Don't close your eyes to tomorrow
live every day and remember me
don't hold your head in sorrow
smile as I am not forgotten
wake every day as I cannot
and make it count
smile that I was here
don't waste a tear
I'm not here
but memories are
make some new ones
live with me in your heart
find strength and go on

Our Bridge.


Into darkness once again but now it's different 

Because I've learnt to fall a little way

See a little of what went before but never be dragged with in its claw

As now a bridge I see is there it's wobbly yes but still secure

It's made of rope, it swings and rocks 

Even if  I let go it holds me firm

So I can see what lies beneath 

But never again will I fall so deep

For now I choose if I let go 

You see I built a bridge I know

I'm still aware of the void beneath, the loss , the pain, the endless sleep, the fear

But now i can choose to look I can choose to see or even feel

But never again can I fall in

You see

 as I built a bridge for my child within

She cannot live in fear now 

She has my love tied in its secure enough to hold us both 

Entwined together our bridge

Is love

Yes the void is deep and dark 

But the fear has gone now the bridge is there it's so strong it can not break 

You see its made from strength I found one day 

It was buried inside too scared to try to scared to climb

But as an adult I entwined it with love it grew

Now my child has the strength to climb 

She is with me now safe and dry 

She does not need to hide or cry or remember the fear

She only has to walk along side me holding my hand ever so tightly 

The love I have for her is the bridge that can never break it's strong and yet it can swing so we still get to have childish fun 

it has beautiful flowers it has strong arms it can lift us up so high 

It's our bridge so high above 

Above the fall 

The past is left the pain has gone

The fear is dropped into the void as its to heavy for our bridge 

but the happy memories fly with us above 

All we have to do is walk along our bridge.

Yes this time it's different I can only look over and down but I cannot fall now as fear has gone and our love is one me and my little girl 

Our bridge

By Fallen Angel 

19th February 2016

The fear of letting go
I know it's fear of the unknown
Seeing if I walk alone
Although you gone
In steps I move
I'm afraid I have to choose
Be be alone again I dread
No one there to hold the thread
So afraid I'll fall again
I'm falling now and it not yet dead
Added to the the endless sleep
Scared of what may lie beneath
I know it's fear that holds me back
There's no way out
And no way back
What happens when the curtain falls
No one to find no one to call
I'm so afraid to be alone
I'm so afraid to be alone
X

I try so hard to understand the pictures in my mind
I try so very hard to see what I once left behind
I walk the line in narrow streets
Heavy walls close in on me
I try so hard to do things right
To live a day to sleep a night
My bodies tired my mind is fast
Full of scared an angry past
Full of pain and dread and fear
Wanting to get out of here
I don't know how to make it stop
The feelings of fear the churning knots
the deepest cut inside my soul the angry words
the masks at windows starring in
The sound of footprints closing in
The fear of being dragged within
The fear this time of giving in
Of standing there letting it in
No longer able to fight the din
Clawing at the bridge of rope another door another room
Another evil to consume
Another evil to endure
Same sounds of shadows pass
Same feel of cold and draft
Then the smell like tar pitch black like cariasote you paint a fence
Then darkness and silence your only friend
You wake your body bones an skin crawling flesh that burns within
You shake like snow has fallen hard
So cold so tired and leg bones pull and twist so sharp
My jaw it aches my ears too ringing silence rips you through
Storms over but no escape
Nightmares gone but you never wake
Instead beneath the ice you swim
Always silent closed within
afraid to speak to let it in
Just swim and swim don't scream  don't ever ever let it in

I sat today i watched your way
Some so cold hurried away
A man asking for a pound
To buy his food or ride again
Men in smart clothes to work they dash
No time to sit or eat a snack
Ladies smiling others lurk
Little children looking up
Seeing adults mess it up
Beggars forraging for **** ends find what kind of life they walk behind
Street so full of every kind
Different spoken words so true
Arguments between a few
Lads in crowds having fun
Girls giggling while they run
A man stealing goods from shop
Running from the alarms no stops
People queing for the bus
Dropping paper cleaning mops
Police men walking taxi fares
People meeting others stares
Mindful people walking slow taking in the citys glow
Sad and lonely souls i see looking lost and cold not free
People of all nature here
One race called human kind
All together in my window
Free
Unaware of the picture i see
Old young short tall
Dark light strong small
A city full of people all
Full of love i see them all
Just a moment i sat today
Yet a life time of people i saw walk by
Amazing city now train i take
Back home to a lane a country gate
Total silence falls the night
From country to city a different life
I saw the poverty i saw the poetry
I saw the street painter
The flute being played
The rich the poor the lost the together
My day in the city
A moment to treasure

