To be alone
Every day
To see you leave, and return
Just a spectator
In this play
Many bees, come and go
Filled with hives
Filled with words
Still alone
Yet surrounded
By an ocean
Sounds too fast
To be heard
Hello, goodbye
I am busy don't you see
With many tasks
In the hive, of this world
A load too heavy
For my arms
Carry without choice
Caught in a web
Filled with hives, and the bees
A grand purpose
All its own
Heavy loads defeat the hands
Falls and cracks, such empty shells
To expose, raw and blank
Lack of hope, of despair
Staying here all alone
Unemployed

Living each day
Looking around
Trying to understand
What is in sight
Life was once clear
My surroundings made sense
Everything had a meaning
And a place
The weather was always pleasant
Close friends in abundance
But today just distance
No more welcomes with open arms
Look at others through faded windows
Gloomy weather, no real friends
Acquaintances at best
Strange rules govern all
Everyone seems to know
How life is supposed to be
Me?
Just transplanted
A foreigner
In a foreign land

Chained in these walls, door to door
Gray, the lack of sun
Gray, the mood among us all
Gray and somber each phrase
Share my life with strangers
I shall not see outdoors
Fake smiles and hope
A lie or maybe two or maybe always
Lets eat together and watch the same old channel
Every day repeat yesterday
Am I on the list today? Is it my turn?
Pump me with more pills
To drown the emotions and thrills
I no longer feel or want to
Rehab, oh rehab
Someone new, lost like so many before him
Shrieks of withdrawal, of never again
How many times? Five, but this is the last
Sure, naive, denial we do share
The hope and disappointment
Of familys that refuse to give up
The hope these gray rooms will teach
What we already learned so many times
The halls we pace, maybe for the last time
This is do or die

It is my last day
Welcome back
To the book, of my life
Turn the pages, look inside
Still so much, in deep caves
Its lava flows, like rivers still
Silence grows
My thoughts are home
Break the silence
With these drums
Of my heartbeat
It feels so strong
I'm not worried
Its ok
I shall go now
But I am home

Not long ago
Sadness
Laughter
Panic
Tears
Joy
Were all here
Just calm remains
So many empty chairs
Disordered as they may
Waiting
Waiting
Whose tears will I dry
Whose laughter will shake
These old legs
Bowing down
With this weight
In my heart

In this moment, notes so crisp
Propel and move, my inner self
Melodies of my youth
No words convey, this one feeling
Energy, that floats in waves
Mystery of its whole beauty
Bliss compared, to no other
Hurt is vanished, with this song
No sleep outlasts, my urge to smile
To be again
A phrase so weak, in your presence
My soul unites, with no guilt
To understand nobody can
That is the beauty
of it all

I hear from afar
Your voice so low
The laughter now gone
Reminiscing to repeat
High peaks in the light
Shining bright with your smile
Few tears now emerge
Hollow darkness in the soul
Fear not to be free
Like the wind over sea
Set sail and behold
Let bars not be jail
As your wings fly now free
And if tides appear, and threaten to drown
Or shades of gray, rumble high
Shaken may be, your fragile bones
But withered not, the brave resolve
That led to glide, or paddle your boat
Covered in wool, filled with warmth
And as you recall, the feelings emerge
Bring back the joy, you owned once before
You now have come close
And share what you feel
Spread it among
Those that you love
To sail not alone
But with a whole fleet

I look inside, and what is their
Is so strange, just not real
What is their, what you feel
Bolders and pebbles, on this road
On this land, and deep below
You not I, have surpassed
Dark gray clouds, thundering by
Teardrops falling, from above
Down my spine, chill my soul
Let me touch, for a moment
The bright sun, that you hold
Judge me not, this one time
As my child, laughs out loud
Just behind, its other face
With the anger, of it all
Let me hold, for a moment
The sea of calm, that you feel
It takes on, fear and pain
Silent yet strong, its face and surface
But it melts, with the sun
Washed away, by the sea
Cement of clay, with no sculptor
And no mold, to return
Keep your pose, and the smile
Keep on trying, not to fall
Not to melt, or to break
And in trying, to stay still
But I crack and tear, apart this shell
As the feelings, come on board
Tears of sorrow, chills of fear
Come to surface
And this statue
Is no more

