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Mar 2013 · 970
The Collector
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
He began by taking samples
Little things at first
A photograph of summer freckles
A strand of hair
Fingernail clippings
And my favorite polish
Turquoise and caicos
Footprints
On the bathroom floor
Nothing I would notice
Nothing I would miss
And then he went bigger
My lips concealed
In his underwear drawer
My fingers and toes
Still painted
Stuck in the yogurt
The peanut butter
Full of ears, a nose
He grew bold
With surgical precision
Moved my ribs to the fridge
Chilling
Staving off listeria
My hips he displayed prominently
Framed by the headboard of his bed
My head serving as centerpiece
For his infrequent dinner guests
Shapely legs holding up the table
And believe me
THEY ARE THE SHAPLIEST
Arms supporting arms
New tattoos on his favorite chair
My alarm clock heart
Beating wake up
Wake up
Get out of bed
From his desk
And meaning
Nothing more than that
"I wanted you for my collection,"
He said
"You're the most extraordinary
Specimen I've ever met."
Trying to find ways to talk about it.
Mar 2013 · 762
Paula
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
Always a president
Never a vice
Made of sugar and spice
Fresh herbs from your windowsill
I'm convinced if I opened you up
I'd find a smaller
Russian nesting Paula
Hiding inside
Afraid of getting hurt
Enjoying the protection layers afford
I'm convinced if I
Turned you inside out
You'd be exactly as beautiful
And classically radiant
Launching blue and auburn sparks
Into the night
A renaissance painting
Come to life
Madonna in jeans
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
Vitriolic hydraulic push
Pull of sorghum
Sticking sweetly in my veins
Molar studded oatmeal cookies
Crunching like a bad dream
Dull rhinestone eyes
Losing more and more shine every day
Sluggish swole-bellied synapses
Firing in my brain
And I'm crying oversized tears
Drowning like Alice in Wonderland
I know you couldn't  bear to breathe my air
Or share our bed
Or eat my cooking
But
"Did you know the capital of Uzbekistan is Tashkent?"
No.
Did you know I keep Austin up every night
Begging for your scraps?
Hedoesn'tlovemehedoesn'tlovemehedoesn'tlovemeandIdon'tun­derstandwhatIdidwronghedoesn'tlovemeAustinmyheartisgone
I can still smell you
On my sunday dresses
And I'm afraid of the washing machine
And dryer sheets
Afraid of what they'll take from me
I had religion
I had faith in you
And I can still taste the body
Of Jesus Christ
Jesus Christ!
All night
Not like I lost anything important right?

Well
I'll probably never see you again
But my daddy's got a shotgun
Just in case
Reba did I get it right?
Mar 2013 · 2.0k
Sister
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
Solving every problem
With a belly full of tea
And your feet
Hitting the treadmill
Shoulders taking on
The rowing machine
When dreams of mom dying
Keep you up at night
Who made the molecules
Behind your eyes
That shine
And glitter like Aztec gold
Through the green foliage
The right angles of your face
Looming like the himalayas
Annapurna and Everest
In the minds
Of mountaineers
And ex-boyfriends who can't forget
Your perfect china doll complexion
Rosy cheeks
A fake shade of delicate
You could hold up a bank with those eyelashes
Reaching for the sky
No time to call the police
Just put your hearts in my hands boys
And no one gets hurts

Put your toes on my shoulders
Sister
I'm always here for a boost
Take that leap sister
The world was
Made for you
Some editing to do still?
Mar 2013 · 845
John
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
You drive like you have a death wish
With a smile on your face
Your foot and the brakes
Have never gotten acquainted
Mar 2013 · 2.6k
Historical Fiction
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
Dewey Dell Bundren
Had her baby
And ran off to college
Worked single-mother hours
To keep her ****** apartment
And never missed a class
She married the first theology professor she could find
The kind
With the horn rimmed glasses
Drinking imported scotch
Discussing literature around the fire at night
She got a degree
At Northeastern
High honors in history
She never knew all those books were about her
And the people she came from
The places
Had their stories told
In the pages
Shaped everything she had ever known
She was grateful
For her history
And once a year made the trip
Back to Jefferson
Mississippi
Put flowers on her mother's grave
Still tasting
the bananas
Hearing herself saying
"Hadn't you ruther"
Still hearing Jewel
Cursing softly
"******* you, ******* you"
"You sweet sonofabitch"
Still seeing the mules
Swollen
Floating
Bellies up
Past Cash and the coffin
Leg broken
In that biblical spring flood
This won't make sense unless you've read As I Lay Dying.
Mar 2013 · 1.0k
First World
Holly Salvatore Mar 2013
I can hear the war
Being fought through the radio
Somehow it's more
Real now
Unlike anything Americans have fought before
A dark-eyed man
Is crying foreign tears
On a dirt floor
Giving new meaning to dirt poor
Feeling his daughters' faces
Through years of calluses
He's got three little girls
That his failed eyes can't find anymore
The bullet in his forehead
Took his sight
His three little lives
His whole world
And that's probably not the worst
On either side