*** Fallen Angel ***


Into darkness once again but now it's different

Because I've learnt to fall a little way

See a little of what went before but never be dragged with in its claw

As now a bridge I see is there it's wobbly yes but still secure

It's made of rope, it swings and rocks

Even if  I let go it holds me firm

So I can see what lies beneath

But never again will I fall so deep

For now I choose if I let go

You see I built a bridge I know

I'm still aware of the void beneath, the loss , the pain, the endless sleep, the fear

But now i can choose to look I can choose to see or even feel

But never again can I fall in

You see

as I built a bridge for my child within

She cannot live in fear now

She has my love tied in its secure enough to hold us both

Entwined together our bridge

Is love

Yes the void is deep and dark

But the fear has gone now the bridge is there it's so strong it can not break

You see its made from strength I found one day

It was buried inside too scared to try to scared to climb

But as an adult I entwined it with love it grew

Now my child has the strength to climb

She is with me now safe and dry

She does not need to hide or cry or remember the fear

She only has to walk along side me holding my hand ever so tightly

The love I have for her is the bridge that can never break it's strong and yet it can swing so we still get to have childish fun

it has beautiful flowers it has strong arms it can lift us up so high

It's our bridge so high above

Above the fall

The past is left the pain has gone

The fear is dropped into the void as its to heavy for our bridge

but the happy memories fly with us above

All we have to do is walk along our bridge.

Yes this time it's different I can only look over and down but I cannot fall now as fear has gone and our love is one me and my little girl

Our bridge

By Fallen Angel

19th February 2016
*** Fallen Angel ***
Written by
*** Fallen Angel ***

If i could just be an angel just for one day
id take all the love I have to give and quickly fly away
id hide somewhere no one could find me
then when it was safe id pray
I would fly to a friend who loved me
and in their heart id stay
until at last id not be afraid
to do just what i say
to be able to love completely
without feeling guilty or ill
until the day I'm stronger
to run away to you
ill have to sit and wonder
what it would be like to be free
to be with you
Now 5 years have past and finally im yours at last
My love my life
Im free at last

How have you fallen from the heavens, my morning star, fallen angel of the dawn! How are you cut down to the ground, you who shone so bright

Hopes strand takes its turn
His deep eyes his gentle light
Opened windows to your soul
His loving smiles his gentle words
Helping small let go
Into waters crimson creep
Into shallows deep
Through the times erased creased
Holding on the till horrors cease
Helping forests undecide
Making room to fall behind
Scared shell tip the state or call
Still not sure of presence tall
Tries to speak but silence captures all

Please let me sleep.

Sometimes I lie awake at night
The shadows they creep in
I sometime close my eyes so tight
Don't want the darkness in
I'm so afraid to cry a tear
Scared to let you know
That deep inside my darkest fear
There's no where I can go
Some times I run just get away
The storm it closes in
So heavy on my chest it beats
The sound that hides within
I go into the darkest place so no one sees within
I cry so much of shame and scream so loud I can not hear
I need someone to hold me tight
To stop me running through the night
I'm afraid that if I'm left alone
I'll run into a burning light
I'm so afraid so deep the shame
I feel ill never breathe again
I feel so sick my stomach tight
Dear god please get me through the night
Just another 20 feet the feelings pass please let me sleep
Please let me sleep

Taken lost broken wings
No idea of sweetest things
Angry night in storms she fell
Straight into a frozen hell
Sreaming through thee mist the rain
Noone knows her fate
Spell untill the dream awakes
Still the lady of the lake
Open up another night
Only love can hold her fright
Still she sits on silent grass
Noone see her fading light
Echoed silence falls the night
Fall into a crimson light

