Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
hello Jan 2016
This is the first day in a while
That I have not had the haze
Clouds fill my mouth
Scents stain my fingertips
I don't want to be sober
hello Dec 2016
I have not felt guilt yet
I have not had a second thought
I have no bad feelings about what
I had done
When will it hit me?
hello Oct 2013
New things flourish everyday
And I'm so happy
That I'm not waiting;
Wasting all my time
On you.
hello Sep 2013
I don't understand why I miss you so much when the majority of your actions towards me were hurtful
hello Sep 2013
Seize my omniscient thoughts
See what makes my
Blood turn cold
And The Willow
In my happiness.
I'll focus on the wind
Caressing your
Face and
Chapped lips;
Even in summer.
Mind continuing to
Create movies
Of our lips saying
hello
While our eyes are wide
And brains are buzzing
With thoughts
But not of the future;
Setting ahead
Always seems
To go wrong
And predictions
Turn into
Disappointments

I want you
To take this
As personally
As I
Do.
hello May 2013
You're as underrated as a ****
People see you as something
To pick out the ground
And toss over their shoulders
Like its nothing
You're considered ugly
A bother
But in reality these people
Aren't actually looking at you
They aren't observing you
Taking in all your fragile
Features
The way your tiny petals
Stretch towards the sun
The way your stem carries
You so effortlessly
When you dance in summer wind
I wish to be a ****
Like you
hello Mar 2014
eventually something turns us
in a certain direction
eventually someone comes
and divides our attention
we are not attentive
we are not paying any mind
to the rule board
we are diving in shallow water
and when our brains spill
wonder why we got this way
what made me this way
who made me this way
when did i become
this
this blood is my fault
i had a choice
and i choose that road
that person
and a hospital setting
shows up and knocks
sense back into you
it never left though
you are not harmless
inflicting those thoughts
but there is masking tape
and staples right over there
anything you might need
to stick it back together
you havent known asthma
until the ring is on her finger
instead of yours
you were never diagnosed anyways
you are not the avalanche
but the innocent tree
just standing there
and the stupid squirl
that always runs into traffic
that is you
that is me
learn to be wise
learn to meditate
on your own
learn to learn
and learn to live
because i have failed many tests
but the semester is continuing
dont drop out
please.
You
hello Jun 2013
You
Calling you every night just to hear that familiar melody has been etched into my persona and talking about you non stop has been sewed into my taste buds and I think they like they way your name rolls off my tongue time after time.
Hearing similar words that you said to me automatically trigger some beautiful daze and I remember how you said that I meant everything. The sun beating down on me, hearing a car **** by, listening to a strangers laugh, everything and anything beautiful reminds me of you and its starting to make it hard to live when the only air I breathe is you and the only thing I see is you. Waiting for forever (even though this time period I call forever may only be a few hours) just to touch you makes me insane to the point where someone should admit me to the closest hospital because I may have some type of heart failure in the next few seconds and of course I'm exaggerating but the love I feel for you is so over the top and is so overwhelming but in a good way.
So please hold my hand permanently don't ever let me go and don't ever let me think of you as anything other than amazing and please don't ever hurt me because then I'll die and you already have a big chunk of my heart laying restlessly on your pillow.
hello Apr 2013
You're so full of ****
You spoke so many
Words that meant
****
You never cared
You just ****** me
You never knew how much
I cared for you
It's funny how I thought you
Were comforting
When you're the one who
Made me uncomfortable
In the first place
I hate myself for believe
All the ****
That poured out your mouth
I hate myself for
Falling for your lies
Falling for the way
Your lips touched
Mine
I can't believe
Seeing you now
Sets off all those memories
All those horrible
Lies
All those horrible days
All you did was decieve
Me
Your soul was not any color
Not even black
Or white
It was just blank
A rocky surface
I asked you
"Do you really love me?"
You said
"Of course"
You didn't look me
In the eyes
You looked at my body
While you nodded
Of course I love you
Of course
Of course
You always said that
Never yes
Or duh I love you
Just of course
A broken record
Now I see
How miserable
You made me
I see how miserable
You were in that
Relationship
I don't understand
Why you didn't leave me
I don't understand
Why you pretended
To love me
I don't understand
Why you didn't
Just say no
When I asked you out
On that date
I guess I will never
Understand you
I won't ever comprehend
Why you do the things
You do
hello Oct 2013
A size zero

Is all I'll ever let myself be
Funny how much
A number defines my personality

Zero hope
Zero life
Zero want
Zero zero zero zero

Tiny waist
More like I'm wasting away

Wrist bones are prominent and cold

All I want to see is
My collarbones

And my brain likes to argue
With itself

you better eat or you'll go back to hell

I guess I haven't comprehended my surroundings
Because I'm already here

Heaven is a tiny hole on the roof of my hell
Light shines through rarely

She inhabits me
I am gone


The wind doesn't even miss me
hello Oct 2013
I straddled him and he told me
How light I felt
Zero zero zero zero

— The End —