You stand at my side
As I walk, down old steps
Of these stairs
Filled with memories
That I still live today
But in the sunset
Of my heart
I let them go and say goodbye
Now you lead me, by the hand
And point at my new way
So I take each new step
Towards this desert of unknown
I make new stairs
With the sand, of my past
The sunrise lies
Now straight ahead
As I climb even faster
To touch the sun, of my hope
I have reached it
It shines bright
The path before me
Was not there, yet now it is
I look back, and my footsteps
Have washed away
I learned from them
But I moved on
From the sun, to the moon
From the moon, to the stars
No end now, as I climb
My new stairs
With this shield
Of my hope

Winter winds have come and gone
Empty nests await the return
Of new yolk to settle in
Under warmth of northern feathers
Innocent cries seeking moist crumbs
Filled with love and sacrifice
Born not learned, actions not words
Fly one time, fear not fall
Look ahead to brand new skies
Fly again more strength each try
Now alone but returns
Continued growth under guidance
Mistakes will happen, scars arise
Health cannot develop without
ills of stumbles, succes not full
On to a new branch not far
From where youth was left behind
For now, empty remains atop a tree
Cold and hollow among the winds
That silence the songs of love and joy
Celebrate now, rejoice then
It is a home expecting to fill
The void of this chilly season
And when the sun is bright and smiles
It is assured to see the birth
As success comes flying in

I want to run wild
Without saddles on my back
Galloping alone but surrounded
By rumbling on the ground
Along plains of life and death
Conquering hurdles lying still
Rocks and pebbles thrown my way
In this land foreign to all
My mane floating free
As I jump over rivers
Then up paths curled on mountains
No rider could withstand
I stand tall my neck stretched high
As I look from atop this hill
Before I run once more
Full speed down narrow roads
Headed toward the desert
Where new hurdles lie ahead
Dry dunes and oasis
Clear skies, burning sun
I look back and see no heard
No steps behind me, none ahead
This world is mine and in this desert
I will build my castle
And draw my roads
No more challenges
But me alone

Wear your gown
Walk and smile
A day so special, it is for you
You have waited, for so long
and your hand, bears as witness
Of the struggles, that have passed
Your insided beauty, and your glow
Were hidden and sealed, for some time
Breaths so shallow, with the pain
In the veins, and the soul
Lift one hand, wave to all
Tears of joy, and farewell
A honeymoon, and a life
New not old, past the dawn
Fear of joy, not of sorrow
Fill the aisle, as you walk
Look ahead, don't turn back
Take the risk, stumble and fall
Pure and white, in this moment
All the rest, left behind
I am proud, so are you
You have grown, before my eyes
It is time, to hand you off
With these tears, in my eyes
My heart beats fast, yours not so
It rests assured, of each step
But I smile
And in return
You say thank you
My dear nurse

Bright reds
Yellows and blues
What a beautiful garden
As I stand at my window
I look
I smell
I smile
What joy
Why not me?
Spring all around
My glacier home
Soft rose petals
Bright tulips rise high
With tangled roots
Painting of life
On every wall
Of my room
Children play
In the distance
Their joy touches the windows
Their smiles too far
To melt this frozen cage
Tears of ice
Too distant from it all

We have traveled far
Seen many cities
Our senses were amazed
Distant places
We have walked
How many mountains did we climb?
How many suns kept us warm?
How many seas did we smell?
On how many sands did we sleep?
How many moons shined our path?
I could go on with my questions
But after all is said
Only to you
Will I always return

A black rose
With its petals, and its thorns
planted, in the garden
of my soul
Growing slowly
With the water, of my tears
Now it lies, withered out
Awaiting hopeless
For more sorrow
To overshadow my heart
Its roots dry
It petals blown away
By the spring, of your love
Bright yellow and pink
New petals, have blossomed
Tulips everywhere
Stand straight up
Looking at the sun
Layers of romance
Fed with joy, wine of life
Flowing across corners
Of my thoughts
Of my soul Of my heart

