Aug 2016

Our Bridge.


Into darkness once again but now it's different

Because I've learnt to fall a little way

See a little of what went before but never be dragged with in its claw

As now a bridge I see is there it's wobbly yes but is still secure

It's made of rope, it swings and rocks

Even if  I let go it holds me firm

So I can see what lies beneath

But never again will I fall so deep

For now I choose if I let go

You see I built a bridge I know

I'm still aware of the void beneath, the loss , the pain, the endless sleep, the fear

But now i can choose to look I can choose to see or even feel

But never again can I fall in

You see

as I built a bridge for my child within

She cannot live in fear now

She has my love tied in its secure enough to hold us both

Entwined together our bridge

Is love

Yes the void is deep and dark

But the fear has gone now the bridge is there it's so strong it can not break

You see its made from strength I found one day

It was buried inside too scared to try to scared to climb

But as an adult I entwined it with love it grew

Now my child has the strength to climb

She is with me now safe and dry

She does not need to hide or cry or remember the fear

She only has to walk along side me holding my hand ever so tightly

The love I have for her is the bridge that can never break it's strong and yet it can swing so we still get to have childish fun

it has beautiful flowers it has strong arms it can lift us up so high

It's our bridge so high above

Above the fall

The past is left the pain has gone

The fear is dropped into the void as its to heavy for our bridge

but the happy memories fly with us above

All we have to do is walk along our bridge.

Yes this time it's different I can only look over and down but I cannot fall now as fear has gone and our love is one me and my little girl

Our bridge

By Fallen Angel

19th February 2016
xxxMorning starxxx

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
You still held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find

When summer breezes came.
The sun's warmth a golden crisp of time
Melts the cold ice inside of you
No more broken winters bite
No more tears by candle light
No more burns of frost at night
No more chills the winds of fright
Only warmth if summers glow and song of birds
And trickle of the stream now flow
Gentle waters warm a fragile heart
Till strong a smile and eyes they see no dark
Yellow is now all that melts your day and ice cold blue it melts away.
Be happ free dont let the walls now climb
Only honey suckle light to gaze upon.
Open up a flower of new light
The spring still has a whisper in the night
Take a gentle brush its colours bright
On a new canvas now you write...

I wish odd little things:

▪️First job - Selling Rose's in the Street
▪️Current Job -  Nursery Nurse
▪️Dream Job - Fairy Garden spiritual healer
▪️Favorite food- Italian
▪️Favorite dog - wolf
.Favorite fruit- blueberries.
Favorite Moon - Snow moon
Favorite Character-Thumper
.Favorite Tea -Jasmine
.skills - poetry healer
-Strength- Love is everything.
.Belief- Nothing is by chance . You have everything you asked for.
. Favourite animal - Hare
▪️Favorite footwear- slippers
▪️Favorite Chocolate bar - Dark old Jamaca
▪️Favorite Ice Cream- pistachio
▪️Your Vehicle color – red
▪️Favorite Holiday - Greece
▪️Night owl or earlybird – Nigh Owl
▪️Favorite day of the week - Wednesday
Favorite song- You say
▪️Tattoos_ Angel
▪️Favorite colour - yellow
Favorite Tree - weeping cherry
▪️Favorite vegetables - celery
Favorite Flower-
Daisy/orchid
▪️Favorite woodland animal -Deer
▪️Favorite season - spring
..Favourite Film-
Bambi
.Favorite music- laid back pop
.Favorite passtime - creative writing
.Favorite book-Where love begins

First time I saw her Selling Roses in the Street her hair golden tied in twisted braids of blue and yellow.
Her smile hiding tired turns
Her voice hid unspoken words
She gave the flowers to the people ask
Wondered where to who the Roses pass
Said hello but noone knew her name
The girl who sold the Roses in the rain
Hiding tears and sorrow in her heart she was whitty careful smart
Finished for the day the empty starts
To a dark and empty place she darts
Where pain and  hurt that noone saw
Still tomorrow up to walj again
smiles and sells her Roses all the same.
Smiles and says hello to some what else
Waiting for the day that someone knows her name
Hope they will see her through the rain
Hoping to be held and safe return
Before the hooky thorns slice through the vein
And empty crimson waters flow the nightmares end
One day she was there
And then was slain
Then new girl upon the stall
No question asked no call
But walk through the street to town again
Sometimes a runs through chills in me
See her ghost selling roses in the rain
Noone thought to ask her
Where she came
9nly shadows call her name

