I liked that you understood
While the rain was hammering down
And we were on my bike
How everything always hurt
Even though you never said anything about it.

My shadows would sneak up on me
and in the morning you would find me
down some alleyway sleeping
rubbing my eyes awake when you came up
and smiling anyway.

I liked the way we used to
Spend the afternoons on the block
Eating ice-creams and kicking sidewalks
Before you would go on home and I would
Wander the streets until everything felt right.

Maybe the purple sky should have said
It's time for you to go
Nine times over I think to myself
Yeah, that's right
You really should go.

And so you did, you went
Masking all your fears and apprehension
And I was left there, on the dock that day
When you left on the ship to heaven
Never to return,

But then again
Where would you be now if you hadn't gone?
On my bike, in the rain again
Or down that alleyway sleeping with me
In the snow.

All my things fall away like the loose satin of a slip
Endless in its descent and completely free of conviction

Mindless in its priorities and forgiving of the moonlight
Sleepy in the silence of the twilight of the night

Who gives the prayer to the dark of the day
Who tells of the travellers that come sneaking up my way
Who takes the shame, burns away my sight
How in the endeavour of the endless I will fight

Diamonds in the rough I take with me in my wound
Glossing over the sunny sands of the eternal dunes
Cry to the ravens, cry and cry me over
Speed in the tightest spaces of the greed of cover

Sap me in the daylight and perhaps one day it will
Crawl me in the yonder life and keep me ever still
Race me and chase me, dire in all my needs
Frightened and silenced from all that I may see

Grip my heightened perception undulating in the springs
Amass me the corporations and the grit of insomniac swings
Trite in the hive groans, implicit in their destruction
Give me all the room to take in these emotions

Flat and back, flatten the back,
Tie in the seashores and pull in the ocean
Fight for the sunrise and take in the sky
I need nothing more than to see that winding light.

Pocket for my faith
I miss you in the drizzling of the rain
The path through the paddy fields
Our continental shame

It never occurs to us
While we spend our time walking
Through the streets of dull colour
How much the world sees us
Like twins of a solar system
Endearing but distant

Assistant to my city
A cry for help in denial
We hold our hands and smile
Children twisting up the spiral

Palette for my eyesight
I think of you in the clouds of the world
Painting the silence of the ages
Choosing everything simple

The iron-crusted walls
And the solitary diamonds
Watch us like laughing soldiers
As we walk the hallways of the future
Taking circles round and round
Without inhibition

Clinking glasses of timeless deeds
We hear chats through centuries
I stab the heralds of effervescent chimes
Whenever the dust settles

Palace of my innocence
I kiss you in the ebbing of memories
Say words to soothe both ends
And sit to write our stories.

Chatter, as I watch the snowdrops falling
It blends in from the street, the pavement, the everything but me
and the lonelier soles who walk their own ways in the path
Taking their own hands against the cold.

Distances there into and always with the twilight
Strings and biscuits in the dawn of the twice
Winds pass and monsoons sweep through
Often I watch them in the memories of you.

Cross the sidewalks, mirrors, delights
Christmas parties and silent enchantments
Invisible but dwelling in the darkness of the stars
So humbling in all the georgian opacity

I yearn for the lights of the morning essence
Dream of the warmth in the hearth of men
Assuming in vain the welcome of all night blankets
And grieve in the vacancy of the traveller's awe.

Who takes the broom of the closets past
Who walks the dawn and evening stars
Who fawns over the reflection of the moon
Who tells of my works in their brilliant cocoon?

The sun rose in all its splendour
It dyed the screen of water blue
Sprayed through the jets of desire
And painted the crests and troughs of you

The cherry blossoms burst and bloomed
In the spring of the dawned sky
Luck was on its side as the shepherds
Herded their flocks back to the eye

Mountains of green changed and morphed
In the diamonds of dreary existence
Grieving for the ever crushed ancestry
And the rapidly changing seasons

They walked on home though I stayed
In the dark looking for your silhouette
Patiently wondering when you would turn
And while I was waiting, the sun set.

Rake in the leaves
Sweep out the memories
Exhale out the dust
Take in the reveries

I love the swaying of the trees
In my summer sunshine
The gusts of winter courting the scent of lime.

Acres of yellow
Flocks of the white
Greeting yards of children all in plain sight.

Wonders of the ocean
Salt and water and sky
Blueish like the reflection of the clouds in your eye.

Rise of the light
In the glory of the gods
Singing in the full expanse of the prairies of love.

Empirical quests
In the burst of the works
Inhaling in the gorgeous yuletide of the earth.

Time in the nothing
Worries of the trite
Enbosom me in the absence of the darkness of the night.

I used to always wait
In the dusk of the day when the fireflies were awake
Watching the last rays of the sun streak out on the sky
Thinking that she would come home again
And then walking away whenever night fell and
I was too tired to make sense of anything.

In the many times when I stood on the grass
Thinking of the many things that we would have done
It was a smile I held on my face, believing earnestly
That someday we would do all those things all together
In the warmth of each others' shadows.

Time tears the soul into parts
The drudgery of the days that I spent
Sealing away the parts of the world that I didn't want to see
Because I was a coward, still am
Taking the essence for granted.

When night fell there would be a silence
Veiled by the darkness of the evening stars
And I would lie on the ground and look at the sky
In the wake of a series of tear drops, moving
Wondering what would come to me.

So easily were the days torn away
Now it's rain after rain and the snow in the sullen earth
Pulling the strings, spring and summer and winter
The autumn light failing to shine any path
As I throw the leaves away with my feet.

She would always tell me, sometimes
That it would've been wiser to just walk away
And I know that it was the right choice, but the bad choice
So I stayed and stuck it out even through all the times
Chilling my bones and giving me frost bites
But letting me grit my teeth and bear it.

Life wastes away like that, and yet
Somehow it feels as though I have lived through a lot
The pain that grinds, the emotion and the helplessness
How time and people prepare you for that
Innocuously toying with you and saying
That everything would be okay.

I am able now, to close my eyes
Dream of the day when footsteps will sound behind me
I will turn, and after all the reveries and empty waiting
Find that someone else was waiting for me instead.