I am half way there
And in the middle of my indecision
I see the stairway up, I see the stairway down
Not clear when I departed
Or when I will arrive
The start a blur, two ends in sight
Door one below
Take a guess; what will it be
Door two above, maybe it is best
Where to go?
How to choose?
My only guide inside
Not my eyes, or my ears
All else will follow
Connect my soul with each door
I can feel the rainbows
Of peece and pain
Still here in the middle
Not a step has changed
I should sit while I think
Two doors, two rainbows
No telling how, no telling when
My life ended
A canvas half white, half black
I stand, one foot on each side
Hot, cold
Sweet, sour
Love, sorrow
Full, empty
Two halves, one me
Two hearts, two souls
Two thoughts, two stairs
A tug of war, no winner
A tie, I stand still
In the middle of my indecision
What do I feel?
What am I thinking?
Why don't I move?
I should sit while I think
Time travels so fast
How gray I am now
I sit, in the middle; still thinking
Why don't I move?
My canvas still blank and white
But I am gray
Not black nor white
I stretch and shake
My gray spreads and paints
My canvas now shades
Rainbows all around
No longer two stairs
A canvas of paths
Filled with shades
An adventure all its own
Hidden before me, now clear
Motion among colors
Of my heart and soul
My thoughts behind
No longer in my way
As I flow freely
In my own sea

Let me say goodbye
After this our brief hello
As a rivers rolls toward the sea
So too our memories will flow
No longer in my future
No longer part of me
I shall not miss
The depths of darkness
As I rise a phoenix, set free
This is a new moment
That I wished for so long
A star in the distance
Now shining so bright
I had not seen it
Though it stood right before me
No longer shall tears of shame
Cross down my torn skin
Rivers of despair
Lie dry as they may
No more guilt or remorse
Today is a new day
Tomorrow is ahead
Sunrise in the horizon
New roads filled with joy

Are you ok?
Yes, yes, I'm just thinking
Is there another poem in my mind?
And as I dream
A salty stream runs through
Deep creeks near my eyes
My mind says stop, my heart feels broken
Empty mirrors, white shadows
What seemed real is not
What I dreamt is now here
So I feel, so I think, so I dream
I can fly, to my summit
Not alone, not without you
You are by my side
You are in me, and I in you
And so our promise
From the beginning
As we walk, climb, fly
Our summit is at hand
We were two
Weare one
The stream has run dry
The creeks are filled
Our wings now white
Yes, we are one

In my fall, there are circles
To loneliness, of the past
I forget to climb, brand new mountains
As I sleep, in the waters
Where fires run wild
Hiding, from the many colors
That play, mix and bind
Looking at the distance memories
With my eyes closed wide
Hiding in dreams, never ending
Riding trains, to netherworld
Every moment, is how it seems
With a lens, colored gray
Fog trapped just beneath
Solitude of a mind
Tangled threads, of a twine
Kaleidoscope, of a past never changing
Paints the color, of my lens
Different worlds, with every turn
From deep blues, to feel now yellow
Is to hold
A brand new day

Plant me like a seed
That will blossom overnight
Water me in the dark
And I will flower in the dusk
Take away these weeds
That crowd my tender roots
Let me grow without thorns
Or shells that wrap my spine
Help me reach up high
To a sky free of clouds
I shall be grateful to all
Who cared for me each day
Gardeners of love
Selfless with passion
And when the winds blow strong
I shall let go my fragile pollen
Into streams of new hello's
To meet grounds with the welcome
Of old friends who have returned
To the times of childhood's past
And never felt a day go bye
Without thinking of each other
I shall see it reach above
It's wild roots of youth and candor
Stretch its branches awaiting an embrace
Of its parents left behind
In the distance I will watch
As its trunk becomes wider
With the wisdom of the years
And its pollen sets for sail
Among new seas of floating feathers
To blossom one more time
As others did before it
While we age, my ground and I
And hold our grip ever stronger
Until we reach our last day
Of this our great journey
Having seen so many go
And join with other soil
To age just like us
Knowing well that all good deeds
Have been accomplished

