how do you ask someone
to ask you
to stay?

i told you congrats and good luck today
you said thanks
gave me a song title
and said thanks again
and that was that was that was that
was that?
was it what it should have been
when all i wanted to do
was ask how you were
and how you are
and how you will be
and listen to you talk
for hours
about everything and
nothing at all
like we you used to
but instead i'm stuck
with this ****** song
which is only ******
because it isn't mine
*just like you

his name left my lips
too many times to count last night
and it was embarrassing
not because everyone heard me
but because everyone thinks
i want him
when all i'll ever want
is you

wanting you is like
wanting a celebrity
but there are only 200 kids in this school
more boys than girls
so how is it that i've faded
into your fan base so easily

am i really that
unremarkable

sometimes i write lies
but mostly i write about you
and sometimes
i don't know the difference

i still listen to every song you
introduced me to and lately
i haven't been quite so sad
when i do.

why do all my ghosts
of boyfriends' past
insist on talking
crushes
with me

i don't want to imagine either of us
with anyone but
each other