Is this real life?

This is a question
I find myself asking
Often.

I wish it were just
A dream. One where
I could wake up  
To see a sweet
Good morning
From you
On the screen
Of my phone.

I wish it were just
A dream. One where
I could wake up
With the excitement
Of knowing I
Will see you
That day.

I wish it were just
A dream. One where
I could wake up
And tell you
Just how much
You mean to me
One more time.

I wish it were just
A dream. One where
I could wake up
And you could
Remind me
That this is
All just a
Dream

But this,
This is not
Just a dream.

I am sick
At the thought
That this is
real life.

That you
Are not
Here.

It’s ironic isn’t it?

How your biggest
Fear was the ones
You love were going
To leave.

But here I am,
Without you
By my side.

It’s ironic isn’t it?