Since birth
A world unknown appears
Sounds with smiles or tears
Shapes with colors and form
Moving or still
Discovery in every blink
Sleepless nights of motherly love
Tender touch with soft purrs
Flavors both bitter and sweet
Trace odors, aroma and scent
Confusing as it all seems
It comes together as one large canvas
So new, such wonders to explore
To reach out, to hold, to listen
To capture, to process, to understand
Labels shall come all in due time
To build the walls
To color with shades
Mask what is here
And not see it anymore

I looked up to you
I lost you
I lost me
I lost you as a part of me
That part now goes on
In search of who I was
You were my strength
For every lion
At least two cubs
Learn to fight
For survival
Grow to believe
In no doubts
Walk alone
One first time
Yearn for protection
And a word
Imagine a day
Forever shared
Was it real?
I wish to know
Paths of old
But new to me
Dreams so far
A past so near
Walk with doubt
Among large shadows
Walk with grace
Into the fear
Quiet the soul
Without it empty
A strength so deep
I did not see
Who I was
Is not forgotten
To move ahead
Is not new

A black rose
With its petals, and its thorns
planted, in the garden
of my soul
Growing slowly
With the water, of my tears
Now it lies, withered out
Awaiting hopeless
For more sorrow
To overshadow my heart
Its roots dry
It petals blown away
By the spring, of your love
Bright yellow and pink
New petals, have blossomed
Tulips everywhere
Stand straight up
Looking at the sun
Layers of romance
Fed with joy, wine of life
Flowing across corners
Of my thoughts
Of my soul Of my heart

In this moment, notes so crisp
Propel and move, my inner self
Melodies of my youth
No words convey, this one feeling
Energy, that floats in waves
Mystery of its whole beauty
Bliss compared, to no other
Hurt is vanished, with this song
No sleep outlasts, my urge to smile
To be again
A phrase so weak, in your presence
My soul unites, with no guilt
To understand nobody can
That is the beauty
of it all

The chains have melted
The bars are gone
I don't know or care why
I am free
I can see far
I can feel my heart beat
I can take a deep breath
No fear in my mind
I'm a lunatic, am I?
What is old is now new
Winter is upon us
Snowflakes floating down
White streets and the houses
Only sun in the sky
Melting the snow, the bars, the chains
My heart growing stronger
As I am in your arms

In your eyes
Deep blue skies
Rise above
Seas of green
Along the prarie
Its gentle waves
Rolling down
With the breeze
That glides in paths
Not walked before
And as I pass
In this moment
A quick hello and goodbye
I can see
In your eyes
Unchartered waters
In a time not yet here
A brand new thought
A dream of hope
Smiles and laughter
Fill these lands
Mend the hearts
Of souls forgotten
That grieve the loss
Of our past
I bid farewell
To these lands
And the prarie
Unchartered waters
Lie ahead
In your eyes
A single tear
A farewell and hello
To a past and a future
As you sail
Away once more

Chained in these walls, door to door
Gray, the lack of sun
Gray, the mood among us all
Gray and somber each phrase
Share my life with strangers
I shall not see outdoors
Fake smiles and hope
A lie or maybe two or maybe always
Lets eat together and watch the same old channel
Every day repeat yesterday
Am I on the list today? Is it my turn?
Pump me with more pills
To drown the emotions and thrills
I no longer feel or want to
Rehab, oh rehab
Someone new, lost like so many before him
Shrieks of withdrawal, of never again
How many times? Five, but this is the last
Sure, naive, denial we do share
The hope and disappointment
Of familys that refuse to give up
The hope these gray rooms will teach
What we already learned so many times
The halls we pace, maybe for the last time
This is do or die

In these leaves
A deep pink shines
Its veins spread wide
Life runs through
Each branch above ground
Looking up towards the sun
Itr broad trunk
Filled with wrinkles
Many rings hid inside
Signs of years growing strong
So many winds have crossed its path
So many rains have flooded and dried
Standing strong not bowing down
Growing and grieving as time goes by
A new ring and wrinkle for this year
Its roots so deep and yet tangled
Some can see so many I cannot
Breath of life since its first days
Foundation to keep its trunk upright
In search of new stars
Other trees all around
Their leaves shaking hands
Their roots sharing soil
The essence of it all
This is who I am
This is how I grew
News winds and rain shall come
My roots and trunk will conquer
A new wrinkle for this year
Standing strong not bowing down
This is me
Growing still

