I've never felt
But I'll tell you how it feels
Her hips will sway, his eyes will undress
He will sip his drink, she will ******
Muster up the courage to ask for a dance
**** eyes
She will touch, but he will touch more
Moving with the beat, hands will roam
He went too far, she redirected
Not now she says; the night is too young
Love and passion will grow, if only for one night
It will feel real, their eyes will question
And they will lean in closer
Lips will collide, heat and *** will ensue
It will end in the dark of night
With naked bodies in synthesis
Two lovers, entangled in the sheets

You know she wants it always
The thirst for blood she cannot clench
For the moon no longer holds her sway
A someone may cross her path
And she cannot hope to contain the monster within
For the urge is too great to resist

It will swoon her, consume her, and she will become it
A savage; an entity entirely controlled by pure instinct
A whiff of this and that
And before you know it; fangs will grow
And piercing blue eyes will be clouded
By the certainty of death

She lives for the chase, the hunt
Her pray so fragile, so vulnerable
It's almost sad; she will crush them
Drink them, eat them, forget them
The taste of red liquid metal has her infatuated
And it is all she is now,
For the moon no longer holds her sway

A soul I used to know has left this earth
Left is a void
An empty spot in the universe, someone who was
Life, vivid energy, laughter and expression
All gone; with the dying of this soul

Life was hard, life was rough
It was filled with complication
But she was tough
I never knew her, it was just
A shock; death in close proximity

So let’s not let the memory evanesce
I will remember the shock of death
And I will simply keep in mind; the memory of her existence
Someone who used to be
I just feel the need, to not let it evanesce
So this goes out to you;
Ode to her

Pain, Pain, Pain
You left me
All alone
To fight for myself
And everyday I miss you
You built up
Another life for yourself
Taking the easy, coward's way out
Without a single thought abnout what you left behind
You just threw it all away
Controlled by your fear

Hurt, Hurt, Hurt
So much *******
And I have to pretend that I'm
Happy
Because I love you
I secretely hate your new life
And I just wish I could turn back time
To fix your mistake
This isn't how things should have gone
So I compose myself, put a fake smile on my face
And quietly listen to her BS
And I don't have the courage to get mad at you
I don't have the strength to tell you the truth

I love you so much
But I'm a stranger to you
Give me a silent hug
But ignore the screaming wall between us
I love you
But you no longer know me
Maybe you never did


[Please daddy heal the aching pain inside my heart before it's too late, before everything is lost forever]

I am Silence
You were pushed
Too far
Gradually fading into the background
How can she speak,
When she was never spoken to
And I hate you so much; Mr Silence

I am Self Hatred
You make feeble, pathetic attempts
At expression
It all comes out wrong, left misunderstood
She feels tense, unable to choke out a single word
As if she was gagged, tied down
And looked down upon
She feels you inside of her; Mr. Self Hatred

You all have her submissive
Enslaved, she is so tightly bound
She screams, it's no use
You have made her mute
Beat me, hit me, torture me
I'm broken down as far as I can go
She crawled on the floor, stepped on, spat at
She was worthless
We are one now; Mr. Worthless

Inhale/Exhale
Nicotine being ****** into my lungs
Polluting my body
Soot; licking my tongue and throat
Stupid brain being tricked, thinking it's getting oxygen
It doesn't know I'm feeding it poison
You don't realize till the nausea kicks in
Ha! Too late now
You're already under my spell

Slipping into euphoria
Suddenly you don't even care
About the damage
Being done
30 seconds in, eight hours out
Poor kidneys and liver working overtime tonight as well
You never give them a break

Ash being successively disposed of
Not much left of ****** white now
One last disgusting drag
You secretely hate the flavour
Feeling relaxed and satisfied

I'll agrressively **** the light
And step on what's left of my
Suicide stick
Before walking right back inside
Smelling like a walking ashtray

Sometimes I wish I could hear voices
Maybe then I wouldn't feel so lonely
My inability could be written off
As sickness
I'd be a pathetic mess, as I am now
Only, then I'd have an excuse

I could live my life blissfully unaware
Of the outside world
All demands upon me would be erased
I'd die haunted and controlled
But happily submissive
Too lost, too dumb
To know anything better