I don't remember, any more,
The exact shape of your hands
As I held them in mine,
Caressed them,
Memorized the length of your fingers,
The depth of your calluses.

I don't remember, any more,
Exactly your height, how much
Taller than me
You were, where
My head rested on your chest
When you held me tightly close.

I don't remember, any more,
Your scent, when we lay together
Creating our own
Magic rhythm,
Matching our heartbeats as we
Touched the sky, together.

I don't remember, any more,
The sound of your voice, calling
My name as though
It were a song
Within itself, a precious treasure
You valued with all your being.

And I don't remember, any more,
The color of your eyes, the shape
Of your lips,
Only...
How your eyes crinkled at the corners
And your laugh, as you told me,

"I love you."

One eye staring at me,
       The other eye staring into space.
Half a mind on my words,
       The other half on groceries,
                                 life,
                          bills.
And I'm dying on the inside,
         Because I forgot why I should care
That his attention
                                  is Elsewhere.

I sat there waiting
    I sat waiting
Trying to look at you
    But your head was down.
Just the way mine was when you
    Raised my jaw and kissed me.

I asked you what happened
    but you gave me no reply
You refused to discuss the topic.

You get one life
               only one
make the ******* best of it
   All you need is to be happy.

Do you know how much you are hurting me?

   I put on a mask
      I built up the walls
I pretended I don't care about you anymore.
   I pretended you didn't rip my bedraggled
heart and leave it in a ditch.
   I pretended you didn't push me farther
into the depths of this river.

Why won't you tell me what I did?
  Please...
I'm sorry about this.

I will leave now.

Waiting…
Waiting…
Waiting…
How could you?

Trust is lost
Faith is lost
I stayed

Ended for us
Not by us

Best decision I couldn’t make

I was free

you were too

Until
     we both...


                became one.