heather

heather Oct 2013

zanniez

one pill
two pill
three pill
four
how many pills till i drop to the floor
float like smoke
and kiss the ember goodnight
how many pills till it's all right
xanax and rugrats
high and content
no more stress over what i can't prevent

heather Sep 2013

societal disorder

a monster lives inside me

he makes me stick
my fingers down my throat
until i get sick

this monster promises to love me

he plays peek-a-boo in tv screens
and billboards
and magazines

i live inside a monster

whose business is quite profitable
making little girls feel uncomfortable
unlovable

heather Sep 2013

uninspired

my imagination is stuck in a rut
but i beg it to come out and play.
it'll be fun, i say,
really, it'll just make my day.

i cannot, it says,
i've fallen so deep
and i've grown so weak.
i simply cannot find a way.

heather Sep 2013

untitled

this is
the twentieth
time i
get to
see the
heat of
summer
dissolve
into the
coolness
of autumn.

and i
can't help
but feel
very lucky.

heather Sep 2013

untitled

i don't think i'll ever be normal
i can't erase the things i know
and i know too much
that is my own personal burden
the fact that i can't be comfortable
in ignorance any longer
that ship has sailed

heather Sep 2013

untitled

when i'm
six feet under,
will you think
of me then?

heather Sep 2013

torture

behind my
eyes there's
a picture
of a boy
he has
a haphazard
half smile
and lips
that beg
for a kiss
his skin
is sun bleached
and his eyes
have more life
than i could
ever fathom.