I'm in a warm bed
Winter in the midwest
Drifting off to foreign correspondence
Thinking
I am out of mascara,
Cheez-its, toilet paper
I need to buy more
And I'm craving Starbucks
Chai tea
Sounds so good right now
The gas in my car
Probably came from an olive-skinned backyard
I'm not doing anything to help
I should move to Canada
Where I'll feel less responsible
For indirectly taking lives
I'm disappointed in myself
For buying new shoes
Enjoying good *****
Taking it for granted
That I got into a good school
I want it to show
Want people to know
That I stand for more
Than my selfish
First world problems
Feb 2013 · 1.4k
Things That Scare Me
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I find cannibalism intriguing
2. Bee stings
3. I haven't heard that speech that every boy needs
           to hear to be a man

4. The love that bottlenecks in your throat when someone dies
5. I have to be heavily medicated
                to enjoy my life
       and it feels like cheating

6. A tube of toothpaste, all squeezed out
7. Raising a second generation in my hometown
                It's this place
         That keeps me down

8. Jack the Ripper shows
               when I'm home alone
9. I've read every Sherlock Holmes
           and I am jones-
       ing for another
                   story to make me think

10. Same God, different names
11. Is language to blame
                  for misunderstandings
           or is it just human failings
Faith is a frail
       old woman
              feeding her 1,000 cats
     1,000 separate bowls of milk

12. The class of 2009
13. When I drive home at night
            I pretend to be someone else
       singing along with the radio

14. Ghosts of friends that walk right through you
15. Maybe the past never really happened?
     Maybe I was someone else back then?
16. Men
            Who leave me and fly off to
             Never never land
      Boys, not men
            Who don't want to grow up yet
            and probably never will

17. Ladybugs
Feb 2013 · 831
Mutt (Sentence Haiku)
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
White fang piercing soft muzzle, clumsy paws fumble unsuccessfully.
My baby bit through his lip the other day, but I saved him and he's making a full recovery.
Feb 2013 · 584
NPR (sentence haiku)
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
The nation's midsection bloats like a Mississippi fish in the sun.
Feb 2013 · 852
Taking Liberties
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I take little liberties
with my writing
I say that I'm snowed in
really it's just snow-
ing
I say I'm in love again
really I'm only
dating
I say there were books
The Night She Died
really it was yellow
lamplight, yellow
skin, emaciated
going home
to see her dad again
I take little liberties
in writing
my life's story
so when I tell my
grandkids
all about the life their
grandma led
I can say
truly
poetry brought me clarity,
poetry fixed my memories,
poetry brought
the one that got away
back to me
then let him
run away
a scared little boy,
not a man
again
poetry
(and cooking probably)
made your grandad
a happy man
falling all over me
and all my little liberties
have made my life
more liveable
little liberties
build my story better
they give me
a life
I want to tell
Someone once told me I shouldn't lie in my writing, aaaaaaaaaaaand I don't.
Feb 2013 · 1.0k
Norman Reedus
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I saw you on TV
specifically
your ***
and I just wanted to say
NICE HUSTLE
Thanks for being talented and good looking and rocking my sunday nights with your crossbow and arm muscles! I'll bake for you anytime.
Feb 2013 · 482
The Night She Died
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
Old books
Yellowing in the lamplight
Pages rustling
Then resting
Quietly
And I went upstairs
To bed
Feb 2013 · 1.5k
Melatonin
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I fell in love again
it's still left
unsaid, but I know
because my credit
card bills are lingering
in lingerie sales and
I'm trying not to get too much
black
and I'm trying not to
think too far back and
I've been having these dreams
where I tell James to
*******
and I've been having these dreams
where the horses don't
dress like horses
the horses dress like
elephants
they own the streets
of Paris, of Indonesia, of Calcutta
and the all the Asian mothers
make a fuss
about feeding me
everything they've got
one says she can tell
brides should not be skinny
they should be happy
in their own skin
and I tell her
"no"
but she insists, she can tell
I'm empty-
bellied
so she fills me full of rice
and strange pickled vegetables
spice
like a summer morning
when all the lilies come to life
and outside I hear
horses screeching by
painted up, bejeweled and
shiny
crying horse-tears under their
elephant-suits
and I'm in no mood
to talk to the missionary
seated beside me
preaching at this foreign country
so I tell him I can see God
I tell him I can BE God
There's something divine
in just being alive
And then our plane lands
flat in St. Louis
and the dream ends
.
I'm awake
and starting to feel alive again
and maybe I'll tell him
how I feel loved
again
This one needs a lot of editing. It'll get there I think.
Feb 2013 · 2.2k
Betty Grable
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
Had her legs insured for
movies, her career,
a million dollars
worth
calves and thighs
Kneecaps that just won't quit
and those tights
with the seams in the back
Oh.
My.
Gawd.
Betty Grable
Driving me insane sometimes
I lay awake at night
mentally budgeting future
paychecks
online shopping for those
lacy tights
I want to get my legs insured
Feb 2013 · 1.0k
Extra Syllable
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I haven't written in
a while now, I've been too
busy with cooking