Lady by the lake

She walks by waters misty blue

As dusk settles across the lake

She lights a latern to lead her there

To the other side her gentle stare

In lightest blue her dress of silk
Reflects the moon lit night

He's captivated by her dance

He waits for her though she is unaware

He calls her but he  she does not hear

He shows him self to her yet he she does not see

A spirit she awaits to set her free

He takes her hand but feels no warmth her side

Untill she feel secure she only hides

He holds her close and leads her to the shore

He kisses her neck so soft she breathes once more

From her silent reverie she now  awakes

She screams of fear and darkness from her night

But strong enough his love will hold her near

She twists and turns her spirit not yet free

But echoes of his beating heart breaks free

She allows him gift her body quivers see

But now real love and passion she can reveals

Not control but warmth and strength surround her

She finds herself excited by his warmth

For now she can be loved also protected and not scorned

And sails unfold as they begin to drift

A journey new way of love they make

Into a waters  sensual awakening

Of  love she wakes from silent reverie

Her body gently laid across his chest

Strokes her golden hair across her breast

She finally feels free of evils quest

In the morning the light through shadows play

He lies there as her slipsaway

Her spirits to the lake returns in her beauty

For only night can capture her solice still

she fades away to lakes side call

She glances up and catches his eyes they burn

she waits for the evening once more

But will not be free

FALLEN ANGEL

Lying under the surface of the wake
Toss and turn and horror  break
Grasping image minds mistake
Although you walk around and act
Doing all whats needed track
Looking through a clear blue mist
Forgotten days the closed kiss
Cannot wake from the drowning reverie
Only glipse your hope of being free

Named Elisabeth my angel child
My flower that didn't bloom
The stars took you before
I had the chance to hold you
Please forgive me i didn't know
I had no choice but let you go
My morning star
My misty blue
Cant say goodbye
I miss you

So now you see new sky above  
Sunshine yellow full of love
A smile between small clouds you've seen  
Soar above don't spiral down
Know you are loved you cannot drown
In between the words you speak
Tears like rivers flow some deep
Believe the love inside your strong
Just hold on tight you do belong
Beneath is now warm air its light
And dreams are much less of fear at night
Only push the shadows aside
Inside a child smiling waits
Dances for the open gates
Opens up the world outside
No more tied your sadness strings
Inside you found where love begins
Learn to fly your angels wings

Body alive cannot sleep
Fall now the danger deep
Feeling like i have no free
Just breath another twenty one
Playout another day you won
Just breathe get through the day
Night will pass your on the way
Just let go of yesterday
Just hold tight not hear them say
Breathe just let time feel the way

Shallow waters now apear
Faster tides flow over here
Grasping onto to any rocks
Trying hard to hide the knocks
Bring about a deeper dive
Into unknown water strive
Fade away in colours bright
Anthing to just get through the night
Now another yet untold
Start to dim the dark the cold

So warm his smile so calm his words
His loving smile it softly turns
into sweet a gentle flower
Tiny seconds build up the hour
Holding tight not letting go
I fall so fast into his arms
No fear now hes here im free

Its easy to say let go
To just be free to just let go
For years i tried to stop the pain
The cold the ice the frozen rain
I'm trying now but there's no use
It just grabs hold so hard to lose
I wish I knew what I could do
I just need someone to pull me through
I try to part but it just claws me back
My heart is screaming out the rain
I'm lying here in storm all grey
The doors are closing stairs they fade
Cant push the mist the storm breaks through
Crashing waves and heavy seas
Just hold my hand
Just let me breathe
I don't know where to turn this night
All the fear be still the fright
If I let go i know ill fall
Straight back to the hell
Straight back to the storm
A part of me so brave so true
Not afraid of dark or ill
Just hold on for another day
See what hope sends your way
Just dont give in
Just stay strong tall
Don't leave to fight
Where u before