Lady of the lake

She walks once more through waters misty blue

As dusk now settles upon the moon lit lake

She lights a lanten to lead him there awake

To the other side her lovers gentle stare

Of lightest blue her dress of silk  flows

He's captivated by her dance

He waits for her though she is unaware

He calls her but his voice she does not hear

He appears  to her yet he she does not see

A spirit she awaits to set her free

He takes her hand but feels no warmth her side

Untill she feel secure she only hides

He holds her close and leads her to the shore

He kisses her  so soft she breathes once more

From her silent reverie she now awakes

She screams of fear and terror through  her fate

But strong enough his love will hold her spree

She twists and turns her spirit not yet free

But echoes of his beating heart breaks through

She allows him gift her body quivers new

now real love his love she can heal
Not controlled but warmth and strength surround her

She finds herself excited by his warmth

For now she can be loved also protected from the storm

And sails unfold as they begin to drift

A journey new away with love they lift

Into a sea of light awakening

Of  love she wakes from silent reverie

Her body gently laid across his chest

Stokes her golden hair he will now rest

She finally feels free of evils quest

In the morning the light through shadows play

He lies there late in sleep
sees her swiftly slip away

Her spirits to the lake returns in beauty

For only night can capture her solice still

she fades away to lakes side call

She glances up and catches  deep his eyes they learn

she waits for the evening once more
For his return

The castle walls stand tall and still
There's no way in
There's no way through
Kept the fall  
Too deep the cript
Just till morning
Don't Run to it
Hold on just another night
Just till morning
Don't let it in

When your afraid and you lose your way in the moonlight you'll see me guiding  you home
When your alone and feel sad inside
I'll be the blanket that snuggles your tight
When you are cold and wet from the storm
I'll be the sunshine keeping you warm
And after the storm and the rain has passed
I'll send you a rainbow and make its colour last
Go on and be happy
with memories we shared
So walk on with  eyes open
And know that I cared

When the breeze blows
I feel your gentle embrace
When the sun rises
Your the warmth on my face
When  the moon shines bright
The misty moor aglow
I see you Shine hello,
When your tears in raindrops
Fall on my hair
I'll know its you
Saying you care
When you gently turn on the stars
I'll know your safe in the dark
If I ever want to see your face
I just look at my children's eyes
You shine through them and always be here
And I'll gently kiss them and say  nannas near

I see it over there
I see it in the sitting room while I'm sat on the stair
A place I often found myself
Sitting in the window shelf
Early hours hearing you screaming crashing tone
Angry sounds and banging doors
Little one I hide alone
Hope a little deer doesn't lose her little smile
Hoping that the hare is out and gently bounces home
Hoping that the moon still shone and owls still listen near
Staring up into the moon
Wish you to return
WHAT If SHEs gone
A promise often said
Made a child tremble fear
On being left for others prey
When she is gone the shadows come

I see it over there
I see it in the sitting room while I'm sat on the stair
A place I often found myself
Sitting in the window shelf
Early hours hearing you screaming crashing tone
Angry sounds and banging doors
Little one I hide alone
Hope a little deer doesn't lose her little smile
Hoping that the hare is out and gently bounces home
Hoping that the moon still shone and owls still listen near
Staring up into the moon
Wish you to return
WHAT If SHEs gone
A promise often said
Made a child tremble fear
On being left for others prey
When she is gone the shadows come
WHAT WAS THAT
SHE LEFT THE SEWING BOX BEHIND
AS THEY MAY NEED IT
To slowly stitch up slices  flesh or simply tie a knot
So to LETS STITCH UP our empty hearts
Say no more im through
torn another night we are
apart
from  THAT was MADE
Then broke
WHEN A NEW LIFE she has torn
CHILDREN and we are older don't need another now
LETS STITCH UP THE EMPTY HEART THAT CAN NEVER HEAL
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE AN EMPTY SPACE
THAT CAN NOT BE FILLED nor be replaced by any other
CAN NOT BE BRIDGE OR cover
AND WILL NEVER HEAL
SHE IS GONE,
MY LOVELY MOTHER
WHO I COULDN'T BEAR TO BE PARTED FROM
SHE IS GONE
WHY NOT LEAVE MY MOTHER
AS WE MAY NEED HER
Why not leave my mother
No I chose you made me choose you asked me and I said
yes go I'm fine
But I meant don't go
I'm alone here.
don't leave please god please don't leave the sewing box lying in the hall
I'll have to take the scissors out and leave a scar for sure
Stitches do not heal scars you are afraid to show
Stitches only make you see all soon I'll have to go
Now leave or im to go
But I may leave no box
Nor in a box shall leave
Alone
For now shes gone and I am lost

