hello

hello Jun 2013

Livingbreathing is easier without you
Because you used to suffocate me
But it's funny
I thought I would die without you
Now I know this isn't true
May never be true
Till I find that "someone"
I'm not looking
I am looking for myself though

hello Jun 2013

Untitled

I feel like listening to sad songs and jumping out of windows from 20 million floor high buildings hoping to land on my ******* head to shake those memories out but not jump to die even though I will. But I know in a few hours i'll laugh or smile and i'll feel fine again and I will take back what I said about dying and I will say I'm happy and I want to live but deep down I seriously don't want to anymore.

hello Jun 2013

Ending

Now I'm just more angry then I ever thought I could be at you because when you exploded I stayed calm and when you doubted I reassured and when you were feeling down I was there to pick you up or at least try and listen. I've realized our whole relationship was just a really bad run-on sentence and I've realized you're the one who chose to put in the semicolon and I decided to put the comma and later on the period.

hello Jun 2013

Labor lobby

The 3 am foggy hospital scents got to know me better than you ever did
The uncomfortable disinfected couches
made me feel more at home
then you ever did
and the floor caught me better
than your arms

hello Jun 2013

Sure

The fuel you used to pulse in
My veins
Has left and I've gone super cold
Like a snake you slithered out
Just as quickly as you slithered in
You took my thoughts
Threw them out the window
Hoping someday I would bury them
And love you
Suspiciously you're feelings
Have changed from loving me
To not being sure
You were glad when I walked away
You asked to still be friends
When I looked back for a much
Longer time than I hoped to
So don't come back with those
Brown eyes that used to represent
My clear skies
And don't come back with that
**** smile
Getting me hooked all over again
You ripped my wings and made me
Convince myself that I truly
Loved you
I have no idea if you truly loved me
Or just wanted to **** me
Until you fell so fast you were
Unsure of the time but so sure
Of me

hello Jun 2013

House face

You're a house with white walls with the occasional black marks and a few paintings made by a kid. Your garden is almost dead but the biggest tree in your yard is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen yet you don't notice it as much. You are long and quite big when no one is around and when someone is in you all alone they feel this emptiness and they can sense what you're lacking yet they don't say anything because they don't want to hurt your feelings. Your roof is in great shape and the deck outside should be stained to a darker shade of wood according to you but you don't notice the three pink flowers leading up to your door as much. The lightbulbs outside have burned out years ago so you put on this face that makes you look alive but on the inside you're still white walls and stained carpets and slamming doors.

hello Jun 2013

message

read me like your favorite book
wander me like i'm your favorite place
let me know that i captivate you
and that you don't want to blink
because you might miss something