Not long ago
Sadness
Laughter
Panic
Tears
Joy
Were all here
Just calm remains
So many empty chairs
Disordered as they may
Waiting
Waiting
Whose tears will I dry
Whose laughter will shake
These old legs
Bowing down
With this weight
In my heart

Here I am
Here I lie
Warm cuddles all around
Sweet purrs walk about
The tic tac of a clock
Oh how time passes by
Warm cuddles all around
Sweet purrs walk about
Time passes by
Not to wait
Not to stop
Here I am
Here I lie
Still the same
Maybe not
I look inside
And I can see
Not clear yet
But I can see

A procession of tears
Dressed in black garments
Each passing by
To look and to cry
To pray for the soul
May it rest in peace
When each comes forth
Words of remembrance
Of times shared together
Just one person lies
But memories abound
Moments of joy
And pain mixed as one
To care is to hurt
When we drift apart
Lonely the heart
As we stay in this wake
Grasp we cannot
The past that has gone
To hold is to try
To live it again
We must let it rest
Over soil of peace
Bury it not
Under pain and our sorrow
Remember we can
From birth until today
Smiles and tears still remain
But without the black garments
The wake is now over
We live with our past

Steam surfaces in spurts
As signals from within
A code in fumes and smoke
The mound grows in inches
Hurt buried in graves
Sealed without healing
Not dead nor alive
Limbo creates angst
If you walk up above
Steps press and sqeeze
No space to move aside
I look up and around
clenching teeth and fist
I stare now and before
But release I cannot
As the anger boils and steams
And lava expands below
My five senses feel the pain
Of currents coming out
Just streams but not enough
To lighten this my burden
My explosion comes atop
Shedding all its molten
Burning those around
Melting all the walls
Which once held my home
No longer can I wait
No longer will I wait
My explosion boils and blows
Away I send the past
No longer to return
As I move forward

Wounds, they grasp the soles
Bare skin, then run dry
Tender flesh, now corroded
With a bolt, as the thunder
Strikes and renders, every second
A pause in time, to feel the pain
I hear not what you whisper
But can see, your every word
And I find in your timber
Flows in waves, then a clash
It ends not now, but every moment
The final buzzer, is coming closer
A battle cry, that will conquer
Every game, I have to play
Stand by me or oppose
Still I reach a higher goal
A new bolt but no surrender
Push ahead and heal the wounds
Pain remains without old tears
It will not stop for I run
Yes, I run
With my pain

In these leaves
A deep pink shines
Its veins spread wide
Life runs through
Each branch above ground
Looking up towards the sun
Itr broad trunk
Filled with wrinkles
Many rings hid inside
Signs of years growing strong
So many winds have crossed its path
So many rains have flooded and dried
Standing strong not bowing down
Growing and grieving as time goes by
A new ring and wrinkle for this year
Its roots so deep and yet tangled
Some can see so many I cannot
Breath of life since its first days
Foundation to keep its trunk upright
In search of new stars
Other trees all around
Their leaves shaking hands
Their roots sharing soil
The essence of it all
This is who I am
This is how I grew
News winds and rain shall come
My roots and trunk will conquer
A new wrinkle for this year
Standing strong not bowing down
This is me
Growing still

How deep is this ocean?
I drowned first, I then sank
With each gasp ever deeper
No longer can I see the sky
Just the darkness
That surrounds my thoughts
That numbs my emotions
I can stand no more
As a new bottom appears
Then fades away
In this endless dive
To the deepest corners
To the loneliest moments
Far beyond any embrace
I learned to swim
In these depths
To breath again
To drown no more
To see the sky, and the sun
How to expain?
Who would believe?
Drowning saved me
Drowning taught me how to swim
To live again
To stay afloat
And move toward the sky
And to this ocean I say
Thank you