i remember when forever was the only thing i believed in,
i used to be so tempted to text you because i thought it'd make you love me more,
but what i found out is that,
you don't love me anymore,
you love her,
so what's the point?
in me texting you and calling you,
when she can see you face to face?
i feel like we have never been in love with each other,
you've never seen the hidden parts of me,
but what's to see?
im still the same girl i am,
when we FaceTime or talk on the phone,
so what about her is so different?
is it that you can see her everyday?
is it that she's better?
you don't have to tell me because i know that's exactly why,
was forever just some joke to you?
when you told me you loved me,
was it all a lie?
i never could tell because you had so much meaning in your voice,
maybe this is why I'm so confused,
one day you love me, and then you don't.
i hope you're not like this with her,
she deserves better than that,
i know you're going through a lot,
and i wish i could be there to help you but i know what you told me last night was so i can leave this time,
after this i am really closing the door for good,
no more us, ever.
you go marry her,
have kids,
live in a big house,
she the one, right?
because me sticking with you for a year and a half wasn't good enough?
how many times have you broke me?
think of it,
and tell me how many times I've loved you enough to let you back in.
tell me,
how many chances have i gave you?
i love you so much but honestly,
i feel so useless now,
you've never made me feel like that, ever.
until you told me you loved her,
so now i know that forever is just a word that people say when they were in love,
but were we ever really in love?
heavenliefaith