And I've cried enough tears to know they eventually dry off

And I've heard of men like you
You cry ***** the loudest
But are thirstiest for my blood

You said you were happy
But happy is a feeling
And feelings change

First it thrilled me
Untill it killed me

I was told as a child:

you can be anything you want anything at all. This is your life. You can choose what you want for your life. This choice is yours to make.

But when I grew older and wanted to take my own life I was told:

Think about your family! What about the other people in your life?! How selfish.

Suddenly this life of mine to choose or make was no longer mine and mine alone to take.

Spare me the ******* of how someone else's death forces the inconveniences of uncomfortable self reflection.

You had it backwards. It wasn't selfish of me to die. It was selfish of you to ask me to live.