In these leaves
A deep pink shines
Its veins spread wide
Life runs through
Each branch above ground
Looking up towards the sun
Itr broad trunk
Filled with wrinkles
Many rings hid inside
Signs of years growing strong
So many winds have crossed its path
So many rains have flooded and dried
Standing strong not bowing down
Growing and grieving as time goes by
A new ring and wrinkle for this year
Its roots so deep and yet tangled
Some can see so many I cannot
Breath of life since its first days
Foundation to keep its trunk upright
In search of new stars
Other trees all around
Their leaves shaking hands
Their roots sharing soil
The essence of it all
This is who I am
This is how I grew
News winds and rain shall come
My roots and trunk will conquer
A new wrinkle for this year
Standing strong not bowing down
This is me
Growing still

Tragedy strikes
The weak it does not spare
Lightning is its speed
and crippling is its pain
Ooze as a symbol
Of despair in the flesh
Express hollow feelings
After it has all past
Missing the moment
We wish to forget
A forrest of new memories
Fresh with each day
That grow attemting to hide
The campfire left behind
With crackling in the heart
And ashes in the mind
Too many silent prayers
Lay down on fallow lands
As tragedy strikes again
Crumbling are the knees
That once kept the height
Of the strong and the weak
Tears are too late, and too brief
Fear in the eyes
Of what lies ahead
Paralyzed is the soul
Life in slow motion
As tragedy strikes again
And the heart stands still
Wishing to just stop
To let go a last breath
But wishes are for others
Who carry different paths
Why is the question
Silence is the answer
A blank stare in the darkness
Will it strike again?
Will the excruciating pain return?
Is this the next time?
Or maybe tomorrow
The agony of this fear
Will now stay and not go

I don't feel it is coming
I don't feel it at all
Somehow I'm numb
To the candles and the lights
Many are shopping
Or making big plans
While I'm just here
Wondering what's wrong
No white carpet outside
No excitement inside
It doesn't make sense
Every year I was joyful
Running up and down
Wrapping paper and bows
Surprises and thrills
Now it's all gone
I would rather fall asleep
A hug, a happy wish, a thank you and goodnight
Is it just me?
I hear cheerful songs
An emotional desert
All my own
No sun or clouds
No moon or stars
A dried creek
In my heart
Tomorrow is another day
I will do it all again
Maybe that is just me
I can do it if I want
Nothing stops me
But my own thoughts
I can smile, it's ok
Laugh but feel hollow
I have done that before
I want that old joy
I know it is in there
Come out I command you
Echoes in the dark
My family now surrounds me
Love in their embrace
Joy in their voice
Generations of traditions
Forget all the presents
My family is my joy

Since birth
A world unknown appears
Sounds with smiles or tears
Shapes with colors and form
Moving or still
Discovery in every blink
Sleepless nights of motherly love
Tender touch with soft purrs
Flavors both bitter and sweet
Trace odors, aroma and scent
Confusing as it all seems
It comes together as one large canvas
So new, such wonders to explore
To reach out, to hold, to listen
To capture, to process, to understand
Labels shall come all in due time
To build the walls
To color with shades
Mask what is here
And not see it anymore

A new day is today
Waterfall of seeds blossom
Each with, thoughts its own
Not the same, although I wish it
Own myself, and my branches
Leaves born, fruit of acceptance
As rivers flow, and feed all growth
Different trunks, different roots
Generations of seeds, floating by
Winds of change, one each day
To share the pollen, that is mature
I control, which will depart
Not the forrest, nor it me
And if a storm, with its clouds
Touches ground, breaks all rules
I still control, my growth each day
Not to wither, nor to break
Accept myself, and the change
Despite all weather
That comes my way

Hiding myself
Among the roses
Thorns pierce
The fragrant aroma
Budding growth
In this garden
Nurtured with patience
And respect
Blooming petals
Along the way
Bouquets lining
The two paths
Light and darkness
A part of love
Rise and wither
On same soil
A dozen tears
In each stem
On the card
Farewell wishes
Apologies
From the heart

