and so It comes
crawling back
on hands and knees
begging
pleading
to be forgiven.

It wants you back.

You falter
your judgement slips
you welcome It in.

It's cold hands wrap You
rotten breath fills You.

You and It--
become
one.

depressed, once more

Pressure.
                            stumbling deeper, trembling
                                  sprawling, toppling.
                                 a clumsy kind of pain

                                              Down.

      ­                             warm golden pools,
                        searing as they drip, drip, drip.

                                            Down.

       ­                              trapped between
                           the confines of a Memory
                                   tight little space
                                     don’t go in it,
                                        no escape.

                                         Down.

                                        my skin,
                                        my heart,
                                       my lungs.
                             carved and branded.
                                      red, raw
                                  push deeper

                                      Down.

            ­            constricting of my chest,
                       rapid rising of my breast.
                             everything’s hazy.
                                    confusing.
            ­                          its bliss.

                                     Down.

                        protected, hidden now.
            a simple price to pay, a silly little trick
                                      forget.

            ­                       Down
                                                 Down
                                                            ­   Down.