So afraid to be alone to scared to leap the new unknown
Scared to stand to stand alone
Its always here when I'm alone
I'm so afraid I cannot tell
I'm living in this secret hell
I try to turn to fight the fear
But I'm afraid they're always near
I need a hand but Im alone
so cold in here so far from home
I wish for you to pull me out
make it go just get them out
Then I can walk in sun and rain
Never hide from shadows again
I cannot do it on my own
I tried so hard but I'm losing time
I'm so afraid I cannot swim
Its just no use he won't give in
He just wont leave he will not go
I'm not  allowed  to be free let go
I tried so hard this time I know
But it just gets stronger its twists
It claws at every inch of me
Until i stop reaching for me
I wish you could just set me free
Just take away the pain
Just take away the pain
Just cover me with sin or rain
So they no longer see me
So i can run away get away hide away
So they cant hurt me again

Come into our sea of hope

A little comfort to help you cope

If you think you cannot swim

We'll hold your hands and guide you in

No hate no pain no judgement here

Just helpful skill to calm your fear

And if you happen to shed a tear

To us your pain is crystal clear

You cannot drown in our sea of hope

We all reach out untill you float

Occasionally you may yourself capsize

And feel all troubled and lost inside

That is when yourll find our anchor

We will keep you grounded safe inside

Until you live and dont need to hide

After the silence always here at your side

So awaken let go learn to glide

Fallen Angel

Is it luck or is it just a game
For some lose health others gain
Some have no money to earn or to share
Yes they are rich they have family to share
To be troubled and ill is a terrible loss
Like freedom being taken
Like bombs being dropped
Poverty pain regret or fear
Everyone has their story their tear
Maybe the theif whos stealing the goods
Is trying to pay for a child whos lost
And the beggar you try to pretend isnt there
Cannot move away from the darkness he bares
And the preacher man who runs shouting may scare
But a lonely soul may be fearful in there
The street painter whos work you clearly adore
May be a wise man or a victim of war
So when you walk through the market square
Just take a moment to stand
be aware
That every person has value you see
They all have a purpose just like you and me

Poetry is a way of escaping from reality
Making words dance and come alive
A way of expressing deep coloured tapestry
Bringing it to life its creativety
Clearing the shadows of my mind
Opening new doors for me to find

Alone always but good to know
we are all the same or didn't you know
So if we are all alone at least we are in this together
So we are all together being alone

Why does my heart hurt
Why do i long for the love
The pain just burns inside
I want so much to be held to be loved
To feel deep passion to be loved
To be wanted
Im so alone so lost
I have to stop my heart before i fall once more
Before its too late to save myself again
My wings are not strong i cannot fly to my loves arms
I can only weep inside and long for something ill never have because im just too lost my wings too hurt to try

I cry alone the cuts so deep
I cannot rest i cannot sleep
I try so hard to break away
To stand so strong
But its like a wall is all around
My voice is screaming out with pain
Yet not a single sound is heard
It like im not even here at all
The colours in streams are reflecting the storm
I tried so hard to break away from dawn
Yet the stronger my light
The darker the sea
Don't understand
Why I cant be free
I get so far then bang the
Lightning strikes
The rocks i built up fall into the sea
The force of the waves
They crush inside me
Until I'm drowning in my own fear
Please take my hand
Get the hell out of here
This time its harder i cant walk away because
Its here where ill stay
I need to stay where i chose to be
Its the fear that should leave not me
As it doesnt matter where i swim its the fear inside that pulls me in
Fear that ill be left behind
Alone in the dark
Where no one will find
The door is locked there's no escape
I cannot breathe i cannot wake
God knows iv tried  for he was there
Yet no one came only evil once more
There's no one here no one came
No one pulled me out again
Just keep on swimming
One day ill find
A way out of this hell not left behind

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
You still held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find

