Many paths await
Should you choose to wander
So with thirsty souls
We dipped our toes
Upon a trail
Blazed by wild Heather
And the scent of sun warmed
mountain huckleberries
Wrapped in the
protection and sweetness
Of an undisturbed
mother bear

We nestled our bodies
Into her valleys
Seduced by her song
the sacred source of water

Climbing upwards bit by bit
And breath by breath
Each step
We became stripped
Of the old world Inside
A soft returning home
to Our true nature

And then suddenly
Or perhaps patiently
We made it to the land of the giants
Where we swam in her oasis
And drank water from her chest
Before  the land lay to rest
And thoughts of how to give back
To this mighty creation
Danced in my chest

As sunlight slowly dipped
Behind thorny peaks
Of rocks
Which rose up out of the sea
So high they climbed
as if they wished to return
To the stardust
from which they came

We too nearly touched the shooting stars
With a sweep of our hands
So close we were
To the mystical viel
between two worlds

We slept like honey
Golden and flowing
And arose like honey
Soft and glowing
As she arose like thunder
With the power of an eagle
soaring across her beating beast
Over deep green valleys
And way down into the
wild blue of a far away ocean

Up here we could hear
The source of her song

And from deep within
her voice called to us
As we called to her
So we lovingly found the place
In the center
Where our two worlds met
And slowly
we felt the pulse
of our hearts beat
Together as one

I seem to look for you
In all places I go
Sometimes I cling
To the memory of your
flesh
Your beating heart and gentle hands

But what is there to cling to now?
Its all just
Dust dust dust

So the walls in my home
Are dust
The mantelsills and coffee cups
Are all just
Dust dust dust
And I wait for you in that old familiar chair
Covered in
dust dust dust
For these days it is the only thing
I know how to cling to
And I want to hold onto something
But even then
A gust of wind easily blows through
these fragile walls
And scatters
The dust dust dust

I look for you
Everywhere I go
On my wedding day, my graduation, even in my lonely walks
Looking
For you
Looking for
dust dust dust

Particles of stardust
Blowing in the wind



I go to peculiar places to see if I can find you
Like hospitals
But all I see is the clinging
That familiar feeling
That itches deep in my belly
The clawing kind of sorrow

As if we could hold onto a piece of mortal flesh forever
As if life was eternal
And I do believe it is eternal
But it's all just eternal
dust dust dust

So I cling to dust instead
of the impermanence of
flesh and bones
But its hard when I remember
How beautiful a hug can be
Just how beautiful a hug can be
And how I long for my heart to touch yours again
How I long to be met by you
Not this dust
The emptiness
Of the night greeting me again

I see you in my dreams often
I wake up crying
With my remembering
I still reach out
Only to find the dust dust dust

I try and stay in old homes where there is more dust
Where there are stories etched into the floors and walls
I cling to your dust
I keep it close to my heart
I gather it in my basket of hopes and prayers just as I gather the seeds for my garden

But sometimes there are these empty mornings like today
When I wake up alone
And there is no dust
In this home
And I have nothing to cling to
Just sprawled out naked
Before the sea of life

So I went to watch the sunrise
Which still hadn't dawned
And I reached out to the sky
Because I miss you
Like an aching in my soul
It's like I swallowed chards of glass
When i realize you aren't here



I never looked forward to dying
But here I am
And who knows if there is heaven
Or if I'll be reborn
And even then
You may not be with me
Maybe I'll wake up one day and it will all just be
dust dust dust
Whispered like a cute joke from the creator
That I need to wrap myself around for a while to understand

There is a gift in creators whisper
The dust that spirit blows every which way
And so I hold my hand out to the sunrise
Feeling the dawning warmth glisten and the birds echoe

And I try not to cling this time
Though I ache to hold something
Instead I try to know
That everywhere I go
And every sparkle and glimmer I see
Is this
dust dust dust
From every dancing tree and blooming rose bush
Every twinkle in an eye
And a heart bursting open
There is
Dust dust dust

I felt you
All around me this morning
So I let go
Of the dust to which I cling
Only to find  more
Dust dust dust
Like a reminder
That you
Are everywhere and in everything
Just as we all are never that far away.

