i saw you lose your mind
or rather i witnessed
your body
after your mind went
awol
you talked in endless loops
and writhed across my bed
smearing blood leaking from your knees
and shattering the old mirror on the wall
your mind is the most beautiful i have
ever seen
even in that primal instinctive state
you made sense
at least to me
at least in that moment
you thought you were dying
and you stripped completely naked
you didn't understand life
and why we were here
any answer you could
come up with had to be wrong
because if you understood life
that would make you special
and you knew you weren't that special
but the wild look in your eyes
said otherwise
you don't remember any of it
i won't ever forget it

i just hate the fact
that i have your eyes

the same eyes that
can look back at me with
contempt

an ocean full of malice
and disgust as if
i was the one who
sunk your neatly
built palace

here's to the misfits
and the underdogs
the ones that won't quit
and the underachievers

here's to the reckless
and the foolish
the ones with minds left to lose
and guts left to spill