and I feel like a
housewife, but no husband, no
kids, no house to wife

in
Feb 2013 · 1.1k
French Toast
Holly Salvatore Feb 2013
I can feel spring
coming and my new
notebook has
flowers on it
and today my line
breaks are not like
I remember
that almost fall end of
summer night sitting by the
fountain on the steps
feeling like a college
kid again
thinking this is how it
ends this is
how it begins
and this is
the chin and the
shin bones scraping
together and these
are the eyes and those
the ears and
sprained ankles that I'll
have for
the rest of my
life and I'm fine
remembering old lips
that night and
that's all it is: memories
and I'm fine
I'm all right
things are just
different and I tried
French toast the other day and
it's all right, he's all
right, I'll be
fine
Spring is coming and there's
flowers on my notebook and
then blooming outside
soon I can smell the
honeysuckle and the
spring turning to
summer nights
and I'm all right, in the mornings
He's all right
I'll probably be
fine
Dec 2012 · 1.7k
Cane Boil
Holly Salvatore Dec 2012
Molasses is
The most red
The most gold
The most vibrant
Least cold
Fall of my life
And it’s a new ****
Maybe he wears a trucker hat
Or maybe he wears bibs
Maybe he’ll be some dark horse
New candidate
I don’t know yet
He could be one of these
Over mountain men
Filtering through the woods
Appearing in the hills
Ghosts of Hatfields past
Fur on their faces
Instead of skin
Strong and sturdy
Growing up from the ground
Like the cane we’re cutting
Down
And it ain’t about money
Out here in God’s country
We’re just willing and
Able
Enjoying the rich soil
And machetes
Carving calluses
While the sugar’s pressing
Staining, straining
Green and sweet
Skimming, boiling, browning
Finally draining
Into glistening mason jars
The day is going dark
Sail away ladies
Sail away
And say darling say
Playing banjo
In a moonshine-induced
Hallucination
Till all the bread is gone
The molasses gets carted off
And now it’s full dark
The spooks come out
All the wicked witches
Spitting hairballs
At their victims
That thing making noise
Moving in the bushes
Might be Matt Kinneman
Tells me I’m a good woman
I’m a human wall
And my pigtails make good handholds
When someone needs to reach his knife
The mountains grow
Apart at night
And the hollers pull us in
Molasses tastes like being
Home again
For Lou
Nov 2012 · 1.5k
I feel old
Holly Salvatore Nov 2012
That frat boy’s
Bill Nye
Bowtie
Has got me thinking
Do kids these days
Even know who Bill Nye is?
Or **** Van ****?
Or Andy Griffith?
Some of my heroes from way back when
Is Eli Wallach
Ever going to ride his horse
Steal corn from Mexican villages again?
Do kids these days even know food comes from the earth
Not from a can?
I can’t imagine growing up
Inside
Except to watch Bill Nye
The science guy
And play Oregon trail
Home alone
On Friday nights
I miss Doc Watson and Tony Curtis too.
Nov 2012 · 1.6k
Our Town
Holly Salvatore Nov 2012
There are men in the yards
Boys, really
That teased me endlessly
In school
And now they are grown up
Angular in their carhartts
Corn fed
Sun red
From bailing too much hay
A little extra money on a weekend
They are clad in camo hats
Soft denim
Work clothes