I want you
To stare deep into my eyes
Lay your hands upon my *******
Caress me
Squeeze me
Feel my juices rising
dripping
I want to feel you
feel
Your heart
And how it shows up in this world
I want to feel your journey
Etched into your soul
as you come inside of me
Slowly
So I may be with you
As you are
This intimacy
Stronger than ever before
This connection to you
Arousing
Like chords of red
rising
Slowly
Warm pink energy
Kissing you and me
I want to feel you
Deep inside of me
Blood hot
Bodies rock
I want to be enveloped
In the Ecstacy
Of our two spirits colliding
I want to feel your hardness
gliding
Inside my wetness
Riding
Into comic bliss

I miss your kiss
The softness of your touch
Smoothing over my skin with Grace
Feeling the gentleness upon your face
As you open me
Penetrate me
rock me
Like I'm the Earth
and you sky father
Sliding through my silken valleys
Feel me as I feel you
Squeeze me so every part of me
Can feel you deeper
Make my cheeks flustered
Twist me open
Hot breath Panting
Letting you in
To my sweet golden rivers
Blue fiery mystery
Enter me
Together we open
Together Set free
A union of spirit
Of earth and sky
Of animal bodies rising
Steam and sweat
Colliding
Flesh breathing
Hearts beating
Oh Beloved,
I love
The way your feeling...

And so the poetic journey begins.
From somewhere in the stillness of silence there is a whistle,
the one only you and your soul alone knows.
It resonates so, so much, deep harmonic waves settling slowly. It calls to sleep all unrested ideas, it brings with it a great power, a humbling strength...

The whistle blows only once though, so listen carefully. And in the gentle seas, and in the roaring fiery seas, it is then up to you, and up to the universe to decide, whether you heard the call or not.

There are times
I like to go out in the night
When its rainy and the wind howls through the trees
Like claws reaching outwards to catch presence, the wind showing me the steadyness of my womb.
This interesting confluence of emotions which lingers on my breath and pulls itself from my bones to be seen by the grace of night.

When I go out,
I like to let my bare skin touch the Earth,
So I may feel what cold feels like,
So I may feel what I don't always feel,
So I may bring my presence to this other kind of medicine.

I like
To feel what the night feels and
To feel my own trust
In the sturdiness of the trees around me as they are rocked by the wind and rain.
To trust I am safe here even when trees shake, to trust I am held here, I accept all here.

I like
to feel what it feels like when I allow myself to sink in deeper.

There are times I go out alone
Into the night when It's stormy outside
And not a soul whispers
Except for the sound of steady earth hymns softly singing.
My hair and my body, my heart and my soul are free here.

I find myself here time and time again
Because I like to feel this place of discomfort and comfort, of familiarity.

I like
To listen to the gentle silence
Found within the echoes of the murky night.
Because I like to feel
Even the grief
Of this earth.
I like to go out alone under this dark dripping sky which becomes a blanket, lay in this rich forest canopy and I become a child unto this land.

I find myself here time and time again,
Called over and over,
But I know just why.
It is so I may
feel this
Intimacy which I feel nowhere else
It's so I may feel what it feels like when
my heart beat is
Beating alongside
The beat of this earth
and
When our lungs are breathing
The same breath of life.

Sometimes I seem to have forgotten
Of her body here
Beside me
Her
Warm honey *******
Supporting the sky
Her Silken Valleys
Breathing here in this now
Ever present
Always
In the stillness of the moment
I feel her
Amidst the moons soft glow
The peaceful glistening snow
Sparkling in pristine midnight
I've been lost time and again
Forgiven too many times
But here she is
Once more
Accepting my apologies
Breathing with me
Tender hearts grow
When left to stillness
I feel my own grief
As truth settles into my shoulders
The difficult choices
We are left to make
Her silent call is with me,
Her protection
Washing over me
As I lean into her
Learning
Time and time again
How to be with
All the awkard movements
The discomfort
Being human can sometimes bring
Worry seems to be in my heart often these days
But she is here
Listening quietly
I'm sorry
I love you
Please forgive me
For my humanness
But she just listens and accepts
For nothing could be wrong
Unless I'm lying to myself
Am I lying?
Once again
I'm questioning
If this is really meant to be
She just listens
Patiently
A mirror reflecting
As I move and grow
Through this body
These hands
This human
Through my incessant mind
Filled with questions
When my heart knows
The answers
She reminds me
To pause
And return to my breath
So I do
And I see her once again,
I am in awe
Of her spectacular beauty
Finding the wisdom
In her rolling hills
Finding the place
Far beyond my woes
Where Stillness speaks
And the glistening
forest grows.

I could spend an entire lifetime
Studying the lines in this tree
Smoothing my palm
over warm arbutus
Studying how she curls
and reaches out
To the wayward winds

I could spend an entire lifetime studying
The lines in your face
And learning of how each story
Of you
Brought you more into your skin
And sunk your eyes in further
To the place they always belonged

I could spend an entire lifetime
slowing down
Listening
To each song
The chickadee carries in the wind

I could spend an entire lifetime
At the shores of an ocean
Studying
Each drop of water
As she splashes to this shore

I could spend an entire lifetime
Wondering
But never knowing

I could spend an entire lifetime
With your hand in mine
And you would still be
a beautiful mystery
Before me