Wounds, they grasp the soles
Bare skin, then run dry
Tender flesh, now corroded
With a bolt, as the thunder
Strikes and renders, every second
A pause in time, to feel the pain
I hear not what you whisper
But can see, your every word
And I find in your timber
Flows in waves, then a clash
It ends not now, but every moment
The final buzzer, is coming closer
A battle cry, that will conquer
Every game, I have to play
Stand by me or oppose
Still I reach a higher goal
A new bolt but no surrender
Push ahead and heal the wounds
Pain remains without old tears
It will not stop for I run
Yes, I run
With my pain

I hear from afar
Your voice so low
The laughter now gone
Reminiscing to repeat
High peaks in the light
Shining bright with your smile
Few tears now emerge
Hollow darkness in the soul
Fear not to be free
Like the wind over sea
Set sail and behold
Let bars not be jail
As your wings fly now free
And if tides appear, and threaten to drown
Or shades of gray, rumble high
Shaken may be, your fragile bones
But withered not, the brave resolve
That led to glide, or paddle your boat
Covered in wool, filled with warmth
And as you recall, the feelings emerge
Bring back the joy, you owned once before
You now have come close
And share what you feel
Spread it among
Those that you love
To sail not alone
But with a whole fleet

Warm sand
Gentle breeze
In your eyes
A deep blue sky
An endless sea
Look at me
Look through me
I dare not
In my shame
Footsteps of guilt
Stairway of redemption
Tears of my own fall
Leaves yellow and red
Shades of brown and green
Summer in your kiss
Winter in my embrace
Look at me
Look through me
Tell me what you see
A heart of stone
My soul a black hole
My spirit I cannot find
Swim in the waters
Of my ageless tears
Remorse of the future
Of a past with no name
May it be this way
Until I return
To the soil
Thar saw my birth

Endless night, as though an owl
A glimmer of light
Over black silhouettes
Walking among chairs
With much torn clothes
Signs of old dreams
Restless in the mind
To wake is to die
Among mirrors so bright
Not true to themselves
Hours pile on, and the weight of the image
Takes its toll
As many fall down
Exhausted not gone
Reflections of smoke
The dawn now returns
To once again struggle
Break down and be
Alone in the dark
Let the guard fall
Dark is what is real
Or so is the choice
To remain hidden among
Smokeless mirrors

You stand at my side
As I walk, down old steps
Of these stairs
Filled with memories
That I still live today
But in the sunset
Of my heart
I let them go and say goodbye
Now you lead me, by the hand
And point at my new way
So I take each new step
Towards this desert of unknown
I make new stairs
With the sand, of my past
The sunrise lies
Now straight ahead
As I climb even faster
To touch the sun, of my hope
I have reached it
It shines bright
The path before me
Was not there, yet now it is
I look back, and my footsteps
Have washed away
I learned from them
But I moved on
From the sun, to the moon
From the moon, to the stars
No end now, as I climb
My new stairs
With this shield
Of my hope

I want to run wild
Without saddles on my back
Galloping alone but surrounded
By rumbling on the ground
Along plains of life and death
Conquering hurdles lying still
Rocks and pebbles thrown my way
In this land foreign to all
My mane floating free
As I jump over rivers
Then up paths curled on mountains
No rider could withstand
I stand tall my neck stretched high
As I look from atop this hill
Before I run once more
Full speed down narrow roads
Headed toward the desert
Where new hurdles lie ahead
Dry dunes and oasis
Clear skies, burning sun
I look back and see no heard
No steps behind me, none ahead
This world is mine and in this desert
I will build my castle
And draw my roads
No more challenges
But me alone

I look inside, and what is their
Is so strange, just not real
What is their, what you feel
Bolders and pebbles, on this road
On this land, and deep below
You not I, have surpassed
Dark gray clouds, thundering by
Teardrops falling, from above
Down my spine, chill my soul
Let me touch, for a moment
The bright sun, that you hold
Judge me not, this one time
As my child, laughs out loud
Just behind, its other face
With the anger, of it all
Let me hold, for a moment
The sea of calm, that you feel
It takes on, fear and pain
Silent yet strong, its face and surface
But it melts, with the sun
Washed away, by the sea
Cement of clay, with no sculptor
And no mold, to return
Keep your pose, and the smile
Keep on trying, not to fall
Not to melt, or to break
And in trying, to stay still
But I crack and tear, apart this shell
As the feelings, come on board
Tears of sorrow, chills of fear
Come to surface
And this statue
Is no more

Are you ok?
Yes, yes, I'm just thinking
Is there another poem in my mind?
And as I dream
A salty stream runs through
Deep creeks near my eyes
My mind says stop, my heart feels broken
Empty mirrors, white shadows
What seemed real is not
What I dreamt is now here
So I feel, so I think, so I dream
I can fly, to my summit
Not alone, not without you
You are by my side
You are in me, and I in you
And so our promise
From the beginning
As we walk, climb, fly
Our summit is at hand
We were two
Weare one
The stream has run dry
The creeks are filled
Our wings now white
Yes, we are one

