Its been some time
Looking back on myself
In the mirror, past my eyes
Where the monsters live
The worst of them all, scratching to get
Her messy frizz of black hair stained with blood
Her clothes, shredded and worn
The remains of her sanity gone with her freedom
I watch her pace around, scream and bang about
Searching for an easy exit
All my other demons fear her
Her evil is far greater than theirs
She lurks in the darkest shadows of my psyche
Feasting on my sins and spewing out new ones
Her demonic red eyes staring into oblivion
She pants heavily, haunched over
While her devious smile glows in the dim light of my dreams
I shut her away, i remind myself
I put her out of my life
So then, why do i see her everywhere?

I've been around  a short while
But I've learned a few things
That stupidity is stronger than love
And anger will fuel said stupidity
When i feel like breaking the glass that separates our worlds
I stop myself just in time
I'm on the cusp of going  insane and i still don't know why
Because i want to cry my eyes out
Not because no one cares
I don't even care
Though its never come up
Its always about you
Although were both clearly losing the game
Reality is breaking free
The glass remains intact
And my ****** fingers graze the window pane
Mucking up my view of your reflection

The words will rhyme, sometimes
Lined up one by one
Stanza after stanza
Ti'll they feel like they have meaning
When they're just fancy words
Chewed up and spat out randomly on the page
It sounds beautiful, doesn't it?
I hardly even tried

I walked in, foolish me, to this nightmare
Of a crimson blood that coated my skin
With the mirror shattered and conveying no reflection
It was i, forgetful me, who'd been insane
Down fell the blade that had killed me
Cold was the touch of your hand, dear
But lets not revisit that part
Then, naive moi, i cried out
The ***** and the sensation of bleeding
Metal poison to pure flesh, devour me
Oh, foolish me

I had nothing to say when i flew away.
Above the clouds,
beyond the trees.
Whisper no secrets to wandering clouds
and spray tears like the stars
across heavens and homelands.

If i were a little girl
And you were my balloon,
Would you float away from me?
Carried off in the breeze when i let you go.
I would stare in heavyhearted awe,
Not saying a word
While my balloon drifted away
And i wouldn't move from my spot.
Planted there until you were a small dot i could barely see
I might cry but you weren't meant stay
If so, you wouldn't have floated away.

Lets take some time, just you and me
Sit under our broken tree
To breathe the air that was poisoned
And pick flowers that have wilted
Our muffled words still go unspoken