I came here to express myself,
Hoping this would give me a better idea of myself.
But no one likes
What's not already liked.
...hypocrites.
And my creativity has been
Spiraling downward ever since the day I found love.
And love didn't give me that much
In return.
It's leaving me. This sad sad attempt at art.
I can't even phrase things
Interestingly anymore.
I'm dying.
Because my heart is broken.

This life, this life,
This sick, one-sided knife...
You either cut yourself,
Or those around you.
Despite the fact,
You may not mean to.

Just is the way it goes.

I may not have faith in me
anymore,
But I have faith in God.
So go home now,
Thank your god
for the life you have.
Live for the future,
And not the past.
Live for only
The things that last.
Your long term happiness,
Not the short.
Though in this life,
The weary resort
To empty things,
Up we can go.
Let us rise.

Get up now.
Get up.

The weather's getting
warmer again.
And everything's as
it should have been.
The bees are wandering
Around my head
My heart's alive
My hope's not dead.
The mumbling of voices
Inside this store
Don't make me feel
Alone anymore.
Love songs warbling
On radios,
Come to my ears,
And out it goes...
But it's just me.
And no one knows,
The burden escaped.
Life water flows.

I'm bored.
You're boring.
Fake words.
Fake smile.
The pipe.
Is filling.
You're real.
You're true.
You talk
With meaning
You mean it.
Finally.
I like that
Your innocence,
Of course, until,
I come down.
You fall to
The cold ground.

Ugh.

I think back on my childhood.
Everything is falling.
Nothing is the same.
Every day I picture my childhood
In the air and light of morning.
It wasn't until things fell
That my life turned to night.
Memories of now
will be enshrouded
In darkness.
And I want this to change.

Someone
like
me,
Could never be with
Someone
like
you.
And you could never be
Someone
like
him,
And I could never love
Again.
And you could never be
The one.
The past can never be
Redone.
And I am too strong
A woman
And you are too weak
A man
And he was too cold
A heart
I chose to break
Apart
Just to live beside
My sanity,
inside of my own
Vanity.
And it's all over now
I've told you much
And we've been done...
Since the moment
We'd begun.

It plagues my memory,
As I try to fall.  
It holds me in suspense.
It makes
Absolutely
No
****
Sense.
Let it go.
Let it go.