always, always
never ending
always something
never stopping
do this do that
never breathers
never resting
no breaks either

so much to do
so much to feel
always thinking
always hurting
small pains big pains
always healing
always bleeding
always aching

I think of you
I think of her
I think of him
everyone I've ever met
I've ever loved
I've ever grown apart from

you attacked me today
said my apology wasn't good enough
but it's leagues better
than the nothing I've recieved from you

I'm trapped
I'm chained
I'm strapped to a chair
I can't escape
I can never rest

always working
always wanting
always worrying
never stopping

I try to avoid these feelings,
I've been running for years;
the silent killer of all my lovers.
I try to avoid these feelings
of inadequacy.

I'm in love, I'm sure.
and I think you're the same
but I know deep down you want someone more,
and I think you're starting to realize it too

simple conversations
that we can't keep straight
always bouncing off our ideas
suddenly you mention a future
spent together,

I can't wait

two lovers lie together
yet forever apart

the first loves her girl to the point where she bites
and in bed, watches her throughout all the nights

the second loves her girl in every conceivable way
and thinks of her all throughout the day

and though the pair are together,
they never are

for by watching throughout night
the first sleeps through the day

and leaves her lover waiting