Drowning my feelings in whiskey
Laying in bed drunk has me thinking
Thoughts in my head
Wishing I was dead
I close my eyes
Just to see you
Blade against my wrist
Wishing I could go
Wondering what it would be like if I was dead

I see you in my dreams
Wishing I could see you in the real thing
Holding me in my dreams
When I know it won’t be a real thing

The things you’ve said
The things that happened
Burned in my memories
I close my eyes
It all plays on repeat
Like a broken record

I say nothing
Laying on my bed
Music playing
While I stare at the ceiling
Phone going off
Missed calls and voicemails
Telling me not to do it
Laying on my bed with a blade next to me
Fingers twitching
Lips quivering
Thoughts of what they said
Running through my head

All I hear from your room is screaming
I hear sounds
The sound of a hand landing on your face
You act like everything's fine
When in reality your dying inside

I say I love you
You say it back
I see through it
Feeling like someone to just be there
I told you not to get attached to me
I'll just let you down

You say you love me
Do you really?
Is it me you love
Or do you love the thought of someone
Who isn't like you