You held me

Held safe i cry forbidden pain
My body guarded
My heart open
I cry unknowing with the child in me
Who could not be held
Who could not be free
Given up in darkness
I was all but letting go
And you held me
I was so scared id hardly drew my breath
And you held me
Now you see me
Looking into the windows of my soul
You hold me
Now im not alone yet still far from home
Abd you held me
But you too will soon let go and once again to darkness she will fall
And be lost to oceans call
Noone can save her because I let her go
I let her go
Am frozen in her fate
There's no escape noone can hold me the light always let go
You can't hold onto melting snow
Or to tears that do not flow
You can't hold onto the life inside
When in darkness they come
and slay your mind
And take from you your life your kind
There's no way out
I cannot find I cannot find
I cannot tell

Written in 2011 for he who held my hand untill I was not afraid to try
My friend

Written by

Morning Star

Into darkness waters deep
Cut the steel of creeper wrath
Empty safe a shallow tomb
Angel of the oceam doom
Take away the shallow one
No sign of what evil was done
No care for how the evil slay
No one to save her no one to help
Drop like stones upon the rocks
No more safe or hidden cloth
Slip away as moring comes
Like only dream can do
Until No sign of her at all  
My once a gentle tomb
Now when the ocean calls your name
Elisabeth I hide in shame
No telling of your name
No marks of all the pain
Only waters wash away
Only memories fade away
No words to speak
For silence still
You speak and they will swiftly seek
Your Life will also end asleep
But somewhere up in heavens stars
Your safe and still shine in the dark
And I know you were once of me
A beautiful Angel now set free
U was a child what could I do
To rescue me to rescue you
Only the universe can stop them
While I stay in the dark

When summer breezes came.
The sun's warmth a golden crisp of time
Melts the cold ice inside of you
No more broken winters bite
No more tears by candle light
No more burns of frost at night
No more chills the winds of fright
Only warmth if summers glow and song of birds
And trickle of the stream now flow
Gentle waters warm a fragile heart
Till strong a smile and eyes they see no dark
Yellow is now all that melts your day and ice cold blue it melts away.
Be happ free dont let the walls now climb
Only honey suckle light to gaze upon.
Open up a flower of new light
The spring still has a whisper in the night
Take a gentle brush its colours bright
On a new canvas now you write...
Helene Smith

The ice cold castle winter's chill of death
Come cashing down
where winter's steel cold cript
Dragons make the night seem less cold
With fire of eyes and wings out swept
Looking out she awaits her fait
His steps now close
He gathers speed creates the fear slays the dragons she hides in shadows but he sees her there
Captivated by her loving stare
He takes her to the lake once more holds her but she does not feel his touch
Talks but she does not hear his love
In the morning he wakes she is gone into water deep she enters in
Captured by the tortured timeless spell
Untill the night fall once again she hears  his call but turns to shadows storm
Castle walls cannot hold her safe
Only dragons her hope now take.
Searching for the lady of the lake.
Shallow waters her escape

The sky  light covered a crimson glow of pain
Amen of all sin nations sigh
Look up to who they once adored in sorrow
Yet poppies they will all indudure tomorrow
Tears of rain cry from the heaven above
They slowly fill the rivers with his blood
Yet still the mighty have not understood
Silent in their shallow reverie
Eyes are open yet still they do not see
The simple love and peace of humanity

Into.

November, her grasp of darkest storm
Hunts the coldest deepest forest before the winter's snow
Still the small and fragile lie in fear
She strikes with vengeance straight into their soul
Only shallow breath can now be heard
Slayed in night and cold dead waters curd
No one to save the gentle loving smile
No one to take away to terrors bile
A memory's  once forgotten dream
A light of moon a dance once on a sream
A summers day with lazy waves and wine
A love of a child playing in the sun
Now sleep for in your wake the summer comes
And you are safe
For the storm has gone