When I knew them they were farm boys
Who were never looking for more
Than a corn fed
Country princess
A pair of cowgirl boots
To take to bed
And now they’re driving fire trucks
Tractors
International harvesters

Their princesses
Have fattened up
Wide hips are good for children
Easy enough to let yourself go then
Cute clothes are for the rich city *******
Who still fit into a 2

And their kids
A new generation of
Freeburgians
Are drawing with chalk in the streets
And the older ones
Are riding bikes
Long outgrown
Scraping their knees
Getting stung by bees
Shoplifting from the motomart

They will grow up normal
Grow into their work clothes
Keep that small town pride alive
Keep the corn fields, keep the rye
Keep the beans and wheat and barley
Growing high

And I keep running right on by
I never knew these people
Though I wear boots too
And my hands are calloused
From working with the soil
In the distance I can see the steeple
And my car
Parked for a quick getaway
Another day
Avoiding this place
This might not be finished
Nov 2012 · 617
Magritte
Holly Salvatore Nov 2012
This is not a poem.
Ceci n'est pas une pipe
Nov 2012 · 575
Bootleg
Holly Salvatore Nov 2012
The coyotes are loud tonight
And Bob Dylan’s burning bright
In the backs of my eyes tonight
And Mama, you been on my mind tonight
But a boy
Even more so
Who hums the blues
In bed with his girl
It is forceful
How he breaks into my mind
When I’m alone
And cold at night
And the coyotes starve so loud tonight
Calling for their mama
The moon
And right on cue
I hear you singing the blues
Next to me in bed
And the computer glows
Along with us
Howling Dylan at the moon
Dying in my footsteps
How I loved those vibrant blues
Lying togetherseparate
In your room
That was so many tonights ago
The coyotes are so proud outside my window
I wonder what they’ve killed
And I hope you’re humming Dylan
Far away
I am thinking of you still
Still a draft?
Jul 2012 · 8.4k
Reasons I'm a Bad Person
Holly Salvatore Jul 2012
Some nights I go to your girlfriend's softball games

Just to watch her drop fly *****

You wouldn't know

Because you never go

But

I love it when she skins her knees
Apr 2012 · 1.2k
Kittens
Holly Salvatore Apr 2012
Meowing through the fields
Frolicking through the meadows
Blackie won the race
This haiku was originally conceived by my sister
Apr 2012 · 548
It's Only a Foot
Holly Salvatore Apr 2012
I love you
but we don't see eye to eye
ON ANYTHING
and I'm really hoping
that it's just the height difference
because I don't want to lose you
or your beard

It is glorious
Holly Salvatore Apr 2012
Last night, honey,
I needed you to hold me with your words
and steady me with your voice
like you used to
when I couldn't get a rest
from the aching in my head
and the aching in my heart
and my mom's coughing all night long
I needed you to hold me
tighter than you ever did
cause I was missing her coughing
something fierce
and I was missing your warmth
like winter
waking up to sickness was always bitter
but it was better
than waking up to silence
and last night was so quiet
like I was the only one on earth
---- so I just wanted to hear you ----
breathe my name
one more time
and hold me with your words
honey
lately you've been quieter than her
Apr 2012 · 857
Flashback #1
Holly Salvatore Apr 2012
She fell
And she was on the floor
Calling
Forty minutes till I heard
She fell
And she was on the floor
Lying half an hour
Till I pulled her up
And tucked her into bed again
She fell
And she was on the floor
My arms weren’t strong enough
My legs went weak
From so much strain
My shirt was dripping
Making it rain
But
She fell
And she was on the floor
I’d have broken my back for her
Mar 2012 · 1.1k
Apartment Life
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I can hear my neighbors through the walls
And my roommate downstairs
Finding new ways to make salad unhealthy
The kitchen is filthy
Why does she do this?
Why am I here still?