Lady by the lake

She walks by waters misty blue

As dusk settles on the lake

She lights a lanten to lead her there

To the other side her gentle stare

In lightest blue her dress of silk

He's captivated by her dance

He waits for her though she is unaware

He calls her but she doesnt hear

He shows him self to her yet she does not see

A spirit she awaits to set her free

He takes her hand but feels no warmth her side

Untill she feel secure she only hides

He holds her close and leads her to the shore

He kisses her neck so soft an breathes once more

From her silent reverie she now can wake

She screams of fear and terror from her fright

But strong enough his love will hold her spree

She twists and turns her spirit not yet free

But echoes of his beeting heart break free

She allows him gift her body quivers see

But now real love and passion she can feel

Not control but warmth and strength surround her

She finds herself excited by his warmth

For now she can be loved also protected and not scorned

And sails unfold as they begin to drift

A journey new way of love they make

Into a sea of sensual awakening

Of  love she wakes from silent reverie

Her body gently laid across him

Stokes her golden hair across his chest

She finally feels free of evils quest

In the morning the light through shadows play

He lies there sees her slip away

Her spirits to the lake returns in beauty

For only night can capture her solice still
she fades away to lakes side call
She glances up and catches his deep his eyes they learn
she waits for the evening once more
For his return

Inside i cry.

Im broken inside but i dont know why

i fall but do not cry

I have wings but unable to fly

Im here but inside i cry

Its my inner child you see

Shes locked away cannot break free

Sometimes shes strong can run can see

Sometimes shes lost and claws through me

Just need to calm the storm

Hold still until im held not torn

One day ill be able to hold her tight

Just have to breathe get through the night

Fallen angel

You mess it up everytime

You just cant do it anymore

You try so hard to grasp a heart

Then crash and break apart

I swear you just will never learn

Your such a freak a stupid girl

Why would anyone ever want you

You try so hard then bang your through

Once again your on the floor

No respect for you at all

You just dont learn your on your own

No one will ever take you home

Cut another if you dare

not like anyone will care

You just can't tell another soul

Its no use they won't see you

They just don't know

Life a stage

If i can take the stars out from the sky
If my poems can make the audience sigh
I can take a forest hillside wake
I can be a super moon
Or just a fools snowflake
I don't want to melt away
I want to fly swift brave
Be the best version  of myself
And not be second for someone else
Cry another tear of hope
Or fight for a new chapter
Doors open every turn
You're breathing now your turn
Leading lady take a dance
Its your stage to flow
Come  take a chance x

As she walks softly along the sand
he reaches out to take her hand
into each others arms they fall
love s waves they flow upon her shore
as their skin is brushed with
grains of sand
entwined their love has no
demands
no question of what who or why
just love mutual respect now where they lie
for each and every one will
say
this light it warms the coldest day
knowing all the warmth they share
an island escape they both now share
you don't know summer till
comes the fall
so until then
enjoy whats yours

Twist its colours on a page
Beauty drives the hands remain
Fast the strokes of pastel fun
Dash about the page your done
Deep then the edgees turn
Powder of the pail still yurn
Bring the best you can't return
More the oil less the burn
More the colour less the turn

I made a mistake of reaching out

Why did i dare to write it out

She doesn't look me in the eye

He thinks i'm just a stirring lie

Why did i think you'd understand

They walked away did not stand

So now ill go back into the dark

No message read no one to send

Its different now to far the dive

Cant run away can not hide

Just frozen waters once again

Broken suppressed by childish fear

How can you see into my eyes

Like doorways to my soul

I lead you to the deepest fear

Hoping you'd pull me from the numb

Spirit sleeping deep within my soul

And lead me home wake me from myself

Save me from the darkness that drags me in

Each time in tears i wake from the night terrors before dawn

Hoping some one would hold me through the storm
I tried to speak to let you in
To help u see i sorry

Search inside fall your sleep
Visit before endless sleep
Bright sunshine happy girl
Tale of swirling creek
Know the nothing fear the dark
Remove the anger fear
Wrap it up into a square
Place it out under foot
Stamp the hell out of the face
Open up evil veins and
steak knife plunged in heart
They won't breath  again
Take the essence heal hold tight
Never leave in dark of night
to the beach lead her heart
Lay in summer endless heat
Allow the waves to heal and frame
Allow the tears to hug like rain
Hold on tight to every grain
Safe to hold your self again
The only one who trust remain
Together only way your sain

I feel so shaky i feel so hot
Its so so dark inside
A gripping knot that twists and turns
Inside my body the pain it burns
I cannot breath there is no air
A crushing pain i cant compare
I try to breath but theres no air like im drowning but no water there
Im so afraid i try to stand to reach for you to hold my hand
But if i do the shadows will come
I can not speak only be numb
Then ill be fine and ill be safe
No one can touch me if im not awake

