In my darkest hour
You shined a light on every
Minute that passed

Between that second glass of wine
And that first kiss from
you
I was found in your
timeline
But lost in the
moment

So much of my life has been
spent searching for
*the right person
that I forgot
*to be the right person

Love is not blind
But sees
With a third eye

I think you kissed me in a dream
Though darkness falls I stay awake
I search my mind replaying scenes

Amazed at what my thoughts create,
unsure if your the man I've seen
I think you kissed me in a dream

Sleeping becomes a passing theme
I do not care to see day break
I search my mind replaying scenes

Your eyes lit up like moonstruck beams
The stars, then took you by mistake
I think you kissed me in a dream

I fall into a new routine
With slumber now a distant ache
I search my mind replaying scenes

Kisses collapse into smoke screen
Even bright stars disintegrate
I think you kissed me in a dream
I search my mind replaying scenes

Apologies
Promises to new beginnings
second chances
second chances
I gave us another try

Broken
Oh! My stomach
it dropped
it dropped
like the death of a thousand butterflies

Concealment
The real you
no virtue
no truth
only lies

Deception
There were others
other women
other girls
I was just another prize

Excitemnt
You wanted me
my heart
my heart
it leaped with pride

Friendship
We were together
first date
first kiss
you laughed, I sighed

Goodbyes
Your mind changed
unresolved
unexplained
for all my life I'll wonder why

Hesitaion
Should I fight?
with words
with effort
No I keep these feelings inside

Introspection
I want answers
was it me?
was it me?
My insecurities multiply

Jaded
Overwhelmed with fatigue
eyes closed
eyes closed
I sleep off the day though it isnt dignified

Knowledge
to lack experience
sheltered
sheltered
Perhaps Im not as qualified

Lonliness
I reach for
the phone
the phone
Then hang up because its better to hide

Moments
replaying real scenarios
your movements
your smile
My mind now fully occupied

Nothing
are you ok?
its nothing
its nothing
I say! Except for my heart collapsing in like some silent suicide

Opportunities
another suitor approaches
he inquires
he inquires
Doesnt he know Im terrified?

Prospects
He likes me
feelings
feelings
I cant decide

Quiet
praying, hands extended
only silence
only silence
I look up into an empty sky

Rumors
you speak badly
of me
of me
mouth opened wide

Stagnet
affection comes slow
Im shy
Im shy
Men come at me in strides

Tragedy
all my efforts
in vain
in vain
Desires split, disperse, then divide

Unexplored
"True Love Waits"
***
***
Acceptable only when Im someones bride

Vows
made in wine
never again
never again
Words often pledged when I think on you and I

Wasted
all this time
true love
real love
You mean to tell me it died? Was crucified?

Xs
Your new girlfriend
dont stare
dont stare
I turned my face I think I cried

Years
Life goes on
Tick
Tock
Please hurry and pass me by

Z**igzags
Poems wrote in
fragments
lines
Painful rejection glorified

Despite
Speaking my name into a curse
It is your silence I find so much worse*
The stillness of your speech
Blacks Out
*Every star in my universe

The kind of connection where things are not perfect but when you kiss its
like that feeling on Christmas*
morning
The kind of connection
where he may not be beautiful but
you could swear that his eyes are
made from the dust of a falling star.
The kind of connection where he's the flame in the fire of every
*birthday candle you ever wished on

Oh But Child You Do
Have A Voice
Even If It
Shakes

Our lives are like that of a
hired hand
Like a worker who longs for
the shade
Like a servant waiting to
be paid

You were the dream and reality
broke the fall*
So I boxed up the stars
Cursed the birds for their song
Turned my face at the sight of rain
Demanded the rose to lose its
vibrant hue
For how could I bring myself
to admire beauty when I did
*not belong to you?