbow every after the rain.


I wish I could be the one
The one to give you all the love you need,
So that the wounds in your heart won’t ever bleed
‘Cause I’m always ready to give it all to you.

I wish I could be the one
Whom you’ll see when everything in you goes wrong,
Hoping you’ll realize that I’ve always been here
Loving you for so long.

I tried so hard to wipe away
Those tears falling from my eyes,
I felt your hand hold mine
Then I finally saw paradise.

‘Twas the loveliest day of my life
When auburn leaves tend to fall,
And we were each other’s remedy
From the heartbreaks we had before.

Along the drive we used to tread
Despite our busy days ahead,
We’ve had enough of a sweet talk
A cup of mocha to keep us from cold.

I felt the warmth of your embrace
Beautiful times I’d forever treasure,
Those tender words your lips can’t miss
Not even the genius can measure.

It was not a piece from so-called forever
We never vowed of anything fake,
We’re just off to cherish moments together
Never thinking of such a blue fate.

We gathered each chronicle we get
From the perfect portrait we made,
As it showered upon us with gentle haste
We never thought it would fade.

The clock continued to take control
Of the love we both loved to have,
But the world seems to have taken its toll
We weren’t meant to last, no, I guess not.

Slowly, smiles were all for pretense
Distance were made between two hearts,
Conflicting thoughts then grew immense
Seems like it's all going to fall fast.

Million miles away from each other
Cried in vain, we’re drifted apart,
Just cannot think of any better
Watch the raindrops fail to stop.

Soon it was winter in the city I’m in
A snowflake formed a cut on my cheek,
But it was nothing compared to this pain
A delightful stuff that proved me I’m weak.

I tried to run away from the lame scene
Millions of footprints behind me were seen,
I don’t know where to go or where to hide
I just have to cry but no one’s by my side.

Tears rolled over my forever bleeding scar
I wiped it away and it hurt so much more,
I knew I will never find comfort again
Staying miserable for life, sure as said.

And then again, I felt that same old warmth
Only to realize that in your arms, I was wrapped,
You said you just can’t make another start
Without me, our days only seem lonely apart.

That was the day I realized once more
Just like the old memories of us before,
A sip of love will surely take it all
And in love, I know, we will forever fall.

I’ve seen her cry herself to sleep
A thousand times
‘Twas way too deep
Her swollen eyes revealed the pain
I guess she’ll never know
How long it will remain.

She never imagined a life like this
Nothing can ever make her feel fine
She knew it cannot just cease
Love was undefined
Time had done nothing
But play a painful rewind.

Pillows were wet, nothing to lie about
Her hair’s a big mess
She was really hurt, no doubt
Often than not, corners were warm
And there she sulks herself
With broken wings and faded charm.

She was crazy, but he was a fool!
Knowing that love ain’t a joke
Feelings are fragile; a girl’s not a tool
She missed him so bad
He was flirting around
Now she just has to be glad.

She can’t keep those gems from falling
It can’t help but touch the silk
Losing her mind, it’s all or nothing
But she knows things will get right
And the sun will shine again
Keeping things light; making days bright.

Far, indeed, far from reality
Realizations don’t seem to be true
It’s hard to accept all life’s virility
She just can’t believe now
She cannot fully trust
Though it comforts her somehow.

And yes, her weary eyes
Just tell it so
Never been dwelt in by any lies
It can’t bring the sunshine
The soonest time
And centuries before she’ll feel fine.

Oh my little star of hope in the sky
How I love to see your wonderful glimmer,
Watching across the firmament as clouds roll by
A spark of joy on a silent dreamer.

Haply I get to stare at you in awe
But chances make my wishes raw,
If I’d be settling myself on the bottomland
Would you glide down and take my hand?

Oh my little star of hope amidst the dark
If there’s a chance, I’d probably fly,
By the lovely wings of a golden lark
We’d toast for love with a cup of rye.

Tonight’s the better time to for me to sit still
And feel the cold wind, a sudden sweet chill,
It’s as if the clouds had reached down on me
Taking me the breeze that embraces me gently.

Oh my little star of hope from a distance
You seem to me an elusive dream, oh hear my cries!
I hope you notice me as I preserve my stance
Try to decipher what is cryptic in my eyes.

It started to drizzle, I wonder why
Would this hopeful dream dramatically die?
Every droplet signifies a melancholic rain
I hope I am not foolishly waiting in vain.

Oh my little star of hope above
Now covered by the rage of the infuriated nimbus,
How will I be able to find true love?
The clouds loathe reigned, intimidatingly tremendous.

The patter of the rain reminded me so bad
Of things, like you, that I bitterly never had,
In a jiffy, you’re gone and I’m about to cry
It just makes no sense. Anybody, tell me why!

Oh my little star of hope, where art thou?
Why won’t you show up and cast another glow?
If ‘tis bound to end, where then shall I go?
If you’d still come back, how will I come to know?

The moment of silence trounced the downpour
Of the storm that wrapped the gloomy night whole,
Those mystical drops seem to touch my soul’s contour
But it has to be dealt with by a lovelorn fool.

Oh my little star of hope, can’t you see?
The torment that was caused by your pure obscurity,
If this is to end in such a way that I’d die
Please just let me know, then take me to your sky.

I know it’s not that easy
But would you believe me tonight?
You’re all I ever think of
Each lonely day of my life.

Lingering thoughts of you
Keep my enchanted soul ablaze,
Driving me to the zenith of my emotions
Taking me too far away.

My eyes are filled with odd glimmer
My tongue speaks otherwise,
But if you’ll listen to my heart forever
It beats for you ‘til I die.

I don’t know what you’re thinking
I wish I can read it right,
‘Cause stolen glances are never enough
To becalm a heart that’s on fire.

Whenever you set your eyes on me
You’ll know there’s something different,
So please look beyond what you see
‘Cause it’s something and I really mean it.

Maybe we’re too young to act so real
And too old to play this game,
But I know time will come for us
To give this game a real name.

Can you see how really strange things are
For only you and me,
Imagine how we’ve come this far
Two paths on the same journey.

What has been hidden stays the same
Untold words still unrevealed,
Waiting for the moment in our life
For kindred hearts to finally meet.