I crave the feeling
Of being numb

So I wouldn't have to sit here
At 8:52 at night
Wishing I were gone

Wishing I could go away
Or go home

Because I can't handle
This sadness
That never,
And I mean never,
Goes away

I promise you
I'm trying to battle through it

But when I can't
Think of a reason
Why I should stay

I think of all the reasons why I
Shouldn't

-e.w.

its the middle of the night in the morning
you're filling too much space in my brain
the mild sunlight wakes me
i realize that i'm on a raft
floating on the sea
the memories come rushing back
its too much

it would be a
privilege
to drown
with you.

i wish my hands didn't shake
every time you say my name,
but i am only
human