Warm sand
Gentle breeze
In your eyes
A deep blue sky
An endless sea
Look at me
Look through me
I dare not
In my shame
Footsteps of guilt
Stairway of redemption
Tears of my own fall
Leaves yellow and red
Shades of brown and green
Summer in your kiss
Winter in my embrace
Look at me
Look through me
Tell me what you see
A heart of stone
My soul a black hole
My spirit I cannot find
Swim in the waters
Of my ageless tears
Remorse of the future
Of a past with no name
May it be this way
Until I return
To the soil
Thar saw my birth

When the final leaf, of autumn falls
Bare it leaves, its branch and trunk
Brown the mood, along its veins
Crumpled by grief, the sun is gone
Clouds cover, every inch above
Dry roots, that feed it life
Barren and cold, the soil cannot
Hold on to rain, and keep it moist
Days will come, when wrinkles cover
Tempered bark aged in barrels
Of snow drifted, to its side
By artic winds, from mountains frosted
And if, that day comes to be
Each creek will fill, with pebbles called
One by one, their names in glory
Under a bridge, with planks of wood
From these same trees, standing tall
Digging deep, into our earth
And so the seasons, come to be
With change in, water and in winds
But trees and pebbles, still remain
From the ground to up above
In each tree rests a forrest
Just one name unites it all
It is the forrest, of our life

Children running free
Children running wild
Let me light you golden paths
Let me feed, your tender growth
Let me teach you
Right form wrong

The line within
You cannot see
But you will learn deep inside
Light is not dark
Shadows do not walk
In the streets of your heart
You will jump back and forth
And so it is throughout life

Rollercoasters of success
Rollercoaster of defeat
Climb on board for your ride
As you twist and you turn
The line within you cannot see
The paths ahead may seem all too straight
Where they lead you do not know

And so you grow
A pendulum in your heart
A shining path yours to follow
The line within you may not see
I will teach and you will learn
And it will guide
Your every step

As I close my eyes
I hear moments long gone
Whispers in the dark
In my heart
In my soul
Gentle tears
Flowing down
Lovely doves
Flying by
Make me smile
Let me weep
Pick me up
In your palm
I will live
As I sleep

Be free like the wind
Set sail and behold
Let bars not be jail
As your wings fly now free
Flames abound
Seas of life
Two sides each the same
Let the sun set
As the battle ends
Share hope among
Men of courage

Wooden soldiers, in a golden war
Battlegrounds, with flames and smoke
Terror rises, in hearts of steel
Winners always believe it true
Bitter losses, of existence
Raise all flags, filled with sorrow
Happiness shall come one day
Finding not, the deeper meaning
Starving anger, with inner peace
Distorted thoughts, within the rage
Justice hovers, does not land
To melt the heart, and lead one breath
Chips and ashes, of broken men
Torn apart, while sleeping still
As they are, but do not live
Strive to be, with less effort
Settle down, without a fight
Faced with truth, and knowledge
That piece will win, every battle

My bones are dry
My skin powder
My eyes sunken
Into hollow craters
Each finger still
Both hands crossed
In an endless dream
Where only souls go

And yet I know
Now, as then
My heart will still beat
It may seem still
The blood may seem dry
But now, as then
My love for you remains strong

In dark as in light
Beneath this unmovable soil
My memories of you
I know
Now, as then
I will recall
My feelings for you
I will relive

Even the coldest soul
Even the lonliest heart
Will return from
This endless sleep
To join hands
Once again
In an endless dream

To my addiction
I now say goodbye
You have stayed with me
So long and so quite
You thrilled, your rush
Infused in my veins
Decrepit my soul
Bleeding my heart
So alone I have been
And so torn apart
My family and friends
They knew not
Hiding from them
Both, you and I
This is my chance
To come back to all
To live with the love
You don't have inside
I'm thrilled that this moment
Has finally arrived
Not just farewell
Forever goodbye

Smile clown smile
Dress up and paint your face
Jump and fall down
It's just paint after all
Look at them laugh
Here them clap
They laugh about you
Who cares in the end?
The joke is on you
Keep it inside and hide
Smile while you are empty
Smile while you are sad
Smile while you are dying
They will still laugh
Smile clown smile
The show must go on
Hurry, step right in
Jump and fall again
No one will come to your rescue
It's just paint after all

