jack of spades

jack of spades Oct 2013

Blood- like leaves in the fall
A flood- killing them all
Face in the mud, muffle their call
Search and destroy
Shatter, deploy
Broken child’s toy
Smiles so coy
Follow me here
Greet your fear
Draw ever so near
Love or hate
Choose your fate
Vengeance, regret
Blood is an outlet
Brain is a die
Lips a thin line
Fingernails graze
Put in a haze
Forever unfazed
Don’t touch me
Make a crutch of me
Love me, hate me
Burn me away
Please don’t stay
Burn me away
Don’t go.

wow this is an oldie but pretty goodie

jack of spades Oct 2013

persuasion and trust

trust me dear
voice of silk
pressing for your
darkest secrets

get back here
voice of flame
pressing for your
complete obedience

i'm sorry dear
voice of virtue
pressing for your
permanent trust

what are your fears
voice of immortality
pressing for your
complete being

love me dear*
voice of purity
pressing for your
total compliance

i am your demon, my love
voice of true horrors
pressing for your
understanding of your situation
pressing for your
realization that you are in hell

jack of spades Oct 2013

Monster Build-Up

Churning in your stomach
Burning on your tongue
Taser in the chest
Hatefully sung
Pulsing of your mind
Slamming of your heart
Flatline screen
Electric start
Crawling through your veins
Sinking in your blood
Building, building, building
Til your insides begin to flood
Pulsing of your mind
Slamming of your heart
Flatline screen
Electric start
This is the buildup
This is the monster's best
Wait to see what happens
When it bursts through your chest
Clawing, crawling
Stabbing, grabbing
Feeding and falling
This is the monster start
Ripping out your heart
This is the buildup
The monster start

probably one of the best things i've ever written

jack of spades Oct 2013

tw: razors

As they purged the house
She stood and watched
They took the pencils
They took the sharpeners
She's not allowed to shave
They took the razors away
She cannot sharpen the pencils left
They took the razors away
The artwork gets dull
Her mind goes null
Idea box is full
But she cannot draw
They took the razors away
Her writing is forced
They speak of divorce
She can't express because
They took the razors
They took the razors away
They took her art
They took her love
They took her words
She took her life
Not all the razors had been thrown away.

made explicit due to possible trigger warning

jack of spades Oct 2013

tattoo

it's got my handwriting
it's got my artwork
it's on our skin
together

it's pierced our skin
it's made its home
it's on our skin
together

long live us, reckless and brave
long live the lost souls
until forever ends
together

i want a tattoo of
your handwriting
your artwork
on my skin
together

i'll show you mine if
you show me yours
scars with a story
scars on purpose
together

i've got a tattoo on my forearm
it matches the one on yours
it's our handwriting together
"long live us"
best friends forever

jack of spades Oct 2013

How Dare I

How dare I living among the dead?
How dare I stand where death has tread?
How dare I take a stranger’s tomorrow?
How dare I steal joy from their sorrow?
How dare I smile in the tears?
How dare I brave through your worst fears?
How dare I want what you cannot?
How dare I take for what you fought?
How dare I run when you just crawl?
How dare I have silvertongue instead of your drawl?
How dare I own your dreams and needs?
How dare I bite your hand that feeds?

not 100% pleased with this one but oh well

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