November, her grasp of darkest storm
Hunts the coldest deepest forest before the winter's snow
Still the small and fragile lie in fear
She strikes with vengeance straight into their soul
Only shallow breath can now be heard
Slayed in night and cold dead waters curd
No one to save the gentle loving smile
No one to take away to terrors bile
Of memory's  once forgotten dream
A light of moon a dance once on a stream
A summer day with lazy waves and wine
A love of a child playing in the sun
Now sleep for in your wake the summer comes
And you are safe
For the storm has gone
They will get the last of me
But for you the dream is not complete
You will go on the stage is yours to speak

To the place you fear to where the dark you hear
Go through the waters edge
Call for the fires core
Turn your back and there
There is fear but this is what you requested
This time its your demand
Take it all as if it is the last
Dont hide now welcome as your pass
Let it burn and fill you with the pain
Let's its journey break you once again
For know that if its yours the evil cast
The witches have no place no spell they cast
Become the wizards sword
Be stronger overcome them all
Only then you fear subsides
As you become the sword  to strike
The essence of the night is yours

From the north in cold of night silently they came
Bringing with them trails of gold and weapons no strong man could hold
In the dawn they cast out fire
Take away the free
But the one small thing they hadn't seen
Was the galliant swords of Stepney
As while the enermy slept
a kingdom slayed and all its treasure found she sliced there hearts and without their knowing captured all minds and took their health there strength and left them crippled bent and blind
Then left the cool and crimson sight
Disappearing in the fright

In between the waves of truth and honesty reveal
Get captured in the storm that doesn't heal
In between the moments of finding emptiness
Your hit with crash of lighting that pounds against the chest
Inside many jewels they seek but do not find
As always in a hurry
To take and undermind
The quest goes on to find her
The diamond of the sea
But you will never find it
Its hidden deep inside of me
So smash upon the rocks
As many vessel's free
But silence falls her through the night
And brightness fills her day
The storm is all around her
The darkness lingers by
But her lost inner beauty
She dares to see you try
Cast out your best to hold her
Make heavy your request
But in return she'll blind you
And slay you with the rest

stand and be counted
Or run and hide away
Cross me burn me hate me
But i won't ask you why
Take away my value
Understand the fear
But you don't even know me
And you certainly didn't care
So ask you once politely
Hurt me again you dare
I come to you uninvited
Then slice you unaware

He saw her once again her gentle loving smile
Went to see her hoping she was his
He didnt ask her for her love
Only chose to take
Got swallowed up in fire
A dragon his mistake
As beauty from her love he quickly stole away
And in return his life in anger dragons slay
When crossing her heart beware
In stillness and in light
If you dare to harm her
Your taken come the night

Once again its there lurking in the dark
Start off very smart pretend your fair
Try to hide but no escape
I try to talk you round and send kind words I found
Yet intentions are your quest
You try to underscore
But in fear I am best
So don't think for one second think you have me in your grasp
For the fire of the dragon will cross you with its wrath
To those who love me guide me
To those who hurt beware
If your intention is to find me
im not anywhere
If your intention is to take
me to a secret dark cold place
I've been there and survived it its boring and its bare
So try being my friend ill give you my whole life but try to hurt control me
I'll cut you like a knife

A gentle loving smile i see
A tall man  stands calm at the side of me
Softly puts his arms around my heart
Words so gentle kind you say I'm smart
All the sadness now he leaves behind.
7 years of wondering why
Now so clear you never said goodbye
Pictures of you fill my heart with joy
Years of  times where full of fear
You say you had the best of me
once your heart had set you free
Forget the years that followed in despair wondering I thought you didnt care
Only memories kind and gentle warmth can capture a picture clearing of the storm
You were my sweet an gentle person
For that im truly blessed
Il always remember feeling safe and loved when i was small and I knew i was loved
Sleep now my lovely friend
For guiding me through sorrow
Giving me a strand to hold
Then cutting me like a spider weaved his web you let me in half me safe then took me as your prey
No help for me now you flew away

So you say but words I do not hear
Nor do I pretend to know what idle gossip near
The hare it races fast you can ignore
But little deer she hides  so frozen in her fear
The moon a friend to shine the way
But also lends a hand to shadows dancing in your way
Just stay so quiet still don't sleep the night
Then morning sun will brighten warm you through
Take the little path now down the lane
Slowly heal and drown out all the rain
Play a little song inside your head
And don't be long
Until you catch your death
The owl is still but watches over head
And hare he knows your strength
As tested thread

