I don't know if I should start with how we fell apart
Or how we fell in love,
but whichever way it goes,
We know we fell out of love.
I'm not sure if I should start saying "sorry"
Or should I blame myself.
But whatever happened with that part,
We drifted apart.
I know I was at fault
I know you were too.
We say we were both just young,
Still, I lost you.
I wish rules never exist in love
But if there were none,
I wish I had, I wish I had,
I would still had you in my arms right now.
It ***** how we always say "we are humans"
With feelings
With emotions
With a story
And even when we know we still love,
We choose not to,
We pretend to
Then you showed up with someone new,
I feel remorse for myself
For thinking you are just filling the void between the two of us
But we choose not to
We pretend to
As soon as I hit the bed,
Tears fall straight from my face
Wiping every memory
The smell of your scent still lingers
I chose this, we can't pretend
My mouth longs to speak these unsaid words
It's choking me.
The thought of you drowns me.
I'm just lost.
You choked me. You drowned me. I'm lost.
But we choose not to,
We pretend to
Despite of how we feel,
We knew guilt is greater than our love
So I chose to walk away
We shouldn't have stayed.
But if ever I get the privilege
To have my heart broken again,
I would still pick to love you
But we choose not to,
We pretend to