260 is full of idiots
With their highschool girlfriends
258 is a broken laundry machine
And loose screens
And fake happiness for all the college kids
And fake nails
And fake ID’s

256 goes BANG! BANG!
Study harder
Get smarter
Gotta make that money
Gotta buy your own wonders
That’s what they’re all working towards
Nowadays

Anyways
254 is on the porch
I don’t want to live here anymore
254 is cold beer
Come over here
You wanna be my baby?

I think he’s righter than I’ll ever be
Mar 2012 · 540
Missing what I Never Had
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I got longing in my heart
For age and money
Wisdom
Years and money
Being young is funny
Being anything is funny
Because always you’d rather be anything else

I got longing in my heart
For time and money
Being youngandstupid
Isn’t funny
It isn’t fun anymore
I will always be poor
Because youngandstupid is one word

I got longing in my heart
And I’d rather be anything else
Than what I am right now
Being youngandstupid starts to hurt
When you’re not so young anymore
But youngandstupid is one word

I got longing in my heart for the things I never learned
I got longing in my heart
I don’t want to be stupid anymore
I don’t want to be one word
I want to be anything else
I could be anything else
If I would just stop worrying and learn
I had a professor once who always used to tell us that young and stupid is one word. Sometimes I think he was right. Sometimes I think he was full of it.
Mar 2012 · 815
Butterflies and Bile
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Belly churning

        Gurgling

               Roaring

      And they’re dying to get out

But the only door that’s open

            Is my mouth

And they come flying

      Flapping

                           Sloshing

               Soaking

                      Spewing

         Fighting their way out

In a steaming sunny pile

A heap of butterflies and bile


Since I met you all I can think about

             Is kissing you clean

Square on the mouth

With my molten butterfly breath

             All hot and bothered

My golden belly

Glowing empty

Growing full

Of hot air

Churned by frail wings

                                                     And I can’t help wishing

                           That they’d cause some tidal waves

               Natural disasters

        And ignite some panic

               In your stomach

                                                      Half a world away


     If my world is ending I hope yours is too

            In a torrent of butterflies

                   Vomited out

                        Perpetual stomach flu
I don't know.
Mar 2012 · 802
Noel
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Is that I like your hats
They gave you away
I knew how you made your money
Before you opened your mouth
Was it because
We were in bed?
Where do you keep your stash?
Was it because
You’re an honest man?
You’d be the only one I’ve ever met
An honest man
With laundered cash
2. Is how do we act at work?
Not a word
For three months
Now not words are hard for us
3. Is a magic number
4. Is your middle name
You didn’t think I noticed
But I did
James
The same as his
Are you going to do what he did?
Or will everyday be Christmas?
5. Is that I’m the big spoon
And I like holding you
I’m the big spoon
And the drawer is all askew
I wish I was the man
With big strong arms
I wish you were the lady
With all her feminine charms
Because backwards is what we are
What we are
6. Is that I’m on eggshells
Pins and needles
Hot coals
And I’m barefoot
Getting burnt
And stabbed
And I’m naked
Getting kissed
And ******
And I’m nervous
Feeling guilty
7. Is the sweat beading on your chin
Pooling in
The spaces and
The valleys
Of your neck
You are making me a wreck
I don’t sleep
And I don’t eat
I don’t do anything
But you
Anymore
You’ve gotten under my skin
And I’m sweating you
I’m a fool
8. And I’m
In love
With you
9. But I’m done with you
Despite your middle name
You aren’t the same
10. I can’t be your doll
I’ve been James' for so long
Mar 2012 · 1.6k
Family Mythology
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Daddy was a boy scout
Moss grew on his skin
He was green
And I didn’t know him then
He was eating out of Frisbees
Building fires with his friends
He was young
He was not my daddy then

Soon he was an eagle scout
He grew up way too fast
Flew away
To desert sun
Hard at work
In Cimarron

Daddy was a park ranger
Before he met my mom
Hiking in his short shorts
All over Yellowstone

Daddy was a husband
Honeymoons and holding hands
And fighting over money
Build the house
Mow the lawn
Take the kids to soccer