How deep is this ocean?
I drowned first, I then sank
With each gasp ever deeper
No longer can I see the sky
Just the darkness
That surrounds my thoughts
That numbs my emotions
I can stand no more
As a new bottom appears
Then fades away
In this endless dive
To the deepest corners
To the loneliest moments
Far beyond any embrace
I learned to swim
In these depths
To breath again
To drown no more
To see the sky, and the sun
How to expain?
Who would believe?
Drowning saved me
Drowning taught me how to swim
To live again
To stay afloat
And move toward the sky
And to this ocean I say
Thank you

Children running free
Children running wild
Let me light you golden paths
Let me feed, your tender growth
Let me teach you
Right form wrong

The line within
You cannot see
But you will learn deep inside
Light is not dark
Shadows do not walk
In the streets of your heart
You will jump back and forth
And so it is throughout life

Rollercoasters of success
Rollercoaster of defeat
Climb on board for your ride
As you twist and you turn
The line within you cannot see
The paths ahead may seem all too straight
Where they lead you do not know

And so you grow
A pendulum in your heart
A shining path yours to follow
The line within you may not see
I will teach and you will learn
And it will guide
Your every step

I can imagine
A moment
Of a month
Of this year
I can see it clearly
It's coming fast
Now it's gone
Let me catch it
Hold it here
Breath this moment
Just us two
In the darkest of the nights
With diamonds up above
I will smile
You will laugh
We have caught it
Just this moment
For us two

To be alone
Every day
To see you leave, and return
Just a spectator
In this play
Many bees, come and go
Filled with hives
Filled with words
Still alone
Yet surrounded
By an ocean
Sounds too fast
To be heard
Hello, goodbye
I am busy don't you see
With many tasks
In the hive, of this world
A load too heavy
For my arms
Carry without choice
Caught in a web
Filled with hives, and the bees
A grand purpose
All its own
Heavy loads defeat the hands
Falls and cracks, such empty shells
To expose, raw and blank
Lack of hope, of despair
Staying here all alone
Unemployed

Help me understand
The loneliness that you hide
Squeezing tight the heart
Letting spill out the courage
That could break free and fly
Help me understand
The fear that I hear
Flutter the air
In your voice
Taking away, the mighty strength
That could stand
And rise again
Help me understand
The confusion
That you hold
Running dry
All the will
That could power, it's way out
Help me understand
The resentment you keep in
Tearing down the love
That could bring us back together
To build a new life
I hope to understand
How our dreams
Crashed and burned
But more than anything else
I hope you understand
It all lies within
The union of our hearts

We have traveled far
Seen many cities
Our senses were amazed
Distant places
We have walked
How many mountains did we climb?
How many suns kept us warm?
How many seas did we smell?
On how many sands did we sleep?
How many moons shined our path?
I could go on with my questions
But after all is said
Only to you
Will I always return

A procession of tears
Dressed in black garments
Each passing by
To look and to cry
To pray for the soul
May it rest in peace
When each comes forth
Words of remembrance
Of times shared together
Just one person lies
But memories abound
Moments of joy
And pain mixed as one
To care is to hurt
When we drift apart
Lonely the heart
As we stay in this wake
Grasp we cannot
The past that has gone
To hold is to try
To live it again
We must let it rest
Over soil of peace
Bury it not
Under pain and our sorrow
Remember we can
From birth until today
Smiles and tears still remain
But without the black garments
The wake is now over
We live with our past

Be free like the wind
Set sail and behold
Let bars not be jail
As your wings fly now free
Flames abound
Seas of life
Two sides each the same
Let the sun set
As the battle ends
Share hope among
Men of courage

Cold winds blow bare the trees
Their leaves have dropped
Sad and lonely, unfed
No fruit or seed remains
The grass has yellowed
Preserved under frost
Grey clouds hang below a blue moon
The snow weighs down
As this winter moves in
Gone the warm sun
And my hope too

Every word is a title
Meaningless in its name
An apple is not an apple
My thoughts connect the dots
But share not what is real
Or the mist of how it is that I feel
Winds, that blow away every label
They stand tall but contained
Waiting for the time
To stampede and to rescue
Set free the inner sense
Return to birth with no shell
Pure at the beginning
No language we need to speak
In the eyes one large glimmer
A pulse threading underneath
Crystal clear the emotions
All shared without fear
When we two are together
Stand or sit we must be
And if silence takes us over
We have won the first battle
Where only hearts bare the soul
And souls speak from the heart