Squirming your way from me
I blink and feel empty
Slithering down my face
Until I taste you on my teeth.

Salty and rather warm
You make my couch wet
Where i lay and quiver
And shiver with sweat

A cold sweat and a chill down my spine
His eyes look away from mine
And i feel the crack of my heart
That, thats what tore me apart

You lay in the room and im here
On this couch, feeling far
Far away off in the land of lonely
If only you would come to me, if only

I could see what i have done wrong
Writing this poem thats too long
And rhyming like a middle school girl
Whos world has been crushed
By a crush

But this doesnt feel petty
i feel rather strange
In a way
Being in love
Breaks your heart

You are no Alice, stupid girl
There is no white rabbit
These are your dreams
All is not what it seems
On a ***** bus to somewhere
A drug trip to nowhere
When does it stop
Does one line of coke make you drop?
Where do you get off
At the very last stop?
If all the world is a mind
And your trip is to find
That one corner that is you
I suggest you go find you
Yellow teeth blanket white skin
Push pull yank and dig in
He hands you your money
You walk sweet like honey
And this is your life.

Sinking and sinking
I question my dreaming
The constellations swallow me
Suddenly I am nothing, everything
Everyone relies on me
My fingers pinch the sun
Drag it to the one
I bring the dawn
Yet thrive in the night

Falling and falling
I ponder my longing
To fall from the sky
From so mighty high
Wonder when I hit the ground
If it will make a sound?
All I feel is emptiness
All I feel is desolate
Arms out to catch myself
Lingering on your last breath
All I feel is worthless
All I feel is emptiness

Crashing and crashing
I embrace the fall
I kiss the ground with my body
and  wait for my soul
Will it  evacuate the emptiness?
Does it even exist?

Soaring and soaring
My mind is
And it lingers
On every moment I hated you
Can't nobody hate you like I do
I hope you feel guilty
As my world is closing in
Yet the commotion around me isn't sinking in
I can hear the whispers
Calling in the night
Tempting me to do
What I think I might

Breathe and breathe
I attempt to, but do not strive to
Death is not my fear
That would be you being near
Don't touch me
Someone does, checks for pulse
But I am already flying
I shoot into the sky, back up, arms out
Im crying out
Reaching, grasping, failing
To touch the body I once inhabited
I know I was not meant to be
So why do I feel sadly?

The hearts content
I say that dont please her
Happiness is on her face
As the man greets her
His voice is just dance, just colors
On an empty canvas
A bit of something inside
A little of me, a little of her
I am the demon
The soul whisperer
The one who tells her to do it

Dancing and dancing
My demon whispers to him but I still move
Who is in control?
Who holds the ropes?
I dont think I can save myself
I'm drowning here please
Somebody help?

Digging and digging
My demon knows it all
Her silky, snaky voice surrounds everything
I am suffocating
Although I am already dead
I shall live forever with her in my head

There is no hiding how I feel
A way to mask what isn't real

My perfection, your demise
What we are, isn't wise

If we fall, down this *****
I'll force myself, not to choke

Fear and anxiety, rushing through me
Tempting my morphed reality

I swear that I'm fine,
You think that I'm worth it

****, I wish you could see
What lies behind is a monstrosity

I'm psychotic, I feel it
I'm demonic, I dream it

Help me, help me, help me
I wished for no feelings
No feelings at all

Help me, help, help me,
help us all