Daddy was a doctor
Sorting pills and giving shots
And taking care of Mom
Daddy was a nurse
Wiping brows
And blowing noses
Sitting up all night

Then
Daddy was a grave digger
One cloudy day in May
At St. Paul’s
He hurt his shoulder
Playing in the dirt
At St. Paul’s
He hurt his shoulder
Putting Mom back in the earth
Because Papa Bear says I never write about him
Mar 2012 · 583
The Forge
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Whistle blowing
Get up
Go out early
Before the sun starts showing
Before the rooster’s finished crowing
Get out into the outside
Go out into the world

Get up and stoke the fires of your life
They smolder in your sleep
They are smoking
They need fuel
And they need you
Get up and make them dance again
Get up and make them burn
Make them bright again
Go out into the world and keep on burning

Until you fall back into bed at night
Exhausted from the fanning
Burned up from the flames
Keep your days burning away
And everyday
Wake up
Whistle blowing
Get up early in the morning
Keep the fires going
Go out into the world and just keep burning
Burning
Burning
If you need some motivation...
Mar 2012 · 548
Sex... Or Whatever
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Darling I want you

Sweet, sticky, hot, and heavy

Honey in my heart
Sometimes my feelings are best expressed in haikus.
Mar 2012 · 622
Everywhere Girl
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I grew up like you

              with you

         taller than you

             a country girl

                     through and through like you

long summer days

        a golden haze

                     of corn

                     and wheat

                      and barley

frozen winter nights

                   instilling us with fright

                            when we'd hear the coyotes howl

                             and spend the next day

                            wondering what they had done

playing outside

           in the mud

          in the sun

           in the fields

            in the smokehouse

           on the roads

there were no cars

              no people

               no noises

       to distract us from our fun

now we're older

     adults I suppose

     I'm still a country girl

But you're an everywhere girl

        I'm too afraid

        to pick up and leave

        my roots tie me down

         and I can't escape

       this life I have not even tried to make

But you

            you're an everywhere girl

                   at home

                        cities

                         towns

                          near and far

                          across the world

                                 alone in concrete glass and steel

                 you are happy

                  you are alive

                   you are filled with wonder

                   so bursting with emotion

                                          that you forget to call me

your sister

                     alike

                         but unlike you

          who doesn't need to hear your voice every day

          your friend in silence

                     your friend in conversation

           who understands your need to adventure

                        who wishes for her own stories

but is too scared to move

                 go too far

                          from what she knows

I wish that I was an everywhere girl too

                         loving it all

                      free rambling

                   independent

                          always smiling

                       You're a record store

                                   full of music

           You're a Wonka bar

                         hiding a golden ticket

                    You're a bonfire

                                       keeping everyone warm

                                 shooting sparks into the night

      Looking for nothing

            but finding EVERYTHING

You're an everywhere girl

                  and I'm learning a lot from you

You're an everywhere girl

            and I want to be too
The 1st poem I ever wrote. I was going to community college, my best friends were both in different countries and I felt very stuck. The midwest will do that to you.
Mar 2012 · 1.3k
A Boy, Not a Man
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I'm in love with a boy

Who makes me feel like fried chicken on a sunday

Like the Meat

That I don't eat

I'm an animal

I'm colossal

I'm the ballrooms in his eyes

I'm in love with a boy who makes me feel

Like pancakes on a weekday

We don't do that

In my family

We do grapefruit

cereal

oatmeal

We do not do orange juice

ever

I'm in love with a boy

Like honey in my tea

To take away the bitter

Take away the hunger

Amplify the wonder

And the way we grew together

All the tangles

All the thunder

All the things I never let you--

All the things I should have said to you

I'm in love with a boy

Who feels like sin in the morning

And sweet all the time

Like violence at night

And the freckles on his shoulders call me with words he'd never be able to find

Words that make me blind

The way he makes me feel is like the sun in my eyes

I'm in love with a boy like peaches in the summertime

And apples in the fall

He makes me feel like all the songs

I've never played

All the cobblers I should have baked

I'm my apron

I am taken

I'm the muffins that I baked him

I'm in love with a boy who makes me feel like candles on a birthday cake

Right after they hit the lights

And the sparkle

When the flames jump to the birthday girl's hair

And the scare

And the faces of the parents

All the horrified stares

I'm the 30 unburnt pieces, 45 guests

It's never enough

It's always too much

But I'm in love with this boy

He makes me feel

Like robbing a bank and making a clean get away

And worn out boots with no soles

From running hard and running fast

He makes me feel like guns

And a red hot sun

And the worst blisters of my life

Like fleeing in the night

and I'm your girl, right?

