Apologies
Promises to new beginnings
second chances
second chances
I gave us another try
Broken
Oh! My stomach
it dropped
it dropped
like the death of a thousand butterflies
Concealment
The real you
no virtue
no truth
only lies
Deception
There were others
other women
other girls
I was just another prize
Excitemnt
You wanted me
my heart
my heart
it leaped with pride
Friendship
We were together
first date
first kiss
you laughed, I sighed
Goodbyes
Your mind changed
unresolved
unexplained
for all my life I'll wonder why
Hesitaion
Should I fight?
with words
with effort
No I keep these feelings inside
Introspection
I want answers
was it me?
was it me?
My insecurities multiply
Jaded
Overwhelmed with fatigue
eyes closed
eyes closed
I sleep off the day though it isnt dignified
Knowledge
to lack experience
sheltered
sheltered
Perhaps Im not as qualified
Lonliness
I reach for
the phone
the phone
Then hang up because its better to hide
Moments
replaying real scenarios
your movements
your smile
My mind now fully occupied
Nothing
are you ok?
its nothing
its nothing
I say! Except for my heart collapsing in like some silent suicide
Opportunities
another suitor approaches
he inquires
he inquires
Doesnt he know Im terrified?
Prospects
He likes me
feelings
feelings
I cant decide
Quiet
praying, hands extended
only silence
only silence
I look up into an empty sky
Rumors
you speak badly
of me
of me
mouth opened wide
Stagnet
affection comes slow
Im shy
Im shy
Men come at me in strides
Tragedy
all my efforts
in vain
in vain
Desires split, disperse, then divide
Unexplored
"True Love Waits"
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Acceptable only when Im someones bride
Vows
made in wine
never again
never again
Words often pledged when I think on you and I
Wasted
all this time
true love
real love
You mean to tell me it died? Was crucified?
Xs
Your new girlfriend
dont stare
dont stare
I turned my face I think I cried
Years
Life goes on
Tick
Tock
Please hurry and pass me by
Z**igzags
Poems wrote in
fragments
lines
Painful rejection glorified