Prayers in the essence
Of my being
Hollow tears
Of a lonely heart
Healed for months
And then broken
Kneel and cry
As worlds clash then burn
Thunderous revenge
Inside and out
Of a past unchanged
Yet chained today still
Love long gone
Falling slowly
Down a cliff
It is sight
but so far
Just for others
To hold on
Not within
These cold wlls
Of this heart
With its cliff
Filled with prayers
And communion
Mercy for
Things gone wrong
Search for hope
To rebuild
With new love
For myself
I forgive
You may not
It is ok
As I move on

Here I am
Here I lie
Warm cuddles all around
Sweet purrs walk about
The tic tac of a clock
Oh how time passes by
Warm cuddles all around
Sweet purrs walk about
Time passes by
Not to wait
Not to stop
Here I am
Here I lie
Still the same
Maybe not
I look inside
And I can see
Not clear yet
But I can see

Let me talk, just let me talk
I'm so tired
To even carry
My own thoughts
I want to live
In a house
Adrift at sea
With my music, and my quotes
Seagulls gliding by
Windmills in the sky
I want to ground my feet
And stand up high
Climb the stairs
Of the thoughts, in my heart
Slide down rivers
Filled with hope
Land on clouds
Flying high, stand again
Deep deep dive
In the ocean, of my mind
Swim out clear, swim out clean
Of this sadness, that I feel
It's my story
Lying low, then I dive
Lying low, then I dive
But I see it now
I feel the change
Let me talk, just let me talk
As I stand, atop this cloud
Not to dive
But to fly

Let me be positive
It seems like the first time
But, I am still thinking negative
And cannot focus well
I stand at the brink
Of hope and defeat
The crossroad
Of wishes and sorrow
Just one step stands between
A future of yesterdays
Or a past of tomorrows
I stand here, I sit here
I lie here now
Fearful of this one step
Of possibles
I try to find the strength
Of a cub become lion
The courage
Of a mother in fear
Just to move one finger
That will point towards the way
I rise one more time
And take a first step
With fear in my heart
But positive that this choice
Is movement after all

In the blink of an eye
A whole life can change
I live as though
I earned it somehow
It is mine
I am in control
But just one eyelid
Decides every moment
Just one blink
And life can start
Just one blink
And we miss an eclipse
Of candles burnt out
A heartbeat
A light touched
The sudden excitement
Of friendship reborn
I final breath and goodbye
A smile or a nod
A fall or a jump
The end or the beggining
Just one blink
And a star is born
In the sky
Of my soul
That will shine
Even after
My eyelids
Finally close

Crushing losses, filled with sorrow
Landslides, in perpetual rain
Endless canyons
In the center, of my heart
With its magma, flowing down
Not in burts, but as seas
Crawling down, the open wounds
All around, to protect
From the sky
Every morning, a new sunrise
But not seen, just the clouds
With teardrops falling
In the tunnels, of my heart
Winds are blowing, smoke arises
As the sun, comes rushing in
Wounds are closing
Canyons filled
A brand new ocean
I wish to swim

Steam surfaces in spurts
As signals from within
A code in fumes and smoke
The mound grows in inches
Hurt buried in graves
Sealed without healing
Not dead nor alive
Limbo creates angst
If you walk up above
Steps press and sqeeze
No space to move aside
I look up and around
clenching teeth and fist
I stare now and before
But release I cannot
As the anger boils and steams
And lava expands below
My five senses feel the pain
Of currents coming out
Just streams but not enough
To lighten this my burden
My explosion comes atop
Shedding all its molten
Burning those around
Melting all the walls
Which once held my home
No longer can I wait
No longer will I wait
My explosion boils and blows
Away I send the past
No longer to return
As I move forward

How deep is this ocean?
I drowned first, I then sank
With each gasp ever deeper
No longer can I see the sky
Just the darkness
That surrounds my thoughts
That numbs my emotions
I can stand no more
As a new bottom appears
Then fades away
In this endless dive
To the deepest corners
To the loneliest moments
Far beyond any embrace
I learned to swim
In these depths
To breath again
To drown no more
To see the sky, and the sun
How to expain?
Who would believe?
Drowning saved me
Drowning taught me how to swim
To live again
To stay afloat
And move toward the sky
And to this ocean I say
Thank you

