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holls Apr 2015

I didn't realize the ghosts of where
your lips once hugged my neck,
would leave me cold and breathless.

I didn't realize I'd find my brain
cluttered with memories of you;
daydreams turned into nightmares.

I never considered the butterflies;
the ones I once found exhilarating
until I met you.

And it's in these lonely nights,
that my tears replace
where your head used to rest.

(Would love advice for improving this, it's a work in progress)

holls Jan 2015

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i gave you all i ever was,
but it was i who couldn't see
relationships are meant for those
who bloom petals of love.
how could i be so foolish
to mistake these lacerations
on my feeble fingers;
a constant reminder of the fights
that saw both the moon and sun-
as dazzling leaves bleeding visions
of euphoria?

it was i who mistook his grin
for the sunshine my soul lacked.
where my ignorance sang of love
his serrated tongue whispered of clouds
and rainy days;
my garden of thoughts
wilting with every word
that took my spirit away.

*How could I be so foolish?

holls Jan 2015

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the clock struck twelve
and i dreamt of your lips
as i downed another lonely shot
aftertaste of last year's memories
filled with our future adventures
but it was then i opened my eyes
and realized it was just the alcohol and i

holls Nov 2014

Stuck

I strayed away from razors,
threw away my blade,
In the hopes of seeing better days.
However once I met him,
I couldn't help but grin,
As it was like all my problems drifted away.

It was then I felt the love;
the butterflies lifting me to the clouds above,
And in those moments I knew he felt it too.
As our kind of love was a flame,
spreading everywhere, to everything-it couldn't be tamed.
And the heat began with 'I love you'

But our fire lost its spark,
our light went out and I was left in the dark,
and now it's like we never did begin.
Though he is now my mystery
to solve, sometimes I wish
he'd never told me he loved me
Cause I don't know if I can handle the
**Heat.

May edit some things out of this.. Trying to get back into writing again, it's been too long.

holls Mar 2014

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You think I don't notice
every little thing you say or do.
Like the way you move away
everytime I go near you.

You think I don't notice
The way you look at me.
Like I'm a piece of trash.
Disgusting

You think I don't notice
When you're with your friends.
The way you all seem to giggle
When I walk 'round the bend.

After all this time
I didn't think
You still wouldn't notice
The scars you buried in my skin.

holls Feb 2014

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Surrounded by smiles
She couldn't return

She painted until
The crimson streaks burned.

Staring at the canvas
Buried deep within her skin,

She wondered
Where her "friends" had been.

They don't see
The pain

That's coursing
Through her veins.

Drowning in
A sea full of people

How come
She still feels

Alone?

Will most likely edit this a little bit.

Needed to vent somewhere.

holls Dec 2013

The Lake

Take me away
Far away so I can
Scream
Away the pain
The hatred
This feeling I can't seem to shake

Take me away
Far away so I can be
Happy
Just for a day

Take me to our special place
Where you will always find me
Take me to the lake

The lake
My escape
From these
Problems
tearing me down

Take me away
So far away
Take me to our lake
So I can
**Scream.

Having a rough time lately...