I'm in love with that boy like the first day he saw me

I'm in love with our mythology

and I want him to know

I'm still that girl

It's still that first day
For everyone who has ever had their heart broken
Mar 2012 · 2.0k
The Settlers
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Fifteen uniform clouds
Roll across the prairie
In a neat little line on the horizon
Kicking up dust storms as they go
Hurrying along
Silently
The settlers driving their wagons
Keeping their lips tight
And their eyes sharp
Because there are Indians
Lurking behind every rock
Bandits and thieves
Waiting in the hills
Snakes
Scorpions
Buffalo
Guns
Disease
Separation
Heartache
­ Might surprise them at any moment
Might make them victims and this moment their last
The settler’s hearts are racing
At 120 beats per minute
Pounding out a rhythm
Unlike anything they’ve ever known
Their hands are working at nothing
In the thin dry air
Twirling, twisting, pirouetting frantically
Their jaws are clenching tightly
Spasming, biting, drawing blood from their tongues
Their eyes are wide, unblinking, terrified
Seeing it all as it really is,
Really should be
And secretly, perhaps subconsciously,
Unrealizing,
They hope life will always feel this alive
But then,
In a few weeks
When they’ve made it to the city
To the town
To the shelter and comfort of ease
Civilization opens up her greedy maw
Swallows them whole
And licks her ****** fingers clean
So as not to stain her tidy white frock
And the settlers do nothing
Complacently allowing themselves to be digested
But they are thinking
“This is what I wanted?”
The voices in their heads have reached fever pitch, disgusted, screaming,
“This is what I wanted??”
And still they do nothing
Mar 2012 · 753
Seven Times
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Every night I have dreams
Of storms
Savage
And ravaging
Everything I love
Tornadoes carrying off my mother
Baby bobbing in the floodwaters
Dad
Under the logs of the house
Calling out to me
And I’m searching frantically
Eyes on the sky
All the time tasting the salt
Of the rain
The sting
Of the cuts in my lips
But there is no lightning
In the storms in my mind
Did I ever tell you I got struck by lightning
Seven times?
Once
On the couch at your parents house
The first time
I felt your heart beat
Next to mine
Twice
Fogging up the windows
On a December night
My tears on your shoulder
Your kiss on my forehead
The third time
So far from home
Wrapped in your jacket
Smelling you on my skin
As I fell asleep that night
Four
We were saying goodbye
Without saying anything
And two hours away
I was thinking your name
Five and six
You pulled me out of mom’s car
Took the keys
Awake in the spare room
All night long
Braiding my hair
Feeling my collarbones
On New Year’s Eve
You brought me home
From St. Anthony’s
Like nothing was wrong
I was still beautiful in your eyes
So you carried me upstairs
Tucked me in
Whispered love
And it was only eleven
Central time
Then the seventh time I got struck by lightning
My heart stopped beating
I stopped breathing
I said “yes”
Imagining the day I’d say
“I do”
And designing my new tattoo
You looked into my eyes
Took my hand
And said “I’m going to take care of you”
“you don’t have to worry ever again”
But now old fears come flooding back
Love washed away like debris
In the scenes from my dreams
I’m looking for lightning
And getting soaked
On my porch in North Carolina
Knowing I’ll dream of storms
Again tonight
Praying I’ll feel a little jolt
From the dark beside me
The voltage running through my skin
Is the same as yours
500 miles away
Asleep in Missouri
Mar 2012 · 2.0k
Summer Running
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I love you like peanut butter
Protein makes me strong
I don’t know how to get along
With anyone else
Mar 2012 · 658
Beating a Dead Horse
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
He stood there
Howling
Yowling
       Cracking his whip
Beating and flailing
His horse in the dust
Collecting flies
Bloating in the sun
And he was getting nowhere fast
Mar 2012 · 537
Three
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
I don’t want to be lying
Alone in your arms
I don’t want to be telling the truth
With your calluses speaking to my belly
And your words getting lost in my ear
Did you feel it kick?
Did you?
Did you feel it?
I didn’t feel a thing
I am not unhappy
