Mentality is something everyone has
But everyone is not the same
There's always someone to blame
A certain truth to claim
Always a yes or a no
A black and white
Not many people see the silver lining
As my chair is reclining
I think about my side
Is my side right or wrong
Am I weak but strong
My mind sees two sides
both are wrong but both are right
Contradicting thoughts flow through my brain
I'm grey
sadly surrounded by black and white

19 years old
Blinded by selfishness and youth
Walked ready and bold
My heart was a chipped tooth
From the moment I met you
To the moment I lost you
Everything was blurred
It was the day we left each-others live's
My memory loss was cured
I suddenly started to remember the things you did
Instead of things you didn't
Most were cherished and sweet
Some were forgetful and discreet
You will always be remembered as the boy in the band
One to always hold my hand
One to never let me go
The one to takes things slow
I don't regret the time I had with you
You've taught me so much
Within the months
You taught me love in a divergent way
You showed me love is okay
And for that I'm thankful
I hope your life is nothing but growth

Remember when life was as simple as running in a field and feeling happy
Money didn't matter
Greed didn't exist
It was free to fly
It was free to feel
It was free to smile
Everyone was one
Now everyone is gone

I miss the us we never were
The us I pictured would be but never was
I don't know how you feel about me
Please...answer
I've opened all these doors for you to walk through
You ran inside and found who I am
I try to walk through yours
But the door is locked
Tried simple knocks
I guess you never hear me
Or maybe you're not there
Maybe you've been a ghost this whole time
It would make sense, I've been feeling cold
Yet I've had you by my side