Down off a cliff
The precipice of life
A sceptic fall, where aspirations cannot survive
Sunken emotions, lethal feelings skin deep
As two streams overflow, the corners of farewell
No goodbyes as this day, holds the promise of return
To the times now long gone
An old home built of sand
New foundation found in rocks, under rivrrs of despair
Cherish only dreams, in a fog of oneself
Wake to the truth, as the bottom is in sight
To escape the dark end, is a wonder to be felt
To jump and not slip, our own will to renew
As the flames within passion
Spread ashes in the path
That leads to an ocean
Filled with hope and with courage

In your eyes
Deep blue skies
Rise above
Seas of green
Along the prarie
Its gentle waves
Rolling down
With the breeze
That glides in paths
Not walked before
And as I pass
In this moment
A quick hello and goodbye
I can see
In your eyes
Unchartered waters
In a time not yet here
A brand new thought
A dream of hope
Smiles and laughter
Fill these lands
Mend the hearts
Of souls forgotten
That grieve the loss
Of our past
I bid farewell
To these lands
And the prarie
Unchartered waters
Lie ahead
In your eyes
A single tear
A farewell and hello
To a past and a future
As you sail
Away once more

Tears of spring roll down
Dry creeks filled
With **** grown out of pain
From this departure, premature
In silence held
The sorrow bottled
Freedom distant, not at hand
These gray bars
Projected not real
Imprison the heart with this hurt
Tomorrow will rise
Dark clouds shall move on
The creek will dry out
And healing begin
To continue in life
The pain from this moment, can return some day
And so shall the sun
and so shall my joy
for human is my name

Endless night, as though an owl
A glimmer of light
Over black silhouettes
Walking among chairs
With much torn clothes
Signs of old dreams
Restless in the mind
To wake is to die
Among mirrors so bright
Not true to themselves
Hours pile on, and the weight of the image
Takes its toll
As many fall down
Exhausted not gone
Reflections of smoke
The dawn now returns
To once again struggle
Break down and be
Alone in the dark
Let the guard fall
Dark is what is real
Or so is the choice
To remain hidden among
Smokeless mirrors

Cold winds blow bare the trees
Their leaves have dropped
Sad and lonely, unfed
No fruit or seed remains
The grass has yellowed
Preserved under frost
Grey clouds hang below a blue moon
The snow weighs down
As this winter moves in
Gone the warm sun
And my hope too

I want to be happy
I want to be angry
I want to be sad
I want to be me
In each moment while I smile
Remember the years
Of dreams fulfilled, and troubled steps
Of a past with needles
Promises in thin air
Hope for a day like today
Forgiveness walked by, as I closed my eyes
And awoke to a new start
New names, new walls, new promises
How did I fall?
In a new past
It is here nonetheless
Six months and goodbye
Anxiously awaiting, nine months in the womb
After climbing new steps
A vision so near, within reach of my embrace
The warmth of its sun
The peace of its breeze
The calm of its still waters
My reflection shining through
White doves all around
As I smile once again
The flood of pain washed away
I am here, not alone
But with myself
I am sad, I am angry
I am afraid, I am happy
I am fulfilled
My vision at hand
Shall you join?
No longer am I counting
I move ahead stronger
My heart one with my soul
My future built of many today's
My past now a distant memory
No longer on my shoulders
No longer in my eyes
For I have changed
I am now me

A procession of tears
Dressed in black garments
Each passing by
To look and to cry
To pray for the soul
May it rest in peace
When each comes forth
Words of remembrance
Of times shared together
Just one person lies
But memories abound
Moments of joy
And pain mixed as one
To care is to hurt
When we drift apart
Lonely the heart
As we stay in this wake
Grasp we cannot
The past that has gone
To hold is to try
To live it again
We must let it rest
Over soil of peace
Bury it not
Under pain and our sorrow
Remember we can
From birth until today
Smiles and tears still remain
But without the black garments
The wake is now over
We live with our past