I fly to close each time i try
So warm its glow i dont know why
No hand to hold or guide me in
Yet drawn to heat im going in
Try to sleep but there is no rest
Just open doors and chaos quest
In to shadows sometimes see
Like darkness comes and takes over me
Then the light so bright it burns
Just want to fly want to return
Get out break free complete the best
Just leave be free sleep at last
Into woods i venture free
Lose my mind find my soul
Im free

My child within.
Although you cannot see me you know I'm always here
I'll listen to yours words your stories and your fear
I'll wipe away your tears
I'll wrap my arms around you tight
I'll understand your fears
If the shadows come and swamp you
You know I'm always here
If the fears they still harm you
I'll keep the darkness clear
Although I cannot stop our pain inside our hearts I'm near
I can always hold you let you know
That when the memories creap in
And I cannot clear your mind ill take away the darkness and tommorrow your'll be fine
I'll make dam sure the past won't be the last of you
From now we will go on
Held together with our hearts and new memories we will build together
No matter where we are
I'll love and comfort you
I'll hold your hand so tight
So even in your darkest dreams I'll get you through the night
Just hold on till tomorrow
I promise a new day
Forget the pain and sorrow
We'll let it fade away.

I try so hard to understand the pictures in my mind
I try so very hard to see what I once left behind
I walk the line in narrow streets
Heavy walls close in on me
I try so hard to do things right
To live a day to sleep a night
My bodies tired my mind is fast
Full of scared an angry past
Full of pain and dread and fear
Wanting to get out of here
I don't know how to make it stop
The feelings of fear the churning knots
the deepest cut inside my soul the angry words
the masks at windows starring in
The sound of footprints closing in
The fear of being dragged within
The fear this time of giving in
Of standing there letting it in
No longer able to fight the din
Clawing at the bridge of rope another door another room
Another evil to consume
Another evil to endure
Same sounds of shadows pass
Same feel of cold and draft
Then the smell like tar pitch black like cariasote you paint a fence
Then darkness and silence your only friend
You wake your body bones an skin crawling flesh that burns within
You shake like snow has fallen hard
So cold so tired and leg bones pull and twist so sharp
My jaw it aches my ears too ringing silence rips you through
Storms over but no escape
Nightmares gone but you never wake
Instead beneath the ice you swim
Always silent closed within
afraid to speak to let it in
Just swim and swim don't scream  don't ever ever let it in

No written word no speak no time
No wasted breath on you
No need to raise no need to hide no need to fear what left behind
No wants to tell no need to speak no closing in no death to cheat on be that's all to do just be and let the universe sort the rest just be.....

I feel so shaky i feel so hot
Its so so dark inside
A gripping knot that twists and turns
Inside my body the pain it burns
I cannot breath there is no air
A crushing pain i cant compare
I try to breath but theres no air like im drowning but no water there
Im so afraid i try to stand to reach for you to hold my hand
But if i do the shadows will come
I can not speak only be numb
Then ill be fine and ill be safe
No one can touch me if im not awake

Begin again write it still
You capture lose the will
Quiet thoughts enter still
Waters edge be still
Gather paper gather stone
Empty room quiet storm
Efforts their hopes lost
Eager to but tied to start
Aching in the empty dark

I try so hard to reach within
But darker waters close me in
I try so hard to stop the fall
I try so hard to see it all
It doesn't matter I can not reach
I want to trust you I want to speak
So afraid to say it all
So afraid to let you in
I cannot see what lies within

I just don't know how to free my self
The loss the fear  the empty speech
I want to scream I want to shout
My tears are glass reflect the light
Hiding shadows of the night
I feel I failed myself again
Just don't know how to grasp the pain

The shadows running wild inside my mind
The truth inside me hard to find
Its late the night is closing in
Where do I go where to begin
I dance the tune of evils crime
Yet cannot find the words or time
Is it too late to reach again try to tell of one's true pain

