Can you miss something you've never had?
I want you
And every time you walk away every time you leave my eyes it hurts to even look at you. How can I miss you when I have never had you?

The way you knew me
Is where I go back in my mind

When I was yours
Confident and sure
But now I look down
Studying the floors

The way you knew me
Is where I go back in my mind is it you I miss? Or was it me all this time?

We drove past city lights
Had dumb fights
Made back up the very same night

Those camping trips casino hits
Is it you I miss or was it me all this time?

Like a chaotic dream
I'd laugh and scream
Happily
Remember the night life glow? Outside the car windows?

And no one knows
The way you knew me

How we drove past city lights
Had dumb fights
Made back up the very same night

The way you knew me is where I go back in my mind was it you I miss? Or was it me all this time?

Resist the narcissist

At first I fall
Head over heels to a man perfect dark
and tall
But as for me unfortunately
I grew up to read
books like Sarah plain and tall
With an understanding that my looks would
not enthrall
still you persist you pursue you even call
Desperate for love for attention I'm
in awe
But Suddenly overtime little by little you make me
feel small
I'm stupid I'm dumb I can't do anything right
at all
The white horse the fairytale the dark prince all under false pretense
Like a nice frame  to cover the whole in
the wall
Everything's fine he's just tense
it's ok  he's still my prince because growing up
I saw
My parents kick and fight and scream down
the hall
For me it was normal this was the only love I can recall
So I try harder on my hands and knees I crawl
I was wrong
Your a monster not a boyfriend
On the bed I'm pinned  
It's a fight I cant win
I drown in your sin
And then
And then
I escape at 3 am
I'll never go back
Never again

I am haunted by the living

Although men have
touched me it was
never me they were
reaching for

My whole world stops
And the stars fall out of the sky
when I think of you
tears start to drop and I ask myself why?
Why does love have to hurt like this?