I am happy
I am not unhappy
I’m uncertain
Of what’s beating in my belly
Did you feel it kick?
I didn’t feel a thing
Will you make me an honest woman?
Will you do the math?
1+1+1
Is three
I’m so afraid
That’s what we’re going to be
I can’t be your wife
I’m so sorry I’m a liar
I love truth
As much as you
I loved the lie inside me
I loved the words you spoke
To the not ears
In my belly
And your shape
Filling the not space
Beside me
And your blood
And my blood
Telling stories inside me
Saying not not not
I am not happy
I am unhappy
I am not happy
I’m uncertain
Of what we do now
I didn’t want to be lying
Alone in your arms
But I wasn’t telling the truth
Mar 2012 · 1.8k
Mason Jars
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
When you made preserves our house
Didn’t seem so haunted
Our kitchen seemed bright and inviting
Instead of white and sterile
The window above the sink seemed so far away
And the curtain above that
Even farther
They were
Peach
Turquoise
Brown
And they made me dream of Indians in their teepees
Lonely desert nights
Though I had never been there
Arizona
New Mexico
California
Colorado
I had never been to those places
Those were your places
That was where you fell in love
Dad told me
And the pictures in the laundry room told me
I always went in there to look
For a part of you I had never met
But sometimes when you were making preserves
You were that girl again
With a crazy mass of curls that you’ve never tied back
Cuz you hate your ears
After two kids, you were still skinny
And taller than I’ll ever be
And in the heat of the kitchen
Tiny drops of sweat beaded on your forehead
You’d roll up your sleeves
Tie your shirt at the waist
And laugh and play in the steam where you boiled the mason jars
Pretending you were at Yellowstone again
Watching Old Faithful erupt from the earth
Right on cue
Holding Dad’s hand
Back before he grew his beard
I tried to count your freckles while you were reminiscing
You’ve got a lot
A lot a lot
I thought you were the prettiest woman I had ever seen
As you turned those scalding mason jars upside down
And told me to wait till I heard them pop
You made it sound like it would be magical
Elusive
Like if I didn’t pay attention
I would miss it
And I did.
Everytime.
Cuz I was in the laundry room looking at pictures
Of someone I didn’t know
When a symphony of popping would ensue
From the kitchen
And I’d come running
But I missed the mason jars rattling
And shaking as they played their tune
Raspberry preserves in c minor
I missed the butcher’s block by an inch as I slid on the linoleum
And nearly knocked over the coyote cookie jar
I missed my chalkboard easel
By the Grace of God
My earliest masterpieces remained intact
But I did not miss your face
Or the grin that lingered
When the popping ceased
About my mom, about childhood
Mar 2012 · 2.6k
The Trampoline
Holly Salvatore Mar 2012
Tonight we’re aligned with the stars
I’m wearing Orion’s belt
You’re drinking in thirsty gulps from the big dipper
The little one’s in freckles on your chest
And now I can hear the wind chimes
On the porch
I can hear the leaves
Of the Bradford Pear
I can hear the cats and dogs and coyotes and deer and owls
Making nighttime noises
I can hear mom snoring in the house
For one of the last times
I can hear the trampoline springs creaking with age
And feel it bouncing and swaying under us
Like it did in its heyday
I can hear you sniffling, sister,
I can hear you crying
Your warm wet tears
Are drowning my ears
Like all those summers we did swim team
When I take your hand
It’s smaller than I remember
It’s Abby circa ‘99
Though you didn’t let me hold it then
And I never tried
Now our hair is curling in swirling halos
Around the same face
Mom’s face
We never did look like Dad
Now we’re gazing at the same stars
Under the same March sky
Thinking, saying, “God is good”
Saying, believing, “How can He not be?
When the sky looks like this”
Believing, knowing, that it’s true
Even while our hearts are rocks,
Our hands are clay,
Our minds are swarming
Teeming
Buzzing
Hives
But “God is good”
“How can He not be?
When the sky looks like this”
When our mother is a fish
How can He not be?
We know:
“God is good.”
While we’re reading the Braille of the sky
Two foxes slink by
Now we dismount the trampoline and go inside
Where we hear Mom snoring
For one of the last times
For my sister

— The End —