So lone your here again
Returning all the time
What is the spell your try to teach
What is the secret line beneath
Do tell as tired I am of you
Lonely calling out not true
I have around me people see
Yet you still need to sit with me
Worth are this wish u to teach
Faded lonely out of reach

The castle walls stand tall and still
There's no way in
There's no way through
Kept the fall  
Too deep the cript
Just till morning
Don't Run to it
Hold on just another night
Just till morning
Don't let it in

When the breeze blows I feel your gentle embrace , when the sun rises
Your the warmth on my face,
When  the moon shines bright the misty moor aglow I see you  
Shine hello,
When your tears in raindrops fall on my hair
I'll know its you
Saying you care
And when you gently turn on the stars
I'll know your safe  in the dark.
If I ever want to see your face I just look at my children their eyes you shine through them and always be near
And I'll gently kiss them and say  nannas near

Aug 2016

Our Bridge.


Into darkness once again but now it's different

Because I've learnt to fall a little way

See a little of what went before but never be dragged with in its claw

As now a bridge I see is there it's wobbly yes but is still secure

It's made of rope, it swings and rocks

Even if  I let go it holds me firm

So I can see what lies beneath

But never again will I fall so deep

For now I choose if I let go

You see I built a bridge I know

I'm still aware of the void beneath, the loss , the pain, the endless sleep, the fear

But now i can choose to look I can choose to see or even feel

But never again can I fall in

You see

as I built a bridge for my child within

She cannot live in fear now

She has my love tied in its secure enough to hold us both

Entwined together our bridge

Is love

Yes the void is deep and dark

But the fear has gone now the bridge is there it's so strong it can not break

You see its made from strength I found one day

It was buried inside too scared to try to scared to climb

But as an adult I entwined it with love it grew

Now my child has the strength to climb

She is with me now safe and dry

She does not need to hide or cry or remember the fear

She only has to walk along side me holding my hand ever so tightly

The love I have for her is the bridge that can never break it's strong and yet it can swing so we still get to have childish fun

it has beautiful flowers it has strong arms it can lift us up so high

It's our bridge so high above

Above the fall

The past is left the pain has gone

The fear is dropped into the void as its to heavy for our bridge

but the happy memories fly with us above

All we have to do is walk along our bridge.

Yes this time it's different I can only look over and down but I cannot fall now as fear has gone and our love is one me and my little girl

Our bridge

By Fallen Angel

19th February 2016
xxxMorning starxxx

When you say the words  " I'll pack my bags and move out "
When you say the words one day I'll leave
It rips a knife through my heart even when your joking it still hurts so please don't ever utter those words again
As you already left before
as you can not imagine what it felt like
as a child to here your mom say those words and one day disappear
Don't ever utter words untrue
To someone who's been hurt it rips straight through
Like the pain is so brand new
Being left when a child so vulnerable
Makes you feel like your a ghost of someone once wanted by you
Now your not wanted and your just a doll torn through
I hope you never know what it feels like to be scared
To look around a see no one is there for you
To be homeless to be unwanted
to be broken it's not even you

When the breeze blows
I feel your gentle embrace
When the sun rises
Your the warmth on my face
When  the moon shines bright
The misty moor aglow
I see you Shine hello,
When your tears in raindrops
Fall on my hair
I'll know its you
Saying you care
When you gently turn on the stars
I'll know your safe in the dark
If I ever want to see your face
I just look at my children's eyes
You shine through them and always be here
And I'll gently kiss them and say  nannas near

Tears in the rain  a new day
Hearts heavy with pain
No words to say
Lives broken torn ripped away
Yet in the sorrow I hear them say
How why where next
All are united in earth's quest
Our tiny planet surrounded by stars
A beautiful home
Being pulled apart
I don't know how this journey ends
But the earth still turns
And warmth the sun sends
Why when tiny flowers grow
And mountains last eternity
Can not they see the world around
Why can't they hear life's natural sound
Mother earth is still
Around
Bringing rain to wash away
People of earth join forever
Help her keep our earth together
Look around you hear her call
love each other don't let us fall
Stand up with love for those in trouble
Hold their hands show them love
Until this world can fear no
more
Tears in the rain hear our call