O GLAD SHE LEFT THE SEWING BOX
I see it over there
I see it in the sitting room while I'm sat on the stair
A place I often found myself
Sitting in the window shelf
Early hours hearing you screaming crashing tone
Angry sounds and banging doors
Little one I hide
Hope a little deer doesn't lose her little smile
Hoping that the hare is out and gently bounces here
Hoping that the moon still shone and owls still listen hear
Staring up into the moon
Wish you to return
WHAT If SHEs gone
A promise often said
Made a child tremble fear
On being left for others fun
When she is gone the shadows come
WHAT WAS THAT
SHE LEFT THE SEWING BOX BEHIND FOR THE GIRLS
AS THEY MAY NEED IT
WHAT
To slowly stitch up slices  flesh or simply tie a knot
So to LETS STITCH UP our empty hearts
Say no more its done
RIPPED  THROUGH anf torn another night we are through
apart from
HEART THAT SHE MADE
Then broke
WHEN A NEW LIFE she has sort
SHE WANTED another MORE THAN HER CHILDREN and we are older don't need a mother
LETS STITCH UP THE EMPTY of MY HEART THAT CAN NEVER HEAL
THERE WILL ALWAYS BE AN EMPTY SPACE
THAT CAN NOT BE FILLED nor be replaced by any other
CAN NOT BE BRIDGE OR cover
AND WILL NEVER HEAL
SHE IS GONE,
MY LOVELY MOTHER
WHO I COULDN'T BEAR TO BE PARTED FROM
SHE IS GONE
WHY NOT LEAVE MY MOTHER BEHIND
AS WE MAY NEED HER
No I chose you made me choose you asked me and I said
yes go I'm fine
But I meant don't go
I'm dying here.
don't leave please god please don't leave the sewing box lying in the hall
I'll have to take the scissors out and leave a scar for sure
Stitches do not heal scars you are afraid to show
Stitches only make you see all soon I'll have to go
Now leave or im to go
But I may leave no box
Nor in a box shall leave
Alone

Hear the sound of silence
Enter waters mist
Draw back a cotton window
Gentle breeze lifts your smile
Soft meadow you walk a while
Under neath the bows you pass
Tread the green cool grass
See into the stream of life the crystal waves of light that pass
The hands of one so loving reach
Hold the space for you to seek
Warm days gentle tree
Walk ahead inside your free
Search inside you'll see
Learn to live in peace
just
let it be...

When storms began : Swirling round its whirling sound  it shadows dancing  
The still garden iced hard the winters ****
The sun shines yet melted lake you never see  
Shadows still claw inside of me
The grass so green flowers softest blue  
Yet colours range and angry shade all true.
The wind it works and catches strong
Leap unknown the wall
Taken every finest part they find and now after months of closed behind  
Taken once again the wind its comes ripping though and taking once again
No chance to even say the word good bye they cry
it leaves you there in silence
Water washes crimson waves to blue  
And once again your voice stolen from you
Years pass the wind now gone
But waves of memories flood each part it’s true
How could winds be broken and cut through like a knife
when walls of silence
Close on you
Dont speak don't shed a tear
As if you do the walls again appear  
And in the broken storm torn they call your name Alone to stay you carry all the shame.
Inside the walls the wind still knows your name
If you speak your life wont be the same

The sun's warmth a golden crisp of time
Melts the cold ice inside of you
No more broken winters bite
No more tears by candle light
No more burns of frost at night
No more chills the winds of fright
Only warmth if summers glow and song of birds
And trickle of the stream now flow
Gentle waters warm a fragile heart
Till strong a smile and eyes they see no dark
Yellow is now all that melts your day and ice cold blue it melts away.
Be happ free dont let the walls now climb
Only honey suckle light to gaze upon.
Open up a flower of new light
The spring still has a whisper in the night
Take a gentle brush its colours bright
On a new canvas now you write...

The birthing of a new day.

It's was all happening down at the stream river corve nature theatre this morning, two and a half hours of entertainment  ....

the ravens and the magpies put on a high speed arial display of chase me you ....in between hoiking sticks to build nests like over enthusiastic Bobby dog.

The squirrels performed treetop acrobatics like those little furry pull along magic worm/snake things kids play with on the end of invisible threads.

The wood pigeons are alternating between  banqueting on the ivy ready to start poomageddon season over the car any day now.

Wrens everywhere like little brown ping pong *****.

Fearless robins pecking round my feet.

Seagullls came for a visit singing their song to remind me what it sounds like at the coast.

**** are just hanging about in a relaxed manner generally everywhere  

Hoping I might catch a glimpse again of the kestrel that came through the other day like a jet plane going through the Corvedale on its way to Wales

Just waiting for the sun to turn on my chandeliers (have to wait till afternoon for that visual delight few pics at the end from the other day to

*** Fallen Angel ***


Into darkness once again but now it's different

Because I've learnt to fall a little way

See a little of what went before but never be dragged with in its claw

As now a bridge I see is there it's wobbly yes but still secure

It's made of rope, it swings and rocks

Even if  I let go it holds me firm

So I can see what lies beneath

But never again will I fall so deep

For now I choose if I let go

You see I built a bridge I know

I'm still aware of the void beneath, the loss , the pain, the endless sleep, the fear

But now i can choose to look I can choose to see or even feel

But never again can I fall in

You see

as I built a bridge for my child within

She cannot live in fear now

She has my love tied in its secure enough to hold us both

Entwined together our bridge

Is love

Yes the void is deep and dark

But the fear has gone now the bridge is there it's so strong it can not break

You see its made from strength I found one day

It was buried inside too scared to try to scared to climb

But as an adult I entwined it with love it grew

Now my child has the strength to climb

She is with me now safe and dry

She does not need to hide or cry or remember the fear

She only has to walk along side me holding my hand ever so tightly

The love I have for her is the bridge that can never break it's strong and yet it can swing so we still get to have childish fun

it has beautiful flowers it has strong arms it can lift us up so high

It's our bridge so high above

Above the fall

The past is left the pain has gone

The fear is dropped into the void as its to heavy for our bridge

but the happy memories fly with us above

All we have to do is walk along our bridge.

Yes this time it's different I can only look over and down but I cannot fall now as fear has gone and our love is one me and my little girl

Our bridge

By Fallen Angel

19th February 2016
*** Fallen Angel ***
Written by
*** Fallen Angel ***

hold your faith
If the universe brings you to it, life will bring you through it
If you look at what you do not have in life,
you don't have anything,
If you look at what you have in life,
you have everything.


Happy moments, be grateful
Difficult moments, seek help
Quiet moments, enjoy the calmness
Painful moments, trust in the universe
Every moment, be you

my place of prayer
i feel like our lady is in my heart today ,
the sun is shinning through my window
I'm am not afraid today
i have a little corner
in my room where i like to pray
were i have a little statue of Mary from Litchfield,
a wooden crucifix from litchfield cathedral

a stone from john Bastille church in turkey ,
a rosewood rosary from Malta
and a candle from not re-dame
some pictures of Mary
and one of me when i was young
,i blessed them with the water from Marys house in Ephesus
its my little chapel,
its my place of calm
. i also have a statue of her under my cherry tree
in the garden
my garden of prayer
with a smaller statue of a fallen angel
its wonderful there,
i forgot how much Ive loved those little pieces of her i have
like symbols in a church
and now i have a cross to hold
to pray with everyday
gift from a kind person
who thinks alot of me

by[funny girl]

Begin again write it still
You capture lose the will
Quiet thoughts enter still
Waters edge be still
Gather paper gather stone
Empty room quiet storm
Efforts their hopes lost
Eager to but tied to start
Aching in the empty dark

So lone your here again
Returning all the time
What is the spell your try to teach
What is the secret line beneath
Do tell as tired I am of you
Lonely calling out not true
I have around me people see
Yet you still need to sit with me
Worth are this wish u to teach
Faded lonely out of reach

No written word no speak no time
No wasted breath on you
No need to raise no need to hide no need to fear what left behind
No wants to tell no need to speak no closing in no death to cheat on be that's all to do just be and let the universe sort the rest just be.....

Dark lane move slow
Scared to feel to let go
Another sound another voice
Ripped apart crimson rose
Total fear no control
Taken back
Hollow creek
Cave cold dark feet
******* in a twisted wind
A heavy presence starts to speak
Screaming silence claws the skin
Frozen stillness slices thin
The ice that grips your stolen ore
The fear of never finding land to grip
Surround a blanket colour full
Holds you tight by a fire warm the silence is not fear but a place to go no one is here
Safe to see a fires warm glow
Snow take the wind and takes the kick
Snow takes the crimson rose
Snow takes the Thorn snow takes the twisted thorn
Wake years away from here wake and live new life will appear

So you take all crush so small
And Say never speak at all
Let them see me as a freak
To hell with u
To hell with them
I will never speak
But not because I'm forced
But because I choose
Because it's not yours
You took all u could
Now I'm free not because I'm silenced by fear
Not because I'm trapped in here
Because I choose to be free
Not speaking the truth
Sets me free
As now you cannot control me now
For silence is what consoles me
The universe can take care of you
As silence took care of me
But know this you twisted order
The universe with take care of you
As it has taken care of me
Time will take you too
But unlike you I won't want or need to watch
As it rips the life from you
One day I will sleep

When you say the words  " I'll pack my bags and move out "
When you say the words one day I'll leave
It rips a knife through my heart even when your joking it still hurts so please don't ever utter those words again
As you already left before
as you can not imagine what it felt like
as a child to here your mom say those words and one day disappear
Don't ever utter words untrue
To someone who's been hurt it rips straight through
Like the pain is so brand new
Being left when a child so vulnerable
Makes you feel like your a ghost of someone once wanted by you
Now your not wanted and your just a doll torn through
I hope you never know what it feels like to be scared
To look around a see no one is there for you
To be homeless to be unwanted
to be broken it's not even you

Tears in the rain  a new day
Hearts heavy with pain
No words to say
Lives broken torn ripped away
Yet in the sorrow I hear them say
How why where next
All are united in earth's quest
Our tiny planet surrounded by stars
A beautiful home
Being pulled apart
I don't know how this journey ends
But the earth still turns
And warmth the sun sends
Why when tiny flowers grow
And mountains last eternity
Can not they see the world around
Why can't they hear life's natural sound
Mother earth is still
Around
Bringing rain to wash away
People of earth join forever
Help her keep our earth together
Look around you hear her call
love each other don't let us fall
Stand up with love for those in trouble
Hold their hands show them love
Until this world can fear no
more
Tears in the rain hear our call

Through the deep blue I dived deep
Through the slices red you slaughtered me
Through the yellow sunlight hear your warmth
In still the cold ice white I hid the thought
Slowly grew to shallow call of green
Open to a world not yet seen
Giving little till the purple came
Washed me in a colour grey
Now the dark I see the bright new stars
Not so scary when your still

Don't close your eyes to tomorrow
live every day and remember me
don't hold your head in sorrow
smile as I am not forgotten
wake every day as I cannot
and make it count
smile that I was here
don't waste a tear
I'm not here
but memories are
make some new ones
live with me in your heart
find strength and go on

Alone always but good to know
we are all the same or didn't you know
So if we are all alone at least we are in this together
So we are all together being alone

So warm his smile so calm his words
His loving smile it softly turns
into sweet a gentle flower
Tiny seconds build up the hour
Holding tight not letting go
I fall so fast into his arms
No fear now hes here im free

If i could just be an angel just for one day
id take all the love I have to give and quickly fly away
id hide somewhere no one could find me
then when it was safe id pray
I would fly to a friend who loved me
and in their heart id stay
until at last id not be afraid
to do just what i say
to be able to love completely
without feeling guilty or ill
until the day I'm stronger
to run away to you
ill have to sit and wonder
what it would be like to be free
to be with you
Now 5 years have past and finally im yours at last
My love my life
Im free at last

As she walks softly along the sand
he reaches out to take her hand
into each others arms they fall
love s waves they flow upon her shore
as their skin is brushed with
grains of sand
entwined their love has no
demands
no question of what who or why
just love mutual respect now where they lie
for each and every one will
say
this light it warms the coldest day
knowing all the warmth they share
an island escape they both now share
you don't know summer till
comes the fall
so until then
enjoy whats yours

You mess it up everytime

You just cant do it anymore

You try so hard to grasp a heart

Then crash and break apart

I swear you just will never learn

Your such a freak a stupid girl

Why would anyone ever want you

You try so hard then bang your through

Once again your on the floor

No respect for you at all

You just dont learn your on your own

No one will ever take you home

Cut another if you dare

not like anyone will care

You just can't tell another soul

Its no use they won't see you

They just don't know

Taken lost broken wings
No idea of sweetest things
Angry night in storms she fell
Straight into a frozen hell
Sreaming through thee mist the rain
Noone knows her fate
Spell untill the dream awakes
Still the lady of the lake
Open up another night
Only love can hold her fright
Still she sits on silent grass
Noone see her fading light
Echoed silence falls the night
Fall into a crimson light

How have you fallen from the heavens, my morning star, fallen angel of the dawn! How are you cut down to the ground, you who shone so bright