Standing tall,
Reading over my shoulder,
I lay in your shade,
Reading word after word,

As the breeze pick up,
Your arms fan me,
Turn the heat away,
Your leaves crash against each other,

The sound soothes my mind,
I relax listening and wondering,
My mind drifts from the book and into my own world within,
Things swirl around in uneven patterns,

Then the rain begins to fall,
Though my dear tree you do provide shelter you are not enough,
I must run to my home,
To the place I belong.

Turning in circles running away,
Is this how you want to play?
Ill chase you till I fall,
This is not a bluff but I dare you to call,

I’m stronger than I look,
Everything I have had has once been took,
I don’t care how you see me,
What you think I am going to be,

You think your something new,
Baby real life needs to come to you,
I will get to you and let you see,
See how it is to be me,

You want to make me cry,
All you are going to do is make me sigh,
You can swim through all of the tears I have shed,
You would rather be dead,

Think I’m morbid,
That’s something I don’t forbid,
I will scream and yell,
Sometimes my life feels like

I want to run away like you do,
Pretend everything I think isn’t true,
But then I would have nothing,
I would be like you and wouldn’t that be something,

You say the same,
But let me tell you this is no game,
Run and hide,
My feelings are not going to subside,

I am nothing like you,
Thank god that is not true,
Sometimes I may feel like I am all alone,
But at least I know I am all my own.

Falling slowly on the ground,
Some perfectly round,
Some big some small,
One short one tall,

Snow is falling,
Parents calling,
Children playing,
All wishing all wanting.

When I look in the mirror I’m not sure who I see,
This girl looking back at me,
She is sad and tired,
She has nothing left to give,
It’s hard to realize what I feel inside,
So dark,
So afraid,
Not even there,
Some people look,
Some people stare,
To see if I am really here,
My eyes began to tear,
I need something new,
Something to come into view,
It’s time to see,
The girl who used to be me.

Shinning stars checking in on me through the window,
My dreams undiscovered now known,
Stories unravel as I sleep in my bed,
The things I say normally go unsaid,

Every want every need,
My dreams seem to exceed,
Every fear I have hid inside,
Chases me and I have no way to hide,

My dream world is incomplete,
There are still plenty of blank sheets,
Yet every night a page is written,
A world for me every one else forbidden.

Fear pushing, pulling, clinging to my mind,
Relentless pushing me to find,
A memory,
One lost but not wanted to be found,
So tired of being pushed around,
I don’t want to know what I have seen,
What I have felt,
But this is the hand that I have been dealt,
The fear pushed to far and the memory has reach out,
Grabbed me before I could scream or shout,
Once again I see him outside my window,
Fear creeps up my body into my throat but I cannot scream,
Step by step he gets closer soon he is walking through my door,
The idea is still too much to endure,
His hands on my mouth saying “shhh it will be alright”
Tears rolling down my cheeks,
Disgusted in myself for being so weak,
A hand on my neck the other somewhere else,
All I feel is pain,
Just want to scream but I refrain,
He won’t stop,
He won’t listen,
In the moon light his evil eyes glisten,
He takes everything away from me at such a young age,
Left a little girl feeling like an animal trapped in a cage,
No use in asking for help or telling my story,
It’s like a horror movie it seems fake and gory,
Too long ago for anyone to care,
Too young to even dare to share.