But the child is now grown and with it the dream gone

Awake tonight with lonliness I can not bring myself to look upon the stars. Full of life I was told. But it was a lie. The stars are already dead. To look on them is to look into the past.

you wanted control so I held back my opinion
you wanted my attention so I gave up all my friends
you wanted obedience so I stayed silent
then you wanted my tears so I cried the whole sea
I tried to aspire to the perfection of how you wanted me
so I handed over years of my life decades even
but in the end what you wanted was never really me

Your right my body is a temple
Abandoned and crumbling
Desolate and haunted

I am awake
But my heart is tired

My